shahirah samsudin.

Monday, December 31, 2007

last post

This is definitely the last post of year 2007.
which is also post no. 333 :)

Niceeee number!

I'll save the R&R for tomorrow.
I mean its more meaningful to do it on the new year morning
itself right ?

So yea Wake up Call from Kin woke me up at
around 7 plus am . But I slept all the way
till 7.3o plus again. HAHS.

Bathed and got out at around 8.05am.
changed and everything n headed to school.
was sort off late laa.

anyway i hate the meeting today.
i felt that it was a bit unorganized.
yes yes we got all the points at the end of the day.
we did pay attention actually.

just that its really hard to hv two people
briefing especially when both dosent know what
the other party has talked or is talking about.

now i understand how it feels for a listener
to see one person briefing and then suddenly
the other one chipped in. i dont mind if its
like just one sentence to remind or stress on something.

but not that kind of interruptions whereby
u just continue from whatever the first person is talking
bout and then you go yada yada yada....

but anyway things are fine now.

mr siva asked me why wouldnt i turn and greet him
or any other "teachers" . didnt know he'll realise that
since i think he still has this i dont really like
this kid kind of thing.

haish whatever. i told him im really tired.
yeah i was okay. imagine after like almost 2 mnths
of waking up at 12 pm every single day suddenly
u hv to wake up at 7 am ?

i think that explains why im soo moody right now.
and guess what IM NOT DONE CLEARING SEC 3 STUFFS OKAY?!

I dont know why i dreaded it. and i have to iron uniforms
today which is pathetic!!!

whatever!

i think im really happy in school today coz i saw this one
person who made me like really hyper for a second.
or maybe 60 seconds.

you could have guessed it, its, MR POH!
i missed him so much. not in a very impossible romantic way
but i dont know like teacher student maybe!
im kindda glad he wont teach my batch.

i dont know why.
i have mixed feelings bout this!
hahahaks great tt hes here for a minute i went reallly
really berserk as if i saw WU Zun instead it was his
almost like clone.

haish.

i think looking at Mr Poh reminds me of him.
In some ways laa. I mean he used to be his physical training
coach n all. And its been sucha long time since I saw him.
And i hate to admit this but seriously i misss him!

OLEVELSSHERA!

You know i personally think they should
include subjects like singing drama and production
crew stuffs as O lvl subject! Coz i will work
my ass off to get at A1 or even A0.000000005566!

5566?!

Remember them! The last time I saw their photo or poster
was in Primary six and then i didnt really listen to them
at all. I was at ADM just now when I saw their poster so theres
only 4 members now? I assume my favourite guy of all the one
with big eyes is still there i suppose ? Whats his name ?
Tony issit ? HAHAHA!

and teenage mag latest edition has FLH bookmark or
something in it! And i effing wanna get my hands feet
body eyes mouth nose on it , like , maybe , NOW!

im still not done with my new skin.
im so slow. and i think i wanna watch my LAST movie
of the year tonight which is apartment 1303!

sett!

anyway im gonna hate yr 2008. coz its gonna be full
of stress and pressure. i should hire a private councilor
like now! before things get offhand and of course its a male one!
who has this david beckham plus nicky byrne and christian wilhelmson
together with Paul Hunter face combined!

HAHAHHAS!

Why do I mention all of them ? Coz all of the above
look really alike to Becks. My point is i want DB now!
hahahahks.!

Yeah its gonna be tough next year.
Even if Mr Poh or Mr Peng or Mr Pee is there.

MR PEE ? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHKS!
mister pee is peeing!
hahahaks! and ill go Hey Pee!

LOLLLLLL!

I dont know what so funny but Im grinning.
i though if i add that kind of humour PEOPLE
will tag my blog. Its really sad okay too see
so many people coming to my blog based on the hit counter
and i only see 1 tag!

OHHHH I WANNA CRY!

TAG LAA PEOPLE!
ahahhas make me happy!

i already finished reading and the review is on
multiply.com nowwwww!

yetd i watced project viper on ch 5!
not the full thing i started during that plane crash thang
and the explosion thing!

great movie! but why cant they hv that main guy and the
girl doc fall in loveee ?! hahaks

and i kindda thought the girl doctor theresa russell
kindda resembled sushmita sen from India!

HAHAKS weird i know but try googling them
ull find the look kindda similar!
in just one small way !

im bored now.
i wanna eat pray continue cleaning watch movie.
sleeep!

loads of love;
Shahirah ; Shera

PS ; Issit for the better or for the worst ?

Sunday, December 30, 2007

BIG NEWS!

HELLLO GUYS!

There are so many many things that i wanna tell all of you!
i dont know where to start.!

wait!
actually i do.

of course this is the biggggggest news ever!

1) MANCHESTER UNITED LOST TO WEST HAM - 2 ; 1 !
LIKE OMGG! That is super super super fantastic! Right after
the match ended we watched CNA to know the latest sports
results! and ehemm, they LOST! you dunno how happy i am okay!
and and shortly bofie came back and told us the GOLDEN NEWS!
They lost because that effing CRISTIANO RONALDO! MISSSED A
PENALTY! OMGG! I was practically clapping my hands and cheering
while ejal looked so horrified! And to add on to that happiness,
chelsea won newcastle 2-1! Gols by essien and kalou!
-Oh God - is this my advance new year gift ?! Thank you so much!

you guys should see this laugh out loud!

LOVELY!

2)There was UNGU's - Bukan Yang Biasa concert on SL Music SCTV yetd!
which i watched fuuuull! most likely ill be writing a review on it
on my multiply and of course the cliquers site! pasha loooked so hawt
yetd! i almost melted laa! and and of course endaa was smart like hell!
and oncy is cute as usual. and rossa was there too. to sing two
of her songs and of course a brand new cover of tercipta untukku
ft rossa! and i swear its cool! i managed to record it but not from
the start but from where rossa sang! its really nice! i think
it would be nicer if i was singing it with them! lol!

3)school holidays are coming to an end! well yeah it would mean
meeting my beloved close friends and of course be in my most
heavenly class ever! 3e1/4e1! budden at the same time im really
really afraid of the O Monster! I mean like im really worried
coz all i did during the hols is just do my homework thats it!
and even that, i did not complete 100% coz there are loads of qns
which i dunno and i cant risk tt coz they might appear in the papers
next yr. Man i dunno! Its seriously worrying! I really need to stop
blogging and things like that so i could cocentrate next yr!
hopefully!

4)Siti Nurhaliza just released her latest album Hadiah Daripada Hati!
I dont know if i can get my hands on it! Coz i rarely buy cds and at
the same time im trying not to download songs anymore coz of the
increasing in copyright issues nowadays! So yeah maybe i can listen to
her songs through the radio! But that would be boring right?
Theres one song which i liked from the album which is Ku Mahu coz
i havenot listen to the others! Well i do hope its as succesful as
any of her other albums!

5)Look at these two photo.

Dont you think these two people look alike ?
i mean of course the makeup and the lighting and the place is diff.
but just imagine if they are the same people. it'll be no surprise
at all!

The first pic is Nora Danish an actress from Malaysia.
And the next one is Rossa singer from Indonesia!
It just strucked me yetd night to blog bout this! Pretty cool!

another one

they look seriously alike right ?
hahahaks!

however this is the case of normal people and a singer.
the picture above is Dafi Af5! A singer from Malaysia!
And below is a picture of an unknown person who looked like him.!

AMAZING OKAY!

I wish i can look like Siti Nurhaliza!

6) Well New Year 2008 is coming. 2007's coming to an end.
This yeah has been a really challenging year - coping with a lot
of stuffs. Went to 3E1 - tried to mingle with the people there
and then we had OBS in which i know my mates better esp Nerissa!
Jody Li Min and Li Yu. Then i was the compere with kelly poh
for the speech day. And then i remember we got the champion
for debates in which i got the best debator award! Joined EC
and went to drama of history competition finals! And got first
for charades. Won best class for dunno which term! MYE,EOY
and tests. Failed my first chem and amaths test by 1.5 and 1 mark
respectively. Compere for sports day. Performed a dance during
teachers day. Sing during appreciation day. (Cey cey 3 IN ONE sey!)
got a 35/40 for my amaths test in which im really proud coz i was
really really weak back then! got second highest in class from
first physics test. got one of the highest for first geog test.
ahahaks did well for the first few only! Made really good new
friends like Ling Jie JingYee Jacquelin Yvonne Serene Tracy
Siew Qi Nerissa.! Know kelvin sq jas jody li min liyu lili
better! Loved and Hate Teachers!

and moree.. of the good things. and the bad things.

i think i dont really regret anything.except the fact tt
i slacked like mad this yr! so ill try to buck up next yr!

will talk more about new year resolutions and this yearr
reflections this year! in tomorrow's post.

but whatever it is HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008 EVERYONE!
may all us hv a good year ahead! insyallah.

all right i guess i should stop here.
maybe ill post my pictures tomorrow.
in which you guys hv to voteeeee for the best picture okay!

till here,

Loads Of Love,
Shahirah ; Shera

ps ; ryan gave a new yr message to his special fans on myspace!
and of course I received it! HAHHAKS LIKE DUHH!

Thursday, December 27, 2007

life

rollercoaster ride life!
and i really cannt stand or take it.
everytime this happens i feel like commiting suicide!
i will think of running away!

but its usually settled. however, i really
dont like life to be like this.

to me, im always suffering. but to them,
im having the time of my life when they are suffering!

whats this ?
'

i have no rights or what ?
i hate houw authority controls things !
especially when it concerns religion and everything.

i hate living life this way.
tolarating bullshits which i honestly feel
i can do something about but CANT
coz i so called hv no right! and i do so
i will be deemed to be someone who's rude and
lack of morals.

whats all these ?

i cry every time i think of it.
and my eyes are swollen.

by now, i realise how uch patience there is
in myself! but i really have no idea bout
how much is left !

---

i watched chelsea vs everton in which they won by 1 only.
and i heard CNA latest news just now saying that they
drew with villa 4-4! and out of this 4 goals guess what ?
none of the, are by lampard! how sad ?! if only he can score
another one! he'll have 100 epl/bpl goals already!
and i will write it BIG enough in this blog!

im so disappointed with chelsea! and man u's leading sunderland
by 3 now! im just so sad!

i still got some hw to do!
and im not prepared for school! i dont want to go
to schol. i dont want o levels! but i still hv to do it
hence i guess no more computer for me next year!

imma create a new blogskin once i finish ALL my homework!
trust me okay!

believe me, its gonna be BEAUTIFUL!
hahahks im always like this. thinking highly of myself.
when actually i know there are so much flaws in me.

anyway before i create a new skin i will show you guys
the before and after photo that i edited okay!

there quite a few "photoshoots!"
sometime i feel like i wanna be a stylist makeup and hair.
coz i like makeup hairdos and stuffs. but to think of it
i like those things to be done on me! but that would mean
i hv to be amodel or something which i totally cant coz i
dont hv the figure bloody at all!

and my face is so not model-ish!

anyway theres EC tomorrow. i missed it.
and im really tired right now! i wish Wu Zun can appear
in front of my eyes so that i can gv him a gd nite kiss!

and and and i heard their new album's coming out ?
right u guys go buy it okay! coz mom's nvr gonna allow me to buy!

but but theres a shop at adm which sells those cds a cheaper
price as compared to popular or hmv and stuffs! maybe coz it
dosent come with full packaging and stuffs!

but i dont care i want the CD and the cover thats all!

and and and my BIRTHDAY'S COMINGGG!
in like less than 20 days okay!

i wish i will get something ex!
bhahahhas im so mean! jk!
can you guys give me something ?
pray that i'll get into JC! in 2009!

please??!!

im really sleepy laa now!
should get going!
goodbye!

loads of Love;
Shahirah;Shera

Saturday, December 22, 2007

boybands

hey ya'll!
guess what? i stayed till almost 3am to do my homework
okay. exceptional. hahs. but still nothing much is completed yet ?

hennyways yesterday i blogged bout books.
guess what'll be the topic for today ?

BOYBANDS!

I know Boybands = Cheesy.
thats what you guys are thinking of right ?

well maybe yes a bit. but not all the time.
well for me i dont look at things like their clothings
or hairstyle.

i mean well yeah it depends on the time.
it depends on the latest fashion and trend at that
period of time.

hairstyles ? well, to think of the western music industry,
then ill have to say , "CRAZY!". It can vary madly
from nice short slope hairstyles to sloppy 'everything-hanging
-down-from-forehead' hairstyles.

During my time, these are some of the boybands that I listen to :

*NSYNC

BSB

and of course, Westlife!

Though I wasnt there during the PEAK times for Nsync & BSB!
Therefore i cant remember so much of them.
esp BSB! i just remember some of their tracks
they are sooo 90s! Not really my time!

So yeah the first time i heard NSYNC - hahs!
I cant rmeember obviously but i guess it must
be those random songs on radio or video clips on
tv that must have told me that they actually existed.

their first album wasnt the first thang i heard from them.

I , dont know how , found NSYNC's first album
somewhere in my house. I believed it belong to my cousin, Adeq.
Coz hes a big fan of them if im not wrong! So yeah i started
listening to it via my DISCMAN!

i was so so so greatly into their songs from this album!
Songs like Tearing Up My Heart, I want you back,
I drive myself crazy, God must have spend more time on you....
and loads more!

YOU MUST LISTEN TO THIS SONG!

I actually dance and sing to this song and stuffs!
Like i said just ignore their clothes and of course the style
of the dance and everything! Its the SONG! and another thing
they look so youngggg right ?

They look funny in a very cute way!
They look LAME in a very cute way!

But that was SERIOUSLY "BACK THEN",

But hennyways, so yeah i was so into the tracks
from that particular album. some of them have this like
techno thang gg on and u wudent thought i would ever
listen to it but yes i did! and was in love with it!

HAHA!

That was seriously my first time listening to NSYNC!
but like i said its not my first time knowing that they
ecist and listening to their songs!

coz i rmeember when I was younger i used to go my
another cousin's place, Boboy! And then at one timee
his mom bought this album for him.

NSYNC ; CELEBRITY!

That is NOT the official album cover. But im too lazy too
go and find it from the net save it upload it then get the codes
coz im not a big fan of them so i dont hv a folder just for Nsync
stuffs. And their stuffs will usually end up in this folder
called "Extras"! Which is pretty mean i shall say.

But anyways yeah when they released was in July 4 2001!
that was when I was in primary 4 ? i guess. so yeah
i listened to this album and got kindda attracted
to that POP song! Catchy like mad i shall say! It was almost
like the greatest sensation at that time!

and they also had a hit called Girlfriend which was later
remixed together featuring Nelly!

At that time, that was all I know laa! I mean i didnt bother
much bout them coz Westlife too was in the midst of releasing
their new album at that time somewhere in November 2001 if im
not mistaken. And so i didnt bother much bout Nsync!

Funny how Boy's mom bought him all these albums
and stuffs when hes not interested in anything other
than Sega Saturn(at that time) and of course Playstation 1!

that was again not the first time i listened to them coz
i believed before I heard Pop i already heard other GREAT hits
like Bye bye bye, Its gonna be me, ETC

Nsync - BYE BYE BYE

It was really a hit back then!

BUT

Like i said Im no biggie fan of them. therefore i just cant be
bothered bout them. i heard about them through random experiences!
but i kindda miss those time where ill just stay up to finish
listening to their first album before i sleep.

hahaksss!

Nsync kindda broke up! But then they still havent complete a
part of their contract with a certain company super high
chances they might make another album! but idk for sure!

but whatever it is.

I LOVEEE WESTLIFEE!

thats random, to think that we're talking bout nsync!
LOL.

just that im so happy i decided to be a westlife fan when
i was in like what primary 2 ? 3 ? or maybe 1 even!

if i was an Nsync fan i would totally miss them and would be sad
and would be hating JT and stuffs!

But lucky and smart me! Westlife's not on any verge of any
breakups . i don think there'll be any reason for them to stop
singing! maybe stop releasing so many albums and having
too many concerts , possible ; and the only reason for that;
maybe coz they're too old and would like to settle down!

thats all!

anw back to nsync!

i got this from PB

i took it coz it shows the guys faces cleary.
coz at the end of it all BOY BANDS = BOY CRAZY
Deciding whos the hottest in the group is so so
part of being a fan of BBs dont you think so ?

so who who ?
u decide bu Jtimberlakeee is definitely something
and Lance is soo sweet-looking! And JC is kindda
hot with short hair!

So yeah whatever.

I wanna watch GHOST movie tonight!

damn hols are coming to an end!
and im so not prepared! i gotta finish tonnes of assignment!
which means --- > DEAD!

oh and yarh i SO DONT HV GRAPH PAPER!
does that mean i dont hv to do those qns involving graph papers?
HELLA HOPE SO!

And and and im looking forward to tmr! kind of!

im sure by now, no one;s reading my post anymore!
its boring hahahahs!

before i go, plesse ENJOY this vid!
and this time PLEASE MIND and take NOTE of the clothings!

omg, i really cannot 'angkat' okay! their clothings
are like what celebrities nowadays wear when they do
dance PRACTICES! hahaks lets not talk bout brands i know
they wearing adidas and all but so what ?

and the dance hahahaks its just so cute huhs ?

its 1999 BABE!

till here.

Loads Of Love;
Shahirah ; Shera Ryan

boybands

Friday, December 21, 2007

lib

*CLICK ON THE PICTURES FOR THE FULL PICTURE - FULL PICTURE
IS SMALLER THOUGH

I slept at 4.30 AM yesterday night , or should I say this
Morning!

Actually i just wanted to take a NAP!
Yes, really. A NAP!

I wanna wake up at 6AM sharp to give Aainaa a call
to see if she needs anything. HAHA.
I sound like as if Im her BF calling her to see if she needs
anything, and if she does, ill be superman will straight
away give it to her!

That reminds me of Witch Yoo Hee.

Anyway but when I woke up its already 10 AM !
I was like this -----> !@#$%^&*
But, WAIT , I actually am grateful that I did wake up,
alive and being normal and everything!

Its just that, today's sec 1 registration,and therefore
councilors are needed to be there! And Aaainaa is supposed
to give me a call yetd night! But I reached home at almost 12AM.

That explains why.

So i thought of giving her a call in the morn!
HAISH!

Aainaa , if you're reading this,
Im really sorry kay, I didnt go and do my duties.
So very sorry all right ? Theres always change of plans last
minute that I really really cant confirm things with you.
JB and Woodlands is too near that in one minute we'll be packing
stuffs to go there and in another, we'll just say "lazyyyyy uh!"
and then plans will be changed!

Again, IM REALLY VERY SORRY kay!

And you, I MISSS YOU !

HAHA!

Again, I sound like her BF!
Im weird!

Im really really much more IN LOVE
with DBSK! My HERO <3 ! Ive heard loads
of their songs by now! And their MV
was the last thing I saw last night before I dozed off.

Finally ive finished my story book which is for the
EL book review thang. I borrowed 4 books and finished only 1!
And that is only because its COMPULSORY to finish that book.

WHERE'S MY LOVE AND PASSION FOR READING ?

I used to be a bookworm such that I will never get my eyes off
the book. I eve bring it to the toilet okayyy! I read it when
eating and i actually wont sleep or play the computer just to
finish those books.

I read a lot of books based on different themes. I prefer
fiction books. Coz usually theres a better story in it.

I used to read books by ENID BLYTON!
Those short short stories compiled into one thick book!
I LOVEE IT OKAY, when i was younger!

But there was one book by Blyton, that did not comprise of many
short stories but instead was One Whole Story.
Its called The Naughtiest Girl In The School!

If im not mistaken I got this book as bdae present or OH YES!
If im not wrong, Dad bought it for me ! And i was so so so very
happy okay! I really enjoyed reading that book, AND IF ANYONE OF YOU
OUT THERE WHO HAS IT, CAN YOU LEND IT TO ME ?!

HAHAHAHS!

I would love to read that book again though maybe i wont enjoy
as much but still it would flood my mind with loads of fond memories.

I DO NOT wanna be seen going to children's section in the library
looking for his books! Though i dont think it will look THAT weird
since people actually think im a MOM outside! Omgggg!

Me : My darling son, come here! Mummy borrowed books for you
from the library. come READ ALOUDD!

my SON : okay mummy! Mummy, listen to me okay! Im gonna
read aloud but before that Mummu must give me a KISS!

Me : Awwwww *muacks muacks*

LOLLL - I cant imagine sey!

So yeah like i said i thoroughly enjoyed reading that book.

And then I was so into reading!
That whenever my cousin gave story books though its old and stuffs
coz they read those books during their younger years. I will still
read them!

And I still rememeber how proud I was to finish this story book
which has , guess what, FIVE CHAPTERS OKAYYYY!

I actually went to my Kak Nasibah and said i completed this
book okay!It has F-I-V-E chapters okat! And she just smiled
and said ouh okay, i already read a book which has 30 plus chapters!

And i just grinned! HAHAHAS!
I remember that book is like wayyy thinner that our foolscap okay!

If im not mistaken its called My Grandfather's a vampire or something!

And then theres another book which has SIX!! Chapters!
Till now ive read that book almost 50 times laa! LOL!
Erm let me guess the title ......

NIGHT RAID!
okay i cheated, i went to my bookshelf and too the book out!

By Michael Hardcastle!

I cant find the pictures for those two books above!
But ever since then, i started reading and am loving it!

Another book that i read during my childhood yeara was the legendary
(haha) and famous Oliver Twist!

its by Charles Dickens! Initally i thought it was by Enid too!

This book if im not mistaken is like 25 chaps!
All the more prouder i am at that time! You know
lower primary school time!

HAHAHA!

I think thats bout some of the books I read during my childhood
years! And then as i grow up i started being naughty and wasnt that
interested in books and studies as I was in "MasakMasak" or "Girls
Societies" or "Friendship Bands" and etc!

But a year or two later, i got by that phase. And started reading
when oen of my cousin gave LOADSSS of story books. They are basically
Nancy Drew and Hardy Boys series. I read those books during my
Primary 5 and still did during my sec 1 and sec 2 years. I know it
sounds lame but at that time I really enjoyeddd those stories okay!

They are mysteries and thrillers series and i absolutely love it!
The authors for those series are Carolyn Keene And Frank Dixon
respectively. There a few books whereby its a combination of
these two authors and its really lovely okay! Seeing characters from
2 diff books working together to solve mysteries! I guess i read
too many of those books that they so called come alive ! I really
thought Nancy was real! And imagine how handsome Frank and Joe
hardy are! Ive got loads of their series. If you wanna get back
to OLLLD times, you might wanna borrow some from me!

I was really lazy but I forced myself to go through the
storybook cupboard and take all of those books out and
take picchas of it. and then i saw other books too.

I saw Dana Girls Mysteries ; 3 Investigators ; Other Mysteries
Series ; Angles Unlimited Series and a lot more okay!

My Hardy Boys and Nancy Drew Collection - Some went missing!

Hardy Boys

Nancy Drew - such old dress styles! ahaaks!

Working together - I believed theres another one! But went missing i guess!

Dana Girls - also by Carolyn Keene,3 Investigators and other thrillers.

Angels Unlimited Series - which i first got it when my Kak Iba
bought it for me in London. Not that you cant get in spore
but at that it was first published in London I guessed.
After reading these two , i went to look for some more and
at that time it existed in spore already.

OMG I SOO LOVE MY BOOKS!
hahahha!

That was when my love for reading is at ITS peak.
and it still continues when Shikin my darling introduced
me to this author called Rosie Rushton!

Shes such a brilliant author writtng stories bout teenagers
love bgrs family and stuffs. Superbly brilliant. Sometime
i get too "into" the story that I cried. Thing is whenever
i see or read or just know bout something i will imagine if
im that person and then ill cry and stuffs! in other words ,
im quite KENTAL lahhs!

Really really, if im seriaouly super not mistaken the first
book by Rushton that I read was "Tell Me Im Okay Really!"
I cried reading this book! OMG! Its sucha sad story.

After that book i went to look for some more from the Library.
And then i begin reading the Girls Series, What a week series,
Dashwood sisters, Best Friends, PS He's Mine, Friends,Enemies&Other
Tiny Problems, Waving Not Drowning and more i believe ..

And there are almost NONE of these books that I wouldn't
recommend to you guys! Serious okay. Except maybe for
Waving Not Drowning, its kindda slow for me, but still great!

Since I stepped into sec 3, the no of books Ive been reading
has been dropping drastically. I only read during holidays
and times whereby theres no tests or exams which is rareee!

then we had EOY! thats when i really had no time AT ALL!
to read! and so this reading habit that I installed
so called fades away!

A few week ago i had to the book review thang!
So i went to the lib and borrowed 4 books!
i only managed to finish one which is the book review
one and didnt even touch the other 3!

HAHAHA WHATS HAPPENING ?

So i went to the lib to return the books
and then guess what ? Borrowed a ROSIE Rushton's book
and another book.

Im hoping that that Rosie's book will so called make me
wanna read again. I know its lame but i cant help it.
I remember how i love her books and i thought it will help!

i read this book already. but im scared in the mid of the book
i suddenly remembered the storyline and then got bored!

and the whole "PASSION-FOR-READING-FADES-AWAY" thang
will start again!

Hopefully not!
And i really wanna smash the comp so that i will be TOO bored
and decided to do my hw to kill time!

or maybe i should vanish into this air and then appear
again at some forest with my homework bag beside me.
there nothing to do there except my hw! hahaks!

unless i wanna fantasize mr gorilla as lee ryan!
then i can consider some romance going on!
HAHAHAHAHHA - SO GROSS!

i dont know why i can take 1hr plus to update the blog!
so irritating cans! ( lolllll - ..... cans ? )

I CHANGED MY SONG AGAIN!
FROM MATTA BAND - KETAHUAN
TO DBSK - RISING SUN!

I fell in love with this song ever since i heard it laa!
yummy my Jae Joong Hero rockss!

till here i just had dinner.
nice!

Hop you guys enjoy the post today.
and please go and read up!

Loads Of Love ;
Shahirah ; Shera

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

preperation

{Typed yetd, saved it as a draft, includes today's post}

Yetd.

Long day. Was supposed to continue painting
but some stuffs came up and had to do
some preperation stuffs for hari raya haji!

haish.

im looking forward though.

anyway im still not gonna put my photos here
yet today. coz i wanna edit all and the put
them here and then u guys will have to vote
for the best for blogskinning and desktop
wallpaper.

hennyways today i wanna blog bout something
romantic. but its GAY romantic.
i dont know why GAYs happen to be good looking guys.!

like omg - u are good looking and u went for a GUY!
wasted laaa dey! dotn tell me, there are no female species
out there who wants you ? thats so NONO okay!

so yeah one of the GAY couples that I know is
obviously my Mark & Bf Kevin McDaid. Like
damn it, i knw theyve been together for quite sometime
but kevin didnt look that hawt okay last time.

but gahhh i dont know . thats just the way love is right ?

you know, Kiirah and I used to talk bout Les-Gay thang on MSN.
i know it sounds gross but we discussed bout it - like how
do u think they becum like that - why - how do they discover
it and stuffs.

weird but true .

I browsed through my Westlife album and found a rather old
picture of them.

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and these are some of the new ones for a recent photoshoot

dont you think he is just oh so hot ?
hah looking at them reminds me of westlife. has like duh!
and i miss them so much! no no i know im not very perasan
to act as if i know them in real life just that i miss watching
them every single day of my life listening to their old old
albums you know the first album i really ever seriously listen
to is Westlife; Coast to Coast which was actually their second
album. and the one which so called expose them internationally
So yeah now id rarely do all that. i watch their dvds once
in a while i listen to their songs on my player or when im imeem-ing
or you tube - ing other than that i do catch up with their news
as often as possible.

but nonetheless,

I MISS THIS -

The FIVE of them. I wished Brian never left but that means
a diff westlife i guess. im happy with how they are now but still
i miss the old times.

I KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS ARE THINKING " SHERA'S ACTING SHE KNOW THESE
PEOPLE FOR REAL" LOL!!

Thats certainly not what I meant laa just that - gah -
just ask any of their other fans whos been following them
since the start ? they'd say the same thing.

To date they have 9 albums and 14 UK No Ones!
And they are particularly great laa okay! Tho they did a lot
of cover songs which my dad hates a lot but gahh whatever
it is at least according to simon cowell who works closely
with the lads says at least they cover good songs and not compose
crap songs ! Yay`! :) LOL!

Of course my favourite from the group is Nicky Byrne!

Coz hes the sweetest and most good looking hunk
in that band! and furthermore he look so much like
DB! And Beck is so so so MY LOVE!

HAHAHAHA!

You know while I was looking for Nicky's photo in my
PB Album i saw A WHOLE BUNCH OF CRAPS! And they are
my pictures during my post primary school land pre sec
school life! And Darn it, how lame can I get ? Effit,
I actually have things like Emo poses and stupid
looking poses and very acting cuteee! EEEEEWWWWWW!

Im so disgusted okay! Like darn i so cant believe it okay!
And there are SOOOO many old pics that made me feel like
what was I thinking men at that time ?

Anyway where were we ?

Westlife ?! Yeah Right!

I wanna share something good with you guys.
Im starting my old project. The Music Project!
Hahhas! I got Syakirah sis to help me out too
since shes good at writing lyrics so she helping me write
the lyrics for the songs that I composed :)

All right.

I dont know if posting it here will do any good or not!

I remember how I used to be so crazy over this guy.

through the movie House Of Wax a rather old movie.
but definitely 5 stars. maybe 4 stars.
its really freaky okay! its really scary.
kay maybe not so much of GHOSTs and stuffs but some
disgusting gore scenes uh!

and big fans of paris hilton who thinks shes sexy might
wanna give it a go!

Title : House Of Wax
Genre : Horror
Main Cast : Chad Murray Elisha Cuthbert Paris Hilton & Moree

Trailer :

Anyone interested in the movie ?
Must tell me as quickly as possible.
As ALL my DVDs are at my JB House.
Im going back there to take it for you guys tonight!

---------------

Today

Woke up at 11 Plus Mommy's not working.And
like finally we really went to the market
bought a lot of things quite heavy. im here to blog with a
limited amt of time actually.

i have to wash the bathrooms and then clean my room which
i swear looks like garbage area. since eoy it has been unkempt
i didnt bother to clean it haish.

there ar eso many things to settle old books new books.
i havent revised a single thing. what more do hw!
haish WAKE UP SHERA!

anyway i wanna wish all muslims around the world
SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI / SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!
SELAMAT HARI RAYA KORBAN!

Im wasting space.

For those who wants the Movie either Tag here or Comment on Frenster
or Offline Instant Message on MSN! I will check it definitely.
However the earliest u will get the cd in on Tuesday okay.

Off to so called HOLS first okay.

I have another sad news.

Lee Ryan;s Reinforce Love didnt even get into charts.!
I feel like crying okay! He put in so much effort for it.
and furthermore its for charity okay! and it didnt even enter?

i hate the people there in UK!
they pay for bloody rocknroll single and then close both
eyes on a charity single ? So Unfair.

I better get going with the chores! And after that i wanna
finish the storybook for book review!

All rights.

Loads Of Love;
Shahirah ; Sheraa

Monday, December 17, 2007

wuzun

im so unhappy and sad now!
just now i was so so greatly happy after realizing
that Wu Zun has updated his blog earlier today
so i was happily reading.

then i realized that comments are not allowed. only
allowed for some simi VIP thang! so horrible!

asian idol

HAHAHS ! I LOVE YOU GUYS FOR TAGGGING!
THANKS! YOU MADE MY DAY ACTUALLY. =)

I woke up at 12pm sharp again. :(
Then bathed had my "Breakfast" and then
went off to woodgrove sec to buy bro's sch books.

and then headed to WRSS in the RAIN.
to buy my school books. it was raining heavily
and mom broJR and myself were walking,
wetting our hair and clothings.

i wanted to protect my fringe though.
but decided not to since it will still get wet
eventually right ?

so yeah reached school and had to sign in
and everything and then bought books
in which the total cost was kindda cheap.

i have to get my El books when school reopens though.

Bought soem food and then headed back home.
washed my hair and then had lunch.

i think im gonna be sick again laaa
as usual :(

i hate to be sick - at east running nose and sore throat
they are horrible okay! they simply take away
my ability to sing! :(

and therefore i can only sing simple simple songs HAHAHS!

anyway i watched Asian Idol yetd and
was super-effing-bombastically- SHCOKED!
that Hady Mirza won!

Not that I dont want him to win ,I want!
Just that I knew he wouldnt! When Faezah told
me she voted twice already, i was like, "Huh ?
What on earth for ?"

and then HE WON!

I thought Mau or Jac or Mike would win it!

AND PETERPAN APPEARED KAY YETD!
IM SOO EXCITED AND THEY SANG BOTHHH OF MY FAVOURITE SONGS!

Ariel<3

So yeah Congratulations Hady Mirza!
Congratulations SINGAPORE!
Congratulations ASIANS! :)

But what I liked most from the shpw yetd
was the last sentence from Indon President Susilo
Bambang Yudhiyono - something bout, no matter what,
who win who lose, we, ASIANS, are winners :)

and what made me think for a moment is
not Daniel Mantana whos soo good looking like hell!

but what Ken Lim said, something bout, we are too reliable
on the western music industry, so its time that ALL of us
asians stand up and produce something of our own!

my gooodnes! that actually make me pause mentally and think
just imagine if we just THROW every single song or entertainment
material from outside Asia and then we worked on and just use
our very own products. just imagine if its UK organization
calling bands from Spore/Mas/Viet or any asian country
to perform there! FOr THEIR audiences! Just imagine
the people there, downloading (okay maybe not)
looking and trying to get our very own albums and entertainment
products. just imagine a girl from USA For eg,
yeah i love music and my favourite singer is Shahirah
from Singapore ( wahahahahas ignore that part okay)

COOOOL RIGHT ?
i think all the above can actually be a reality ONE DAY
if only we start from TODAY! :)

Im so in it okay :)

I will try my best to complete hw.
this week is Hari Raya Haji and then next
week is just last week of hols! :(

im not looking forward to next yr.
coz i dont want o levels.
but nvm ill just try my best.

ITS NOT TOO LATE YET ISNT IT ?
i hope so ,really.

Thats bout it.
im going to read my story book and finish it for that
book review thang.

Byes.

Loads Of Love;
Shahirah ; Shera

Saturday, December 15, 2007

sequel

*Note photo host is Photobucket i dunno why blogger
photo uploader has problems hate it men! Size might
be unsuitable when using photobucket but whatever laa k."

My, my ; its really sad to see how mundane my blog is okay.
seeing "no new tags" at the board just so dishearten me
from blogging.

Haish.

But nevertheless , here I am.
Still having some passion
to ink my thoughts and happening.

I woke up at exactly 12 pm today.
feeling pissed again, like duh!
and today i have to really sleep early
like 12 am ? In order to wake up
early!

Im still not gonna post my new photos.
yeah fyi, recently i did some Photoshoot.
Ahahas, okay fine laaa, im just acting
like some model ; Photoshoot & Shera - Dosent Go!
Honestly.

But anyway, yeah i did some "MakeNotSoOver"
and then after that I camwhored. I know
it sounds so lame! Camwhoring alone.
Acting cute, acting chio and acting like anything
else but yourself.

But anyway the pictures turned out to
be not so bad except for some whereby i tried
to give that Im Oh So Hot & Im a FHM Model look
but screwed that part up. So it looks really horrible
like hell!

and and also recently ive been doing some
cleaning up of my picture folder. As in the one
that says Shera's Picchas whereby all the pictures
are picture that i took myself and camwhored myself.

And so there are so many LAME ones!
i cant believe how i can actually saved those picchas
and have the cheeks to actually EDIT it okay!

and my editing skills last time is soo horrible okay!
its like i dont know poor colour combination , poor brush
and simply poor editing!

i deleted all those efffing pictures but i saved
some that i still love and treasure though it still
look a wee bit sucky. i think at that time its
one of the best pictures i edited.

no boasting or anything. compare to the outside world
im not even dust laa i know. but you know
self-challenge and self-achievement.

okay fine those terms existed in my dictionary okay!
happy :)

So yeah im gonna show it to you guys
okay , show it to MYSELF!

These are just some of my earlier edited pieces,
i know they dont look so exceptionally GOOD or Attractive.
Budden, just seee laa okays.

and now i wanna talk bout something exciting.

WITCH YOO HEE!

Okay Ive said so many times that i LOVE that series.
and ive watched the ending and everything.
you know when watching it, i realize i think
the opposite way from others. All of them hates Seung Mi
and likes Moo Ryong to be with Yoo Hee. But i want the opposite.

I feel so ANGRY ! whenever yoo hee is with moo ryong!
and i really want seung mi to be happy! coz its not
fair! see, thing is, seung mi is sucha a great gf okay!
shes very patient with moo ryong 's attitude.

she dosent scold him or anything okay! and at the
same time moo ryong is SO VERY IRRESPONSIBLE
AND INCONSIDERATE thang going on! You know he actually
did things like leaving seung mi alone while
they're havin their dinner and seung mi went to the loo
and he just left her w/o saying anything! just because
that witch yoo hee called and ask to come over!

damn it i so hate him okay! even though he is
so romantic! hes very sweet and hes very patient
and he treat his girlS with respect and everything!
just that i thought he could have done better
if he stopped having this "seung mi is more like
a BFF instead of GF" mindset!

Okay ive no idea why im nagging bout him!
but anyway i wanna say i SO SUPER LOVE THE CASTS!

Those are the main casts! Basically, its
Yoo Hee , Moo Ryong and Johnny!

And then we have Han Gain - who plays the Witch Yoo Hee
or Ma Yoo Hee. I love her eyes! And i think she
looked pretty in this series but during other times.

thn we have mr romantic. Jae Hee who plays Chae Moo Ryong.
hes kindds cute laa but gahhhhh ?! I hate him okay!
For being so stupid and choosing yoo hee!

okay i dont know why i hate the storyline that everyone's
supposed to like.

then we have MR OHHHHHH SO HOTTT! Playing Johnny Kruger
is Dennis Oh! I liked his str8 forward and honest
and yet patient and charming role! :)

and and this is the girl i pity the most!
Jun Hye Bin playing Nam Seung Mi! I love her smile
and eyes! Shes hot okay! And moo ryong is stupid!

*Get over it , shera!*

and then we have the bad guy! whos so arrogant
in this series but hes actually very cute
i mean outside when he smiles and all :)
Kim Joon Ha playing Joon Ha the Senior!

and jeanice hates him so much for not smiling! :) True!

i think tta bout it its already 12.30
but i still dont wanna sleep coz i wanna do hw.
oh yes i really did SOME just now. i mean it SOME
okay!

anyway ive been addicted to some songs.

and i LOVEEEEE the sog ONE NIGHT ONLY!

I watch Anugerah Skrin yetd!
And Rosyam Nor didnt win anything ! :(
And no performance from siti!

but nvm ill still support rosyam nor!
hes my idol okay where acting is concerned!
and siti where singing is!

and WHITNEY HOUSTON!

okay fine i gtg
and if u think ive beenw atchign movies at night
then forget it !

after so many time saying in my blog that
i wanna atch amovie at night in the end i didnt !
im sooo !@#$%^&* sometimes right ?

HAISH!

Im gonna collect money tomorrow!

all right im really gonna go now!

Loads of Love;
Shahirah ; Shera & I still love RYAN!

Thursday, December 13, 2007

wyh

late update for today.
and im not gonna post my photos today.
not yet.

but i will post other photos.

anyways, woke at almost 12 again just now.
this is so irritating. how come nowadays
when i sleep at around 3 i will wake up at
almost 12 when its supposed to be 10 plus ?

i hate this.

dont tell me i hv to sleep at 12 in order to wake up
in the Morning! 12 is like ? Good girl ?

Anyway i woke up at guess what ?
Wasted my time watching Witch Yoo Hee
until 4 pm okay! And then i decided to off the computer
in the midst of watching the last ep.

i dont wanna watch the ending. its like GAHHHH!
i want seung mi to be happy.
watching this drama made me think of him.
i dont know why laa okays!

i would actually go to school everday just to see his face laa.
but i cant waste time like that. coz ive got loads to do.

anyway i so love Chae Moo Ryong in that series.
so romantic. and Johnny Kruger!

Okay these are some of those OLD picchas that I found
while browsing through old files.

Look at my hair and my face ? So gross okay! Those days...

With beloved cikgu Hartini :) I thought Aainaa was Ella Chen okay!
and my HAIR again! but i think im SLIGHTLY thinner then.

All of used to be in one group! But I guess because of difference in class
and also different schedules, we are kindd separated! but i still love them.
(erm i will try to figure out a way of minimising this pic - idiotic html!)

Okay this is my sister okay - in case you guys dont know -
yeah really blood sisters. different mom and not the same dads.

Hahaks. ttz about it today.
i promised tomorrow ill post A LOT of picchas.
ill be doing loads of things tomorrow.

LIKE ?

HOUSEWORK - how sad kannn!

My life INREALITY -

housework + homework + school + revision + olevels
+ lovelife-less + not so much money + quite a lot of food though
+ happy family + SKA + super great friends + computerLOVE + TV
+ Music + him almost as a stranger rarely talking to him and stuffs
+ nice and friendly boy friends + wonderful gfs + excutive apartment
in spore + d.storey semi d house in jb + dads car + moms GREAT cooking
+ .....

Omg im expecting my life in reality to be less exciting than that.
Haish wake up Shera! and be grateful. Alhamdulliah. Im happy.

however i do have a life in Fantasy Land too..

My life INFANTASY -

not so much of school + few homework + not so hard o levels
dont really have to revise + 7 maids in the house to do housework +
plus they are very kind maids whom are almost like my bfs instead
of my workers + full of guys asking me out (LOL) + really really
and i mean it REALLY rich + loads of food but im still very slim
like Tyra Banks + even mooreeee happy family with THE WORLDS BEST
SISTER IN LAW! + SKA (everyone single one got a car with the
plate number SKA!)
+ super great frens who are even more greater than ever +
computer laptops everythinggg! + moreee TV programs and Suria
stop putting RIA FM during the day and play programs instead +
being able to publicized my own music internationally + BE A SINGER AND
AN ACTRESS FOR GOD SAKE! + him as my one and only bf (thats
soo impossible okay) + even nicer and friendlier boy friends whom
now are like my brothers + eeven more wonderful gfs who go out
with me and talk bout everything under the sky + a three storey
terrace house like Aunty Roza's but bigger and more private with 7 maids
in spore + that same house in JB but more extensions at the kitchen
and the living area plus a newly built balcony in the 2nd floor
living area and and another bathtub in master bedroom toilet
(so far fetched sey) + a condo in KL + kampung-like house
in Malacca + a REALLY BIG HOUSE next to Kak Siti's house in
Brunei and of course it has to be near Wu Zun's house too. +
another car for Dad + a car and another bike for big bro + a Nissan 350Z 4
me and small bro one each + a personal secretary and manager for mum
+ myself walking anywhere with DARLING LEE RYAN BY MY RIGHT SIDE
ALL THE FREAKING TIME INCLUDING OKAY FINE EXCEPT TOILET!
+ PASHA UNGU together with ENDA UNGU on my left side all the time too
+ Wu Zun and JW behind me (of course ill occasionally turn to wink at them)
+ DBSK BOYS ESPECIALLY HERO in front of me to ensure im walking
peacefully and stuffs in which Hero occasionally turn to look at me
and wink + WESTLIFE BOYS ESPECIALLY Nicky to be in my room while
im sleeping so tt no one can disturb me + Frank Lampard + David Beckham
both waiting for me every morning so that they can lead me to exercise
and also play some soccer after that + Andika The Titans will then teach
me how to play keyboard + And then i will have personal Vocal Trainings
With Siti Nurhaliza & Lee Ryan + then then Drama and Acting training
with Tiara Jacquelina and Rosyam Nor also Shah Rukh Khan + After that
I will play basketball with Mr Yang And Mr Poh just the 3 of us
yes just US - micheal jordan will come if hes free +
and then at night EVERYONE MENTIONED ABOVE
INCLUDING THE 7 MAIDS WILL HAVE MOVIE MARATHON AT MY
VERY OWN THEATER AT THE 4TH FLOOR OF MY
BRUNEI MANSION! + DANSON TANG TOGETHER WITH
JAE HEE WILL COME AND SEND PIZZZAS! (OMGGGG)
+ JOHNNY KRUGER COMES AND SEND HIS HALAL CUISINE! ......

OMGGGG! IM SO OVER!
i was soo into typing that and keep on + + +
until my bro came in and said ure blogging maths stuffs
issit ?

LOL!

WOW!
my life will be completely meaningless if thats the way i live.
but it will be stress free furthermore get to be with the ppl i like okay!
and mr poh is in it okay! wuzun and JW! too !

I cant stand that part of Danson Tang coming and sending Pizza.
And Johnny Kruger coming and send his HALAL cuisine !
LMAOM!

Im crazy. but nevertheless this session of craziness thought and
reminded me to be more grateful of what I currently and already
have. It reminded me not to be so greedy. see how many guy's life
ive wasted in my fantasy life ? david beckham and frank lampard are
supposed to train hard in England and make sure they do well to qualify
for next WC and prove others that they are not higly paid snobbish people
only. But they end up in Brunei beside Wu Zun's house. Wu Zun and JW
are supposed to train with Fahrenheit and Ungu Westlife and DBSK
got concerts and stuffs. Lee Ryan actually wants to just chill at
one of the bars in LA with one of my maids hahahks!

anyway speaking of MY DARLING lee ryan! 3 Days ago he just released
his LATEST SINGLE ; REINFORCE LOVE! :) Its beautiful i tell you :)
I LOVEEE YOU LEE RYAN!

and yes another thing he just added picchas to his myspace! so of course
as his one and only i have to SHOW it to you guys!

His DOG is his GF!
But his GF cum Wife ; which is ME ; is not his DOG!

okay!
I didnt know I wasted so much space talking rubbish.
haish life life.

anyway anyway anyway
my dad's taking exams next week
i really wish him good luck okay i mean!
hes been studying really hard and stuffs!
and being a good daughter i helped him
record all his notes in his MD so that he can hear them
during free time and so tt he can memorise everything
by heart.

good luck Baba! I love you loads!

Anyway i really want Seung Mi to be hapy in Witch Yoo Hee.
i was so fed up while watching the show just now.
keep on seeing tt freaking yoo hee and moo ryong together!

haish.

like i said watching WYH reminds me of him!
and i swear i dont know why okay!

i think i better go now.
im planning to watch a movie later while doing
those homewrok i dont care laa as long as the HW is done!

haish sometimes listening to certain songs
make me wanna cry badly.

recently ive been listening to this 3 songs

cry me a river - JT
wake up call - maroon 5
ketahuan - maata band ( blog song)

they seemed to be the songs that keep going on
in my playlist.

and guess what these 3 songs are about ?
their girlfriend(s) cheating on tem ( the singers)
when i hear it i was like oh gosh! such sad lives huh.

haish i really really better get going laa okay!
byess!

love you all loads!

Loads Of Love;
Shahirah ; Shera LOVEEEEEES Ryan

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

She's back again!

Hey Ya'll! Im back - okay yeah that was a few days ago.
Contradicting from my words, I didnt regret going for the camp.
Even though there were some huge minus points from the camp.
But still, i learnt A WHOLE LOT of things from the camp.

No no , not just leadership stuffs. and those model-answers kind
of things. but the real and true meaning of friendship.
I have to highlight here - Norashikin Mohd Nor - was the one
that made me realize the biggest mistake of my life. She corrected
my mindset on certain and i effing hope that with that, i can be
much of a better person in future and create less problems
for my friends. :)

I also have to thank Suraya - whos always always always there for
me during the camp to hear my rubbish out. Shes always there to
hear my side of the story and give another side of the story that
will make me feel better :) Thank you so much girl.

And of course, I have to thank Aainaa - the one who also always
there for me. Though during this camp we didnt get to work with
each other as much as we want to, but I guess in her shoes she
will realize that there are some extra super huge minus points
bout me. I know how you feel sayang , sometimes I nie very
unreasonable - sendiri nyer moody and then expect you to come
and coaxed me and stuffs. im sorry okay :) Sometimes
i didnt even realize what Im doing. But from now onwards ill try
to be a bit more conscious and aware of other people's feelings too
okay ?

So yeah overall camp was great. And Aainaa and I witnessed
something gross. Aainaa Suraya and I made the whole senior girls
wake up 3 in the morning and report to the Quadrangle coz we werent
asleep yet at that point of time. I sooo love Senior Female Councilors.

Aainaa Suraya Shikin Elyn May Aisyah Mei Yin Atikah Afifah
and of course Natalie and Putri.

So lovee all of them okay!

Anyway im trying to be a good girl by doing hw today.

But today's post will be filled with LOADSSS
of pictures :)

Basically there are loads of things which I mentioned
in this blog but didnt put any pics. So f u guys have been reading
then ull know what Im talking bout kay.

Remember when I told you guys My Darling Cutiepie, Jacquelin Lee
lend me Fahrenheit DVD & Hana Kimi Full Series VCD Set!
Im still very much obsessed with the whole thing! Yeah dont worry
those things are still safe! Ahahas! I wil return it to her the next Im
meeting her! Those things she lend me are like OMGG!

Looook - theres like so many Fahrenheit stuffs! Ahahahas! This can make
me really really really excitedd! :)

This is the cover of the Fahrenheit DVD! All of them aree so cutee!
I lovee Chun& JWDC Forever!

Inside the DVD - theres this booklet thang! Omg i love it okay it has a
lot of pictures inside and all of it are soo good looking laa! In case
you guys are wondering what that digits stand for ... ahahks okay
no one bothers to read right ? Fine fine ahahaks.

OMG! I LOVE THIS SO MUCH! Its this really really biggg poster!
And in this NONE, NONE! of them looked ugly! All so shuai & kawaii!
I loove it okay! And its like pinky pinky in colour - LOVE!

Coz its pink! I really badly wanna scan it okay! hahaks!
I loveee the fonts okay!

Guess what ? In the DVD, theres this sticker page too okay! And
JW drew the cartoon version of the lads! and all of them are
so cute okay!

Zoom in ! Guess who's this supposed to be ? On the left is JW and
then Chun! Very cute right ? JW looked so real!

And then we've got AY on the right and then CC! They looked so cute
in this sticker page! wish i had bought this whole thing myself!

Okay that just shows me flipping through the pages of the DVD!
To show how thick it is! and how many hot looking ppl are in there!
Yes theres a diff in the booklet and the DVD(booklet) itself! Its 2 seperate
things! And there are sooo many pictures! I feel like tearing it out
and eating it! HAHAKS That dosent make sense i know!

Cover oF the DVD(booklet! They are soo cute right ? For the
i dunnohowmanytimes im saying that! They are just so cute! Esp JW!

Poster PLUS CALENDER OKAY! I really regret not buying this set!

Back of the DVD! Yes thats the setlist - its written in chinese characters!
Obviously i dont know how to read - so i listen to the song first
and then figured out the title ahahaks weird i know!

anyway i like that picture! :) I love the blue & white clothes they are wearing!

It strucked me the first time i looked at this that this piccha of AYYL
looked a lot like Xu Bin! Hahaks i know its the makeup budden
still it looked like when Xu Bin is really stuckup! HAHAHA!

Its just an advertising brochure! But cant miss it since theres fahrenheit
there and TANK too i think :)

There ; the CDS in HK Series - how can i not love Jac Lee!

Just wanna highlight! Thats Danson's face!! At the bottom of the cover!
HAHAHAKS! Im crazy!

So now you seeee ?
This is exactly why - Ill never ever forget Jacquelin Lee Zhao Lian!

Next next, remember the OCIP team ? Yeah i told you guys some
my lovliest angels bought me some souvenir from there. Enjoy these
pictures okay! I loveee you guys a lot okay!

So pretty and cute! Thanks guys!

This one is from Shikin! I think its really cute okay! Its a mini fan!

Its got a screw there! So its not some woody and kental fan okay!
Its strong and hard!

And i love the design which Thai hand-paint themselves! I
dont know how much it cost but it does mean a lot to me- ThanksKin!

This "Mysterious" item is from Aainaa! I like the idea of wrapping it
like that and the ribbon is PINK!

Its not a bomb -duh ! Its this reallllly effing cute necklace made
of nice beads and and a really very cute keychain! See the girl is smiling okay!

I really love this keychain - i think i should be using this as my
own house key chain.

Furthermore, below the keychain it says there! Shera - Aina!
This will remind me how blessed I am to have her as a friend
wherever i go! Thanks a lot Sayang!

This oe is from Suraya - this is really unique okay! Its a notebook
a very woody one and a short woody pencil!

Theres a string okay! Like some secret noteboook!

Thats MY fingers btw! And i love them! Coz they are so kind
and powerful! :)

The Inside Of It!

Its kindda hard coz its not like normal paper! Its really special
and i promise i wont use this book to so called plan my study schedule
and then after planning, throw it one side! Thanks Susu! :)

Next next, remeember when I told you guys that Teenage online
send a letter to my house saying that I won something online.
Check the picchas out - Hahahaks - I have not used the thing yet
okay! Im looking forward to do so anyway.

i dont think anyone will bother to go and copy my address and then
sabo my house or anything like that right ? hahahahks! i dont owe
anyone money anyway!

honestly okay! i kow that Ja chou the first time i see that envelope!
kay laa not first tiem but still i know its him.

why ?

Coz it says there! Jay Chou ma!
LOL!

No laaa but really quite obvious its him.

HAHAKS YAY YAY SHERA MENANG!

The prize! I likeeeeeee okay! Mascara youuu!

I really wanna buy a mascara and then i got it! Blessing!

Next next, hmmm , what else ?
LOL!

Okay okay fine , remember when my Kak Iba, went to DBSK'S concert
in KL. She gave me DBSK'S stcikers boook okay! I love her laaa!
JAE JOONG - URE MY HERO! :)

See! That guy in the centre! Is so so so mine!

This is the DBSK LIVE IN KL BROCHURE!

Stciker boook! Yes that centre guy! MY HERO!

some of the stickers.

more!

and more!

okay last last - recently brother junior adn I got an MP3 each!
MP3 Mini! Nevertheless its really cute and its blue shiny!

its soo mini!! and cute too!

In case u guys are wondering where did i take this picchas,
i took it on my ironing board which is wrapped by this old clothing
ttz why it looks so rundown.

Kay kay tomorrow i will post MORE pictures
but they are recent pictures of myself camwhoring stupidly
at home alone and acting cute.

might wanna consider not visiting here tmr okays ?
hahhaks.

i want a makeover!

Okay im gonna do my homework for real okay!
and u just talked to Aainaa on the phone! :)
GOSSIPED!

And we're thinking of calling Kethlyn , Gaythri!
amaciam ? ayu aper !

hahahaks!
I changed my blog song from Fei Lun Hsi Zhao Xing Fu Gei Ni
to Mata Band Ketahuan!

Will write the lyrics sooner okay!

Aites.
Byesss.

Oh yarh before i go , i wanna tell you guys i had the MOST
sweetest dream yetd. Yes it features him obviously!
So nice laa!

Loads Of Love,
Shera;Shahirah

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

hate camp

Im soo not looking forward for the camp in two days time.
I hate it okay! It spoils my entire mood and it always
spoil alll my effing plans and therefore ruining my life!

i hate it all right. what a bloody thang!

And im feeling so effing unhappy right now!
I feel like crying okay! I feel like banging my head
on the wall or something so tt i cannot think.
'

Im soo frustrated right now!
Damn it i sooo hate hate hate the camp!
Fuck it okay!

I dont wanna go for the meeting tomorrow and i fucking dont
wanna go for the effing camp!

honestly i might oversleep or something.

again , i HATEEE THE FUCKING CAMP!

Period !

rubbish

I realize that in this state of mind. Everytime I blogged,
i will spit out rubbish. And i dont want that to happen okay.

Went out to Aunty Roza's house yesterday by MRT though.

Normal routines.

I missed Witch Yoo Hee yesterday and was dead sad
but luckily i was able to watch it back somewhere else.
I sooo love that show can ?

For those of you who wanna watch it, its on Monday to Friday,
10PM on Channel U.!

Anyway yesterday MB asked for the Play It Out proposal
since it wasnt in this computer and i cudent get it yesterday night
i redo the whoooolee thing. Up to 2.30am just planning for Play
It Out - this time i guess less focus and concentration. I can explain
why but you may think its childish - only Aainaa knows why.

So yeah the cycle repeats. When OCIP members came back,
a special one had to go. And when that special one is back my aunty
had to go for her Haj Pilgrimage. I will have to send her to the airport
tomorrow therefore PLEASEEE CONFIRM THE TIME FOR TMR'S
MEETING! Please i cant afford to miss meeting if missing one means
other people just take everything off my hands.

Anyway im gonna miss Rapsody this Friday due to the bloody camp.
And that is the biggest minus point and im like wthhhhh ? And now
theres another minus point about the camp - more bout the planning
actually. Maybe i shudent even go for it ehh!

Since it has so many minus points and ..... haish.

and Peh Ming Bin is not replying on MSN! Just makes me
wanna quit being part of the planning committee .
Can you put ure busy or sumting instead of putting there
im online but u wont reply what people say ...

haiyaaa!

Im soo angry and sad and so disheartened bout the whole thing.
Ive got a bad feeling anyway.

Damn it. Life life.

I wanna post pictures but i have no mood.
Im so moody laa nowadays - pre-period days sucked.
Ill be really childish crying over small things.

like wtf is exactly wrong with me ?

But nevermind lets lightened up the mood by
telling myself that that one and only is coming
back todayyy! Its not that im gg hug him or anything.
But I just miss seeing his name online. WAHAHAS!

and BBB are also coming back today.! I miss Ah Boon so much!
ahahaks.

Im always sick nowadays. Im still sick.

MB has replied but again he just stopped suddenly.
Patience , Shera , Right!

I cant do Maths w/o calculator for god sake!
I need it okay! God darn it ! And i need to buy stuffs
i really wanna go for that efffing camp. And i hate it so much
thinking bout those Minus Points. And whats the ONLY plus
points ? I get to hang around with my Sayaaaang longer that usual.
I get to talked to Susu for a much longer time. And I get
to crap with Shikin a bit more than usual.

i hate people whom are too over-confident! Like Theres a super
effing hawt guy there! And im gonna get him in my arms
right now! Like wthhh ? I know im sometimes like that too but
im not too over confident laa maybe ill go like i superrr effing like
tt guy there! And i want him in my arms! not im GONNNA
get him in my arms!

okay whatever thats just RANDOM!
dont entertain it.

theres so many things tt i hate like now.
and only a few tt i like.

Lee Ryan latest single and MV - Reinforce Love is soo touching- I so love it!
JWDC cutee face.! Danson Hawttt features! Yums!
And i misss MR EUGENE POH SO MUCH OKAYY OKAY OKAY ?

If only i can see him for a while , just from far, its good enough!

What else do I like ?
I can watch Witch Yoo Hee everday at anytime i want now.

I wanna call Aainaa and chitchat but i dont think she has all the time
in the world to talk to me only! Whahahas!

Anyway speaking of Aainaa , i have to mention it here that for all
the DOWN times that I had, she dosent mind if i start the MSN convo
like this, "Youuuu. I hate blablalba.. She's like blablalba......" She dosent
get mad at me for complaining! I SOOO LOVEEEE YOU SAYANG!

And ohmygod i just went to Imeem and i saw A7X Latest image !
Its just sooo TRIPLE H OKAY! So HAWT HAWT HEAT!
I rarely get updated on them coz im not a big fan but suddenly
the loo so hawt .Ahahhas. I likeeee gitu deh!

Im changing the song! Im sure ure sick of Zhao Xing Fu Gei Ni!
Im changing to Indon songs maybe. Ahhh! I misss those times
where Ill just sit in front of the TV and watch Indon channel
all the way. Ahahaks. UNGUUUUU <3

I think im going offf.! Anyone with extra calculator ?
GIVE it to me can ? HAHAHA!

You're my only one :)

Loads Of Love;
Shahirah;Shera

Monday, December 03, 2007

Dont know

I seriously dont know how to start.
SKA Pleasee come to the rescue asap!

Right Im very straight forward. Ill ask for help
if I really need to. I dont go like eheh erm heh erm
no need laa .. if i n eed it ill just say yes!

I need help okay!

Im sucha sad person.
You know Im a very disturbed person.
My mind thinks 24/7 - thinks of ALL sorts of stuffs.
I over react to certain things but I mean it.

AHHHH!
But SKA i really dont know where to start okay!
I gotta talk slowly.

And I already said You'll know what a bad person I am okay!

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Anyway today woke up kindda early and had breakfast
and stuff and watch Teevee and stuffs. I did Emaths but
was really effing devastated when i found out that
both mine and bro's calculator are spoilt!

yes that so called quite ex-for-a-calculator calculator
is spoil. Aiyaaa.

And im having some problems now since my mental sums
are oh not that good.

haish. seee. im already so diligent okay.
trying to hw and everything and then technology gives
problems.

Anyway went out at around 2.30pm to KG just now.
enjoyed the MRT ride there though it was tiring like
hell.

had to stand okay :(

sundaysss :(

so yeah reached there and get Mum to serve me
Ice Lime Tea :)

All right and then played Uno with Faezah Baby and Iqa
coz they happened to be there. Time flies. And then we
headed to my Aunty Roza's house.

Spend the rest of the day there.

My Kak Iba was so effffffing times ten million NICE kay!
Recently she watched Hot Boyband from Korea, DBSK concerts.
I know, its not that Im sooo into them or anything.
Just that i so lovee that Hero guy and of course i like
some of their songs.

And soo guess what ? She actually gave me the STICKERS
of DBSK Boys okay! Im like so happy now can ? I mean theres
so many of Her's picture there. I wished i hadnt thrown that
freaking hello kitty sticker book or sumting.
ahahaks.

Anyway Hero is not as hawt as Jiro Wang or Wu Zun or even
Danson Tang! But still hes really cuteee :)

if only it was Fahrenheit's concert's that she attended!
Im gonna cry okay :(

Okay i hate myself for having stupid thoughts
but i just cant keep secrets laa. And im eaily guilty
bout things. GAHHH! And i just found out something
really effing horrible.

Anyway Im telling myself that i cant say NOOOOO more
vulgarities :( NONO!

I hate it when i say out vulgarities - its just not me!
Im trying to be a good girl coz I believe that Anything
can happen Anytime. Up to GOD!

and I cant wait till im like an AH MAH then i wanna start
fulfilling 5 prayers per day and read the Quraan and stuffs.
Please.

I wanna start NOW!

Other than those UGLY thoughts, life is perfect laa.
Haish i wish I can restart life and be really good this time.

LIFE IS JUST ONCE - THEREFORE BE GOOD

Right. Im beginning to get really poetic and stuffs.
u know me right. my mind is just so hyper active :(

Okay i hope tonight, i can really sleep well without having
to think of milliion of things :(

Oh anyway Kak Siti reached Spore today.
Pretaye pretaye :)

Aites till here.

Zai Jian

Loads Of Love;
Shahirah ; Shera

Saturday, December 01, 2007

depression

Ive been in this depression mode for almost the whole
of yesterday. One was in the midday coz of CCA and another
one at night because of something tt used to be my habit sometime
ago but now i realize what a cruel person i've been.

People say, never regret anything in life, because those things
are things that make what you are today. Yeah I know.
However i just wish wish wish this particular habit that
i have never even existed at all.

Yeah , true people. I need someone to talk to bout this.
But im afraid, i have to expose some of the really bad
things bout me. And im scared my friend will go like,
'Obviously shera is not a good person and blahs blahs..'

Honestly, I am ultimately prepared for that kind of reaction.
Its just that i dont want it to happen. I dont want people
to have mixed feelings or even worse Bad feelings bout me.

I dont think i can forgive myself.
I doubt Allah can forgive me.
I would never dream of Mom and Dad forgiving me
if they knew bout this all along.

I dont know who to talk to about this.

Yeah im depressed. I cried until my head was so painful
yesterday night. And I gave myself a tight slap on my
right side of my face. It hurts so much. But the ache and pain
in my heart was so much much more. And im very sure the
pain experience by the other party is much worse.

You know im not usually like this. Saying im depressed and all.
Im trying to be Paris Hilton all my life. Just happy and nothing
to worry about.

But I realize . . . Life cant be that easy right ?
Even for Paris , I guess.

I talked to the other party yesterday night right after my prayers. In Msn.
I asked him if he remember those times and he said not really.
And he said its his fault. He seem not to really care bout it when
Im dying just thinking bout it. I asked why ? And he said I wanna
forget it. And i said blahblahs i feel sad and all and he said just dont
remember n think of it again.

HOW CAN I ?

After doing such things. To my very own f&b.
My parents not having a single clue ? And thinking
im such a good girl all these while ?

I dont know - why do i have such a BLACK DIRTY heart ?
Did I inherit those damned attitude from someone ?
Why am I always jealous of people ? Why am I always thinking
of NEVER letting this person get what he/she wants ?

WHY ?

Why am I so bad ? I dont want to bad.
I keep on praying to God. Pleease lead me and let me be
a good and noble person. I dont fcking care whether I get
a flying high A1 for my subjects as long as I can be someone
decent who puts others first before myself.

Regretting is no use, they say. But all I can do now is regret it
and make sure it dosent happen ever again . But i find it hard
to move on - im conscious bout the other party's feelings.
Even though he already said, hes fine and forgives me but
i dont find it convincing ? What if my parents know ?

I dont know whats going on around me , in me ?

What & Why ? How come ?
I can never seem to answer!

I hate myself right now. I hate it when theres something that
I know but MomDad dosent know. Im very close to them
- no secrets - therefore this is killing me.

Allah, please help me , guide me, turn me into e a really nice person,
with a sincere heart, and less hatred and envy for everyone around me
especially this paticular other party.

Because I Love Him and I will Willingly and No doubt,
will die for him .

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Lets be fake and get back to my Paris Hilton life.
Im so very happy today. I went for drama, though a bit dissapointment
there. But nevertheless, learnt a lot.

Met up with Aainaa and Susu who are really darn it sweet people
guess what ? They bought me souvenirs Aainaa bought me this
really nice necklace kindda thing and also one super ultimately
cuteee keychain which has a bell and at the bottom it says
there Aainaa and then at the bottom Shera! =) So sweet.

I loveee you so much sayanggg Aainaa!

Susu bought me this reallly superr nice notebook. Yes people for
your informaion i superrrr love notebooks! I mean of course
not the small blue notebo0k but any notebook which is as long
not like that blue one. And so, i lovee this notebook thing. it comes
with a cutee pencil 'kontot' and its got strings to open the notebook
so coooool! and the papers inside are not normal papers i suppose
its likes a special one. i suppose this ntbook is meant for more like
display purposes all the moreee i lovee it! coz i dont really like
to write in nice ntbooks. maybe i will but really really super neatly.

so suraya, i lovee you so much! :)
thankiew for that gift.:)

BUT

today i made susu and aainaa go mad like i dont know what.
when they called home and EJ said i went out already to school
but they didnt see me in school at all. they were panicking!
actually i was having CCA , my fault for not telling but the prblem
is i called susu countless times yetd night but no reply so i thought
id just explain the next day but when i reached school at 9 plus
and no one was there so i thought id look for them during the break time.

but lil did i know that they are panicking :(

Im so sorry okay guys!
I promise that next time ill call as many people an let them know
in advance! okay ?

all right.

im trying ti keep myself occupied so that my mind wouldnt think
of anything bad. :(

haish life life.

Okays i sooo love fahrenheit.
but u guys know already right ?

i miss Pasha's bdae the other day. :(
but nvm not like it matter.

How come 3 AM is like the new 12 AM ?
A LOT of people will be online at around 1AM TO 2 AM PLUS
and then 3AM onwards people will start gg offline.

anw i miss him, u know, hes always online at lateee night.

Till here.

Ni Bu Hui Ai
Wo de Ai
Wo Ming Bai

I got that part of the lyrics right okay just by listening. :)

Loads of Love ;
Shahirah;Shera