Shera's Daily Rants

Episode 4 & 5 & 6

2011-01-06T07:16:00.007+08:00

Episode 4

& so Back To School.

I was really excited for a few reasons.
Namely, it is the first time Im meeting the class after
almost two months. Secondly, its the first time Im meeting
Cikgu Pitchay also after enarly two months. Third, I'm
really excited to start studying back and to learn learn
and continue learning. Fourth, when I said 2011 will
provide loads of excitement, new things and opportunities,
school is defnitely included. That's why I looked forward
to school today.

Its absolutely lovely to be back in class again.
With Cikgu's rantings, jokes and new thoughts, my
classmates antics and the old room (TR14) makes it
a great kick start to the few months left that we have together.

Speaking of few months left, I really can't believe we
only have a few months left. In STP. With my classmates.
With Cikgu. With the Old room. It seems like yesterday
I was waiting anxiously whether I could get into this
STP Programme, seems like yesterday Baba was exchanging
emails with Ms Seah to ask her more bout STP, seems like
yesterday was my first ever Santai Sastera.

Its January 2011 now. I've learned so much bout STP.
I came to love STP so much. I came to know this awesome
lady called Ms Seah. And guess what ? I am handling
Santai Sastera. How time flies, and there's so much
that I learned already. Yet, there's still so much
more to discover and learn.

Its true when they say 'Tuntutlah ilmu sehingga ke liang lahad'.
I believe that till my last ever breathe, I will still be able to
learn something. There will always always always be something
yet to be discovered. Only Allah knows all. Imagine how there never
is a stop to seeking new knowledge and learning new things.

ILMU - is just a four letter word. Its such a short and small word.
And I honestly have never ever thought of how infinitely big the
meaning is. Infinity. There never is a stop or limit to it.
It will always be there and it will always be the most important
thing in life. If there is one thing that Cikgu Pitchay teaches
and I will never ever forget is the importance of Ilmu. (I wont
forget Bebalisme too of course, that's the first thing he ever
talked to us about)

PDBS Project, Alhamdullilah, I hope this time we're on the right
track. Lucky for me, I was never demotivated or anything like that
when things go wrong and did not go as planned, (hmmm, a mature side
of me showing?) I know its a pioneer project, Its our Baby. There will
be tonnes of loopholes but we're here to learn. We learn and correct
the mistakes and move on and be better.

Speaking of the project, on the 4th, the whole team went down
to the house of one of the biggest, in fact biggest name ever in the history
of Dikir Barat Singapura, Wak Rani. His place is in Bukit Batok
and as usual we posed questions as part of ouf interview. Even though,
I felt super duper guilty for falling asleep for a while (super sad),
I have to admit that this interview has taught me a lot.

Pucuk Kepimpinan - that phrase came out of his mouth a few times.
Leadership. Cikgu Pitchay also stresses on the importance of leadership.
Leadership is not just bout the position. Its about the actions that came
along, the responsibility, the fairness, the influence, the impact and
most importantly to me, the passion.

It takes a leader to determine the way something goes.
or what happens. or what will happen.
or if theres ever anything going to happen at all.

If you ask me, I'd say Im a good leader.
Yeah, heck, that sounds like shit and bloody
ignorant cum thick skinned.

I am a good leader. Because I dont just talk and bablle but I make
sure it happens. I act upon something. I am responsible. When
I say something will be done, then it bloody will. Even the littlest
of things. I can influence people. From there create an impact.
Most importantly, I choose the right things I wanna do and make sure
my passion shows. Nite: I'd never do anything that I don't like
or don't have a passion towards.

Fairness is missing. Because I dont think Im a fair leader.
I have too much emotions taking part in this game too.
I've got to set it straight. When emotions gets in,
a lot of things become irrational and unfair. If I were Ariff,
my class representative for instance, I probably won't let maybe,
Hairani do anything in class coz of the indifference between me and her.

Yes, I'm willing to learn to put such emotions out of the game.
How and by when ? It takes time. Definitely. I can change overnight
but I don't want this to be forced thing. I might take sometime,
But I sure believe I will slowly but surely turn out to be a good
and perfect leader one day. (Point aside, I don't think there's
ever such a thing called Perfect Leader).

I know things are getting a bit long here. But thats exactly
how I wanna prove how much I learn in every single day.

In school and during the interview. Alhamdullilah.
Its all ILMU and as I go towards them, they in turn come to me
as well.

That is Wak Rani in his cozy home. A respectable man. Humble,
sincere and passionate. Once again, A leader.

Episode 5

Dystopia - that's this week's essay topic as introduced by Cikgu Pitchay.
Yeah, Hell Yeah. First ever essay of this year. First ever topic
after such a loooong time off not doing weekly essay. Im pretty
scared thinking of the fact that I haven't been formally writing.
Yet Im so hyped up. New word. New ideas.

As usual Cikgu never explains fully. We have to fill in those blanks.
I was so hyped up I planned to hit the library after school to research.
But thanks to somethingggg... (which managed to piss me off yesterday),
I had no choice but to go back home straight. I hope I can make some
time soon to go there. I really wanna go and check out this magical
word called Dystopia. I really can't wait to start my first ever essay.

To be honest, there are so many things I wanna work on essay. But Im
not sure if these topics Im gonna write on is suitable. Yeaps, all Malay
stuff. Malay has so much legacy and heritage. There's so much more
to explore actually. Its too exciting if you ask me.

As usual discussion session with Cikgu in class is never linear.
A lot of things were discussed. A lot of topics were touched on.
The idea odf a foundation or yayasan. Can you ever imagine a
Shahirah Foundation ? Gives out scholarships to Malays who
do not have the money to study local and overseas. Helps the jobless
Malays. Help the poor family. Is that even possible ? I'll sleep
early tonight with the hope that I can dream about that.

We're starting on an awesomely exciting drama/play thingy with
GP Class. This is freaking awesome. I feel like Im reliving
my secondary school days. Drama Club. OMG. I just love it.
So we have two experienced people from the theatre and etc,
Sirfan and Geraldine. So far Im enjoying it. What more
enacting scenes which includes Fattah in it. So funnnnny.
We have this ability of changing the most serious of storylines
to something else. Major LOL. Sirfan and Geraldine will need
to know how to control us. Hehehe.

I am reminded that I have a lot of things to do.
Perbuyu, Aktivis, PDBS, Santai Sastera, ISG, PSN.soon and many more.

It will be tiring but insyallah, all out from me.

Episode 6

Today. Episode 6. 6th January 2010.
I cam to know a depressing fact about myself. Seems that
I have quite a big problem which can be serious. I hope
I'll get to solve it as soon as possible. Now I've already
got Mum and Dad worried. I feel so guilty.

I wanna thank my bestie, Shahirah Affan for the support.
Of course my consultant, Aisha (hehehe yes my consultant).
Maisarah, she even called her Nurse Mum to give me advices
and Salmah for caring as always. How can I forget, guardian
angel, Syahirah Nabilah, who never fails to care for me.

Mum and Dad. Needless to say. Just needless to say.
Im so blessed Ya Allah. ALhamdullilah. *Sheeesh, I wanna cry again*

Today in GP, we continued our part on Politics. Which
honestly bores the heck out of me. Its something I
will never ever choose to deal with. What with the
different political systems and etc. Kindda dreading the
next few GP lectures to be honest. But Its Okay. Nothing
Comes easy in life. Hwaiting my dear!

As usual, a whole lot of things discussed during lessons
with Cikgu. We talked about a very prominent figure
among the Malays, Mr Sidek Saniff. Then came ideas
about rights vs future. A series of discussion.
Again, a leader makes an influential and impactful
decision. He has proven that.

I came to learn today about how lucky I am to be in the teaching
force. But I also learn today that not everyone thinks teaching
is a great job what more a professional job. Another thing is
the title Cikgu. Its a different thing when the students call
you a cikgu and when the society calls you one. How cool.

So do I wanna be a Cikgu for school or a Cikgu for society ?

Of course the latter. But the latter holds an extremely huge
responsibility. Maybe ten twenty times more of the former.
I can just go into a class and teach whatever Im supposed to
teach according to the syllabus and curriculum and give homework,
mark them, ask them to do corrections, give them tests, fail some,
pass some. Or maybe pass all. But I dont wanna do just THAT.

If I ever become a teacher one day, Insyallah. My aim is
to be a flexible one. Someone who teaches the students more
than just whats needed. I wanna go beyond the books. I wanna
put myself in the position of a student and go, "Omg, I learn
so much today. I learn not only peribahasa, but I also learn
the importance of humanity." That's just an example. I wanna
make sure that 1 hour I spent with any group of students is
worth every single second. So that they leave the class
with an Extra Something that maybe other teachers won't teach.
To some, maybe what their parents won't teach. That would be
an IDEAL teacher for me. A teacher which the society might
wanna call Cikgu.

Which comes to the point that I think in my years to come as
a trainee, I wanna train myself to be that IDEAL teacher.
I wanna reach to THAT point. There no direct instructions
on how to become one. With that I hope Allah SWT will guide
me along the way.

On the 10th of January, O Levels results will be released.
I am hoping the best for my brother Ejal. May he pass all the
subjects and get landed into a good polytechnic course.
Insyallah. Amin.

Which then brings me to March - probably the release of A Levels
Results. I am praying every single day that I will get a full cert.
Because if I don't. Instant depression for me then.
God, please. It all now depends on you. Insyallah, Amin.

3 days of school so far. So many school of thoughts. So many
things in my mind. So many things I just discovered and learned.
And most importantly. So much more to discover and learn.

On a lighter note, I haven't been keeping up to date with KPop
ever since the last few days of 2010. But on the 3rd of January,
I am aware that the two-member TVXQ/DBSK has released the music video
of their new song single, Keep Your Head Down.

I wrote on my facebook status "I have no mood for TVXQ comeback."

People ask why. Why you ask ? Cmon. TVXQ was a 5 member group.
There was 5 of them, each with different talent, each completing
each other. TVXQ was complete with all 5. Now that 3 has gone,
we're left with two. How can that ever ever ever be TVXQ ?
Im honestly sticking with the name HoMin. I don't believe
in a two-member TVXQ. TVXQ means 5. How can I have the mood
to anticipate something which is less than half of what it was
last time. Its like Super Junior suddenly coming back with 5
members only. Crazy shit. To be honest, I HAVE NEVER EVER SAID
I LIKE JYJ. I look forward to them because they contain 3 members
of DBSK and my favourite Hero is in there. But not because I treat
them as a separate entity and i love them being 3 or anything.
I wouldnt even say I love their songs. Reason is simple; Because
when I watch them, I feel empty. Its not complete. Move on,
you may say. But I dont want to. Because I know the possiblity
of all 5 getting together lies somewhere. Somewhere there.
Now when I see HoMin, its the same emptiness that I feel. The
same feeling when I watch JYJ. They do not create an impact on me.
And guess what ? The new MV as I said was released 4 days ago,
I've only watched it for like 3-4 times only. Yeah. 3-4 times only.
Please. When DBSK came back with O in 2005, I remembered repeating
the video 50000000 times inside my room dude.

Yunho & Changmin.
Yunho is still the Handsome one. He still got the moves.
He still can dance as sexily as ever. He still has the hot bod.
But he looks Old. Where did my U-Know go ? Where did leader U-know
go ? He looks old and tired and yeah just really tired.

Changmin was the baby of the group. Cassies always has this 'aww
changminnie...' expression when we see him. But now, its a duo.
Changmin has to grow up so quickly now. No more awww minnie anymore.
He portrays this huge strong sexy character in the duo which is just
not him. I remembered liking Changmin first in DBSK, not because
of his looks, but his voice and shy personality. Now this image
has been changed. I do appreciate now that he looks more manlier
and good looking. But I do not appreciate how I think he's not
being himself in that way.

The Song.
The Song to me is basically a MESH of all DBSK previous songs.
The most prominent one is Hey Dont Bring Me Down. The beats from
that song is so clear in this single. Purple Line beats could also
be heard. Singing style of Rising Sun and Are you a good girl can
be heard. It has a nice chorus though. Im not saying its not nice,
It is Nice. How can a single from SM Entertainment not be nice ?
But look, Two members. One is a High Tenor and one is Bass.
How the heck does that actually work ? And for those who dont know
TVXQ, Yunho and Changmin are the two members who RARELY sing verses
in TVXQ/DBSK/THSK's songs. Yunho raps most of the time. Even if
he sings verses in ballads, its just bass tone. Same goes for Changmin
who normally hits the high notes during chorus and bridge. He
also are given short verses in ballads with exceptions. So if we're talking
vocal here, the song is crap. It does not have a balance. And
after some time I get irritated with Yunho's rap-cum-sing lines.
Get it right, which one are you doing ? Melody wise and music wise.
As said, its like a remake with bits of original melody.

The video clip.
Typical SM video Clip. In fact typical DBSK video clip too.
The settings has too much DBSK memories in it. It reminds
me of Rising Sun, O JBH, Mirotic even a lil Triangle. And there was
this white scene with squarish designs which reminds me of their
Japanese single,Stay with me tonight. In which btw,I have no idea
what their stylist gave them to wear in that scene. Some fugly
brownish batik looking one-whole suit. The initial part of the
video has some exaggerated editing of them dancing slow motion.
(Why do I sound so angry?) But yes, Hot.

The choreography.
I have to give it up to Yunho for still having the ability to
move it. Yunho is a dance machine. He is one of SM's best freestyler
with Eunhyuk of Super Junior. So I have to say this guy can still move
it. But... the moves are so typical DBSK-Rain-Super Junior thang.
Ran out of ideas ? Not very sure. This is SM ure talking about. I thought
they are good at taking something and claiming its totally theirs until
someone makes a ruckus out of it ?

Changmin is one of the worst dancer in DBSK. In fact I think
this guy has never really dance before except as a group. His lankiness
adds to the awkwardness when he dances too. DBSK videos if people
realize has never really highlighted this guy when he dances, close up
shots of him came from those moments where he hits high notes or just
singing his regular voice or just showing his handsome face. Never
for dancing. But in this video, not so much of a choice eh ?
He has improved a lot. But still he's not a good dancer, his moves
do not flow and he still lacks charisma.

The lyrics.
Im not very sure about how true this is. But there are parties
that claimed the lyrics are meant to be shot at JYJ. And from the
looks of it, yeah it does sound like a big shoot to JYJ. But
it could be just a normal girl-leaves-boy you never know. I
do not want to delve into vague details that even we do not know
of for sure. And because I dont understand Korean yet, I cant
say whether its a good a or bad piece of lyric.

Some kind of analysis eh ? And I thought I said lighthearted?
So damn wrong. To be honest, yes I am happy my precious two
boys are back. But I dont want them back like this. Not in
this manner! Its like JYJ. I didnt want them back that way.

Please, do me a favour. I want ALL Five to back again.
Please.

My 2012 calendar beside my bed is still a DBSK calendar.
It will be there. Until the day they come back.
It will still be there.

aktf.

Woah, this is beating IRIS back-to-back episodes.
Im gonna stop here for now.
There are loads to do.
Adventure awaits.

Insyallah, God will guide me.

Loads of love,
Shahirah Samsudin.

A Brand New Drama

2011-01-04T00:07:00.004+08:00

A Brand New Drama

Its the third day of 2011. Happy new year to me and everyone.
This new year will definitely feature a brand new drama for me.
As per normal, 365 episodes all about me me me.

I wanted to start blogging ever since Day 1 of 2011.. but I was
enjoying myself at my StayCation 2011 trip to even have time to write.
More to come for that.

Anyway 2010 had been a hell of a ride for me. Loads of good stuff happened
to me. I'd label it as an exciting year. But Im sure 2011 will be equally
exciting if not much more exciting than ever. I know it.

Anyway here are my 2011 resolutions.

- To have a balance for both studies and play.
- To take good care of my face. Promise!
- To lose a little bit more weight.
- To write a lot.
- To complete my novel.
- To take up Korean Language Classes.
- To do more housework.
- & more random stuffs.

Insyallah, It can be done.

Anyhoos, as I've said, first two days of my new year was
well-spent in Sentosa with my two cousins, Ufairah & Musfirah.

Today, was just a lazy day at home. Tomorrow's the first day
of school. I am so excited though I am nowhere near completing
my project. Its all right. After tomorrow, it will be major
project marathon-ing and of course completing my novel. :)

Insyallah.

So many projects ahead of me. Im excited and hype up.
Alhamdullilah. Thank God for all the opportunities.

Im gonna mask my face and sleep now.

But Im not going anywhere without a bowl of Koko Crunch hehehehehe.

Im absolutely happy with my life now. Really.
And its about 11 days to my birthday and Im turning 19.
Wow. Just wow.

Till now, I'm really excited for the remaining episodes of my life
for this year's drama.

To conclude the first ever comeback post, here's a beautiful song
by my ever so inspirational Melly Goeslaw. Im a lil bit too happy now.
Prince <3

Loads of love,
Shahirah.

IM BACK!

2010-03-10T00:21:00.002+08:00

Goshhh im soo bloody back or what.
school has been driving me like hecka crazy.
gosh, im surprised i didnt die.

just read that omy <3 has offered tix to SEA to people who
can write reports for the event. and i rsvp - tho i doubt ill
get it coz blog's been a lil inactive. buttttttt im damn keeen
coz im sucha big fan of mandarin songs, would love to watch fei lun
hai and yoga line and of courseee shineeee babyy!

wishing for the best. :)

please omy. <3 you. ahaha.

speaking of reports, there so many events happening
these days some of which i organised some of which i participated
and booomssss the amoutn of report i had to do is just aaaaaa llooooot.

ranging from heartland poet to ubin trip to AGM etc etc.

i just love life babyyy!
<3 you guys.

Back To Basics

2009-07-05T21:38:00.002+08:00

Just a few hours ago, I was having a bad headache, thinking to myself,
have I actually lost my Iman or what ?
I was guilty of missing/skipping prayers recently. Well of course, I had
period and stuff, but, let's just say, That wasn't all.

It made me really sad and super scared thinking about it.
Sad - coz I don't want that to continue and be a part of my lifestyle,
that's not what my parent taught me and not something i actually want to do.
And scared simply because its a Sin.

I prayed and asked for forgiveness and everything.
But i don't know, I felt like there's something wrong with me.
Until I saw this article, beautifully written on this website,

http://pakarhowto.com/teknik/panduan-bagaimana-untuk-solat-kembali.html#more-626

That article, I believe, was written for those who have actually missed
their prayers for a very long time and wants a change. (Chill, its not
as if I hadn't done it in a month of anything ; its usually a day or two
only but its kindda frequent especially after my period each month)

This article is damn meaningful to me ; that I can almost promise
I WILL NEVER WANT TO PURPOSELY MISS/SKIP MY PRAYERS EVER AGAIN.

Its in Malay btw.

"

Semasa zaman belajar dulu, saya ada seorang kawan baik.
Saya rasa tak perlulah saya dedahkan namanya. Biarlah ia
menjadi rahsia saja.

Kawan saya tu dari segi perwatakannya dan juga sikapnya memang
wajar dipuji. Dia pandai bergaul dengan orang lain. Sangat baik dengan
kawan-kawannya. Dan seorang yang prihatin kepada alam sekitar.
Pendek kata, dia amat mudah didekati dan mesra dengan semua orang.

Cuma ada satu masalah dia. Dia ni liat sikit nak solat. Jangan kata
solat sunat, solat 5 waktu sehari semalam pun dia tak buat. Malah
solat jumaat yang seminggu sekali tu pun, dia hanya buat setelah
diajak berulang kali.

Saya pernah juga beberapa kali tegur dan nasihat dia. Tapi macam
biasa la, dia buat dengar tak dengar jer. Kadang-kadang tu, kalau
kita ajak dia solat, dia hanya senyum kambing jer. Sambil senyum tu
dia boleh cakap pulak kat saya ; “hang sembahyang untuk aku jer la”

Aduh, liat sungguh nak solat…

OK, khusus kepada kawan saya tu,juga untuk mengingatkan diri saya
sendiri dan juga para pembaca blog pakarhowto, berikut ini saya
kongsikan satu artikel tentang panduan teknik bagaimana untuk
memulakan kembali solat setelah mungkin sekian lama kita tidak
melakukannya. Moga-moga dengan panduan ini, maka dapatlah kita
mula menunaikan kembali kewajipan paling asas dalam ajaran Islam ini.

SOLATLAH SEBELUM KAMU DISOLATKAN!!!

Berikut ini panduan yang boleh diamalkan bagi memastikan kita
dapat menunaikan tanggungjawab solat yang telah difardhukan atas
setiap orang Islam.

1. Sematkan azam, bulatkan tekad
Sebaik sahaja tersedar dari lamunan (sedar rupanya dah lama tinggal
solat), cuba fikir sedalam mungkin tentang apa yang anda lakukan, apa
yang tak sepatutnya anda lakukan, dan apa yang sepatutnya anda lakukan.

Dari situ, tanam keazaman yang kukuh bahawa anda ingin mengerjakan
solat, dan tidak akan meninggalkannya sampai bila-bila. Kerana itulah
tujuan anda hidup di atas muka bumi ini sebenarnya.

2. Cari masa dan tempat yang sesuai, sunyi, jauh dari dugaan
Kemudian tetapkan masa di mana anda akan mula menjalani kehidupan
sebagai seorang yang mengerjakan solat. Lebih cepat lebih baik.
Ingatlah, berdosa besar bagi orang yang melengah-lengahkan solat.

Sebaiknya, cari tempat yang sunyi dan jauh dari dugaan. Jauhi
rakan-rakan yang tidak solat atau suka mengejek, sekurang-kurangnya
untuk waktu itu sahaja. Masjid juga adalah tempat yang baik.

3. Solat sekali dahulu, baru ada kali kedua
Walau sekuat mana pun azam, sebulat mana pun tekad, sebaik mana pun masa dan tempat, tanpa solat yang pertama, takkan jadi solat yang kedua dan seterusnya.

Oleh itu, mulakan sahaja tanpa berlengah. Bak kata iklan NIKE -

Just do it!

4. Buat nota peringatan dan galakan
Kalau ada masa dan semangat yang berkobar-kobar, tuliskan kata-kata
peringatan dan galakan di atas sehelai kertas (besar atau kecil).
Kemudian yang besar tampal di dinding, manakala yang kecil diletakkan
dalam wallet atau poket baju.

Tips ini mungkin kurang sesuai jika anda tinggal bersama rakan-rakan
yang tidak mengerjakan solat. Dibimbangi ada yang kata anda nak tunjuk bagus.

5. Fahami maksud setiap bacaan dalam solat
Jika anda kurang bersetuju dengan point ini, saya nasihatkan supaya cuba dahulu. Anda pasti akan merasai kelainannya.

Bukan faham satu-satu ayat, tetapi satu-satu perkataan. Di situ akan
bermula keindahan solat, di mana anda akan rasa seolah-olah khusyuk itu mula hadir dalam diri semasa mengerjakan solat.

6. Baca perlahan-lahan mengikut tertib
Sewaktu solat, baca perlahan-lahan untuk meningkatkan rasa manis, indah dan seronok.

7. Tingkatkan imaginasi
Sewaktu menghayati maksud, tingkatkan imaginasi anda. Bayangkan
keindahan bertemu Allah yang menjemput kita untuk sujud kepada-Nya.

8. Doa mohon kekuatan dan sokongan
Panjatkan doa kepada Allah s.w.t dengan memohon kekuatan dan sokongan untuk berubah menjadi hamba-Nya yang taat. Hendaklah diamalkan sejurus selepas setiap kali solat.

9. Tumpu perhatian pada hari-hari yang dilalui
Tumpukan perhatian anda pada hari yang anda sedang lalui dengan
mengerjakan solat. Berilah pujian kepada diri anda dan berikan tahniah
kepada diri anda setiap kali anda berjaya mengerjakan solat.

10. Dapatkan adrenaline sewaktu mendengar azan
Adrenaline boleh digunakan sebagai pembantu dengan memberi suatu kejutan semangat yang berkobar-kobar untuk terus pergi menunaikan solat tanpa berlengah-lengah.

Jika anda dapat menanam adrenaline ini sehingga menjadi tabiat, anda
pasti akan meninggalkan segala kerja yang anda lakukan, apabila
terdengar sahaja azan berkumandang. Best tak?

11. Berfikir secara positif
Fikirkan diri anda sebagai seorang yang mengerjakan solat sebaik sahaja anda memulakannya dan sentiasa peringatkan diri anda sedemikian.

Sekiranya ada rakan anda yang mengajak anda ke mana-mana sebelum sempat anda menunaikan solat, katakanlah saya belum bersolat, tunggu sebentar atau pergi dahulu.

Ingatlah bahawa anda telah membuat pilihan positif untuk mengerjakan

solat.

12. Dapatkan sokongan mental dan rohani
Berikanlah peringatan kepada keluarga, kawan rapat dan rakan sekerja
yang anda telah mula mengerjakan solat dan memerlukan kerjasama serta sokongan daripada mereka.

Mintalah rakan-rakan anda yang tidak mengerjakan solat supaya
menghormati keputusan anda.

13. Lawan kemalasan dalaman dan godaan syaitan
Dari semasa ke semasa anda akan merasai suatu kemalasan, kebosanan, dan sebagainya, yang mana semua itu sebenarnya hanyalah godaan syaitan dan kemalasan diri sendiri.

Oleh itu lawanlah sehabis-habis mungkin. Ingatlah anda lawan ni pun tak lama. Lama kelamaan ibadah ini akan sebati juga dalam diri anda, dan tidak perlu dipaksa lagi.

14. Banyakkan bahan bacaan tentang solat
Kerapkan diri anda membaca kisah-kisah nikmat solat untuk membangkitkan semangat. Baca juga tentang dosa meninggalkan solat untuk membangkitkan rasa takut pada Allah s.w.t. Moga-moga dilimpahi rahmat dan keberkatan oleh-Nya.

Kesimpulan
Jika topik ini dirasakan tidak berkaitan dengan anda, ingatlah: Hari ini
mungkin bukan hari anda. Esok lusa tiada siapa yang tahu. Diharap dapat dijadikan panduan kita bersama.

Sama-samalah kita saling ingat mengingati antara satu sama lain.

Sekian.

"

My Love for Islam and Allah.

Im watching Ustaz Akhill Hay now. LOL.
Seeya guys.

*

Oh yes, school has been Everything for me.
From good to bad, from fun to stress, from relaxing to tiring.
Everything.

They won't be reading this but I have to thank the faci's for
working really hard to plan this for us. Damn, its their holidays
and they actually came down to plan the whole thing plus a perf
by them dancing to WG's Nobody. What could get better that a combo
of Kpop and school? I dont remember anyone dancing to K songs in sec sch.

Special thanks to Reetu and Alena for guiding my group.
And being so patient with us.

Of course to Fasha for her honest opinions and suggestions
towards everything.

The Malay Year 2 girls - for being so good to us. Thanks you so much!

Hopefully I'll enjoy school.
Coz right now, Im kindda scared of it.
LOL. Insyallah I'll do fine.

And im actually waiting for someone to be online on Facebook
so i can have funny enjoyable chats with him again. something
to destress my mind. Hahahaha random namapakkk.

Love you guys.
W'salam.

Gone.

2009-06-22T00:38:00.002+08:00

I deleted the previous post coz I thought its a bit unnecessary to still have
it there despite the fact that Im okay already.
*

I slept at around 4 plus yesterday but I had to wake up early.
Baba and I went out around 8 this morning and we headed to Bedok
NPC Canteen straight. For the final time. LOL.

We cleared every thing in the kitchen. But left the chiller
and freezer so that the van can take it where ever.

Im very tired but Im very very happy today.
Yeah seeee, when u get too upset suddenly ull be very happy.
And damn vice versa.

Sorry for the short forms and spelling errors.

*

THANKS TO LEE YAN SHIN ZANN WHO MADE MY DAY BY WRITING A BLOG
POST FOR ME ON HER WRETCH BLOG. LOVE YOU GIRLLLLL!

THANKS TO THE QUOTES IN WUZUN'S BLOG WHICH NEVER FAIL TO
CHEER ME UP - NOT SAYING THIS COZ HE'S THE MOST GOOD LOOKING
GUY ON EARTH BUT ITS REALLY THE TRUTH.

Check this out ;

"Life is a challenge, meet it! Life is a dream, realize it!
Life is a game, play it! Life is Love, enjoy it!"

And I shall add, WUZUN IS THE SEXIEST MAN IN THE WORLD, MARRY HIM ALREADY!

*

Pardon me for all that nonsense. Im really sleepy now.
The entire family minus elder bro had a durian feast. So full now.

Afie is on the way back from his KL holidays and he said he
brought a bag for me. So sweet! I hope it will be something i can
use for school then i dont have to buy any.

Shikin and Aainaa if you guys are reading. Hows the shopping date yaww ?

*

I might go to sleep right after this.

*

Oh yah, I love Yoga Lin. aahaha.
His music is suuuuupeerb.

*

W'salam.
<3.

Ru Guo Wo Bian Cheng Hui Yi

2009-06-20T01:14:00.004+08:00

Im updating for Jing Yi! :) So Jy I better see you tagging! =)

Anyone managed to catch the 8pm show yetd (friday) on Channel U ?
Diamond something ? Mannnn that show is awesome. That last
'show' done by that guy and his female partner is just breathtakingly
amazing! Its absolutely dangerous but yet to them its like the damn
simplest thang ever.

Oh and after that I watched 100% entertainment and the show featured
Tank for entire episode. And dang, I must say this episode is one of the
most entertaining one ever. Even though there wasnt any subs and I
could not understand half of what they were saying but still I
fidn the episode to be damn humorous. Tank performed about 6 songs
including the one in the title of my post "If I Become A Memory".
I tried to look for it on youtube but could not find it, could it be
that its a new episode and no one has uploaded it yet ? Its episode 436 btw.
He also sang his old songs the one that's featured in Hana Kimi and
its not called Tong Le. Plus a really nice song called May I Love You.
Anybody who knows where to get the vids, do tell me aites. And I think
Tank almost looked like Evan Yo.

Anyway remember a few post back I was saying how someone at the Bedok NPC
canteen reminds me of youknowwho ? That person is Shaun, the one I mentioned
in the previous post. And I cant help noticing the similarities and differences
btw the both of them. Haish I guess Im still that Babo who still roots for that
one guy yeahhh.

I The Tri Top - To My Girlfriend

That guy, one of them out of the duo, was the one accused to have
copied the same looks,hairstyle,FACE, holding of microphone,
tilting of head and voice of the MIGHT YOUNGWOONG JAEJOONG of DBSK!

And with that, Guess what ?
CASSIOPEIAs attacked this poor fellow like no other.
To the extent that he is even so scared of going out of his own hse.
You never know who;s out there at the front door with a knife rightt ?

Poor him.

He is cute anyway. Very in fact.

*

I haven't even set a shopping date. And if I dont then it means
no shopping and when there's no shopping, there's no clothes
and thus NO SCHOOL! ahaha no the last part was made up but really
i need something new to wear. So someone please accompany me out
on a shopping trip! :)

*

Tomorrow's a Saturday, which means everyone's gonna be at home.
So Yay! :)

Its almost 1:40am now.
I might hit the sack soon. MIGHT.

See ya guys. <3.

Mannnnn....

2009-06-16T17:44:00.003+08:00

Second weekday im slacking at home.
Mom decided not to sell food anymore at the canteen at Bedok NPC.

On a positive note, I dont have to wake up so early in the morn
and then continue sleeping in the car in the police carpark
- yes those who happen to pass by my dad's car will get this exclusive peek
at ME! ahahaha - and I dont have to tire myself by clearing the tables and
doing dishes.

On a negative note, Im gonna slack at home before going back to school
which starts on the 29th June. And in a way im gonna miss seeing the
people there. The other vendors and the guys there.

I managed to know a few people there. Im still in contact
with Sebastian. Shaun just added me on FB. Though I still could not
find that super good looking guy chinese guy i saw in the canteen
the other day.

I heard from Sebas that he's mixed Canadian. - total PLUS!
and the last time Sebas came back to the station i managed
to ask for his name. And I got it! Hahahah. Shera shera tsk tsk tsk.
Astarghfirullahhalazim.

Most of the people there guessed Im 20 + ?
Dang im 17 for god sake.

Okay anyway skip.

I just made a Twitter account.
Last 2 weeks i deleted Tagged Hi5 Zebo and all other rubbish.
I was thinking im gonna take good care of my facebook and cyworld.
But there i added a Twitter. Lets not talk bout Friendstser coz im
not gna delete it but im not gna use it either.

Okay so the reason I made Twitter ?
idk.

*

Im kindda excited for school. But before that I need to hit town for shopping.
I need New everything-s mann. Tote Bags, Pencil Case (i was thinking
of buying the TVXQ one from yesAsia but it cost 80 plus bucks i think -
no wayy for a pencil case)Jeans - straight cut and skinnies, Shoes-
Pumps and Sneakers, Shirts - as in long sleeve ones and moreeeee.

So anybody wanna accompany me ? That is if my mom dosent wanna do so.

*

I put my WMP on shuffle but I realized that it kept playing Fei Lun Hai's songs
even though they are just one after another. So much for shuffle right.

*

Social life ? Been lacking of it since Im always helping my mom at
the canteen. But I did manage a session of 4hrs of Kbox at Party World
last Sunday with Kelvin, Guan Wei, Alex and my darling Jacquelin.
Jac and I hugged like damn tightly in the room. Anyway we had loads of
fun and the guy who ushered us to our room and sent our drinks and
snacks happens to be a Shuai Ge - and most certainly from China coz
he couldn't utter a single English word so guess what ? I used all the
knowledge i know to converse with him in chinese - which is honestly
just very little. But he really is a cute and nice guy but definitely wayy older
than me. And Kelvin was saying how later after that guy goes back home
he's gonna tell his WIFE some girl disturbed him at his work place. LOL!

HAHAHA!

I am the exact girl version of my elder brother. Almost.

*

Speaking of school (just nowwww) this past Sunday i attended an event organised
by my school,no its not orientation. its simply an event for us to gather
together and get to know my fellow class and my seniors. so that by the time
we start school we'll be comfortable with each other. there was this drama
competition and my group won. and i received a cap and a book which is from
Asas 50. Im gonna read the book soon. Brush up on the malay language ahaha.

Surprisingly the seniors were nice. I mean they were all friendly and
they talked to us like we are their friends or smth. And they dont treat us like
some adek-adek you know. Im gna love school man ahaha.

Im rly excited for school coz i really wanna study hard this time.
I hope I wont slack like O level times.

"10 points isent good enough" as quoted by SOMEONE!

Anyway I better get going im gonna watch Music Bank and then pray and stuff.
Im gna watch Super Junior - Kim Ryeowook is loveeee! :)

<3.

Tags Replies And More Vids

2009-05-27T01:24:00.004+08:00

Hey guys. Sorry for the lack of updates.
I guesss thats what happens when you have too much time on your hands.
Anyway I didnt help Mom for today and wont be for tomorrow.
So maybe I'll update again tmr.

Anyway like the abovee says Im gna reply the tags so here goes.

Jing Yi : your class's now has got 2 Jy ? How interesting.
Is the other one as crazy as you or is she like .... normal ? AHAHAH!
But is your nicky Xiao Zhu - later you'll get anti-fans gurllll.

Leeyann : Omfg. 8 hrs ? What time did you reach the place ? Mannn i cant
believe i didnt even know about it :(:(:(. Did you help me tell Wuzun
I love him forever and ever and ever ? AHAHAH. Thanks for giving the
2 sites. Hopefully that'll work for now since its so hard to know stuffs about
them nowadays.

Lili : Ms Lin, I miss you too. My life's okay, nothing
too interesting yet. Hahah. Hows school for you ? Have you known
your presentation results ?

JAC <3 : I miss hugging you too dearie. The other day i was browsing thru pics
in my cam and saw the pic i took with you the one that we hugged on the last day
of sch - grad day - we looked so damn happy. wna relive that moment man.
I swear we are soo gna meet soon.

Jing Yi : ahaha you also hallucinating mrs whelan issitt ? aahahas.
Jac's name got a heart coz she's always willing to let me hug her.
You always show that DIAOOOO look whenever i wna hug u or i say smth
sweet to you. HMPHHH! Jk But still you're in my heart forever and ever
luh!

Lili : Dont worry. Good luck for all the tests. u defi. can do it aites!
Just belive in urself and be confident girl!

Tracy : Kok!! I miss you also hunney! Im here just that im missing from my
own blog. Wna meet u up badly mann.

Jac : Jac ure always special - in anyone and everyone's eyes.

fasha : omggg babe i hate aril mannn! ahaha do you watch the diary ?
he's got this attitude with him ahahas. but perf. wise i think e;s
actually good. but as a package hafiz is better KOT ahahahah!!

done.

NOW, I WANNA SHARE VIDEOS WITH YOU GUYS!
Up to you whether you wanna view it or not.
But you gotta view this first one.

TOTALLY PWNED THE HELL OUT OF ME MIKEEEE!

V.C : NigaHiga (watch his vid of rihanna and chris - so damn funny)

Tank's New MV - If I became a Memory ft ..... JIRO WANG DONG CHENG!
Pretty much a sad ballad.

V.C : AiMeiNeko

This has been released for quite sometime already but i didnt realize
due to my obsession for Kpop. But since Ive always been a big fan
of him ever since the real slim shady i just soo have to put this
up here.

Eminem - Crack The Bottle ft Dr Dre and 50 cents

V.C: Hiphopshite

And lastly, something ive been spazzing about since last week.
SJ's performance of Its You (second one though) at Music Bank.
Better than the InKi one i guess. Ryeowook! Is! Love! And guess what?
This is their first time performing this song on MB and they
already win an award for it !!! Im waiting for their 13th MB award!
Thennnnn we can say somethinggggg...

Super Junior - Its you!

Ive got another vid to show - but ill post it tmr hopefully
since i wna spazz a lil bout it.

Anyway im gna post smthing in the class blog tomorrow night
so fellow royals do check it out tmr night aites. <3 u guys!

I miss school! Really!
It makes me sad thinking of the school - the building
the classroom the canteen the quadrangle. :(:(.

Jimmy Neutron - gimme a time machine please.
:(

SEE YA'LL SOON!
muackzzzzzzzzz!

<3,shera.

SJ ITS YOU!

2009-05-17T13:08:00.005+08:00

SUPER JUNIOR ITS YOU MV!

I am definitely wrong! I said I prefer Sorry Sorry but hell no.
This is way better. And Ive learned the chorus dance steps
yeah i know so gay and kental but dang i dont care since im that bored.

RYEOWOOK! IS! LOVE!

Damnn I just wish I can sing with this guy one day!
Though that would most prolly only be a dream.

Today would be their first live performance of this song!
Omggggg I cant wait to see coz I wanna see the full chereo badly!

And Im sooo looking forward to tomorrow!
Breakfasttttt! Hahahaha.

*

There's this police guy at Bedok HQ who looks exactly like
You-Freaking-Know-Who! Damnnnn I almost thought it was him mannn!
Lucky I didn't confidently go call him or something! Haishhh!

I miss him so effing badly!!

*

Anyway like I said I cant wait for tonight and tomorrow.
And I cant wait for school to start.
And I wanna go South Korea so damn badly.
And I think Im gonna make a short trip to KL very very soon.
I still havent give Guan Wei's, Natelie's and Kethlyn's birthday present.

Contact me mannnnnnn.
"Hello Shahirah! Eh Hi, I heard you wanna give me present issit ?
Set uh lets meet mennn!" WAHAHAHAHHA!

EHHHH I MISS MRS WHELAN!
ahahaha i wonder if her current class's has got people like me.
pity her horrr.

till here I guess.
I'll rply tags in a short while.
Internet here sucks dusts mannn!

AND HAFIZ IS THE WINNER FOR AKADEMI FANTASIA SEASON 7! HELL YESSSSSS!!!
omgggggg he's sucha a soulful singer with a very very humble attitude
down to earth very cute like a baby and moreeee. conclusion
he deserves the title as compared to the rest tho I like
Akim a lot too!

W/E!

see ya.
<3,shera.

???

2009-05-11T23:19:00.003+08:00

Its definitely inappropriate for me to say Im Back right ?
Knowing that I'll be missing again for the next how many weeks
after this post.

My mom's working now. She's mending a food stall at Bedok police
Station. And best part ? I have to help her out. AHAHAHAH.
Last week we started and I was there the entire week.
Doing dishes and bla3. But this week's gonna be different coz Ive got days
that I will go and days I wont. Heheheh.

I had a super bad dream yetd. I became a lesbian !!!!
Seeeee, make fun of Ellen some moreeeee.

*

Anyway can you guys believe I practically has NO IDEA that FLH
was in Singapore to sign autographs for their fans who bought
their yue Lai Yue Ai album ???? Omggggggggg :(:(:(.
Like helllllo, here I am waiting for the perfect opportunity
to get their autos without spending hundreds and I BLEW IT
AWAY BY NOT EVEN KNOWING ABOUT IT! damnnnnn it.

Oh and yes whats the best FLH Online source ?
Please dont tell me FahrenCiti coz it sucks.

*

Kpop is the best. AHAHAHAH.

Looking forward to this,

Very Hot!. Though I prefer Sorry Sorry. Anyway they just released
Version C of their album - seeee, so smart of them to cheat lil
naive girls' money ?

But as usual I aint buying any of the versions I suppose my love
for them will fade - believe me. Where's Big Bang now, I wonder ?
Oh wait i dont think so. Hahahah.

Looking forward to this Friday where SuJu will perform Its You live.

I cant wait for school to start. For real ???
Anyway Im helping Mom tomorrow - Get ready for the real
Singapore Police Life ahahahah. Just kidding.

Ive always thought Police Officers are the most fierce people ever.
But doesn't seem so when you take a closer look. Whatevs.

Seeeeee ya.

YOUNGWOONG JAEJOONG! <3.

<3,shera.

TAG REPLIES

JACJAC : IMY TOO JAC JAC! AHAHAHA MEET UP SOON ?!

PEI PEI : HMM I SHIFTED ON NEW YEAR'S DAY. PRETTY LONG ALREADY UH.

YAYA : IMY TOO!!! HOW ARE YOU NOWWW ? PREPARING FOR Os right ? GL !!

JING YI : HOW THE HELL I AM SUPPOSED TO FORGET YOU ? WHEN WATCHING
THAT STUPID XIAO ZHU ON 100% ENTERTAINMENT EVERYDAY REMINDS ME OF YOU ?
DAMNNN IMPOSSIBLE! I MISS YOU LIKE SHIT LUH ZHOU JING YI XIAO JIE!

ZANN : ZAAANNNN DID YOU HAVE ANY IDEA ABOUT FLH AUTOGRAPH SESSION IN SG ?
I HAVE NO IDEA AT ALL AND IVE MISSED IT. ANDDDD RIGHT NOW SINCE
WUZUN ISENT UPDATING HIS BLOG THERES NO ONLINE SOURCE FOR FLH :(:(

MEIYIN : SORRY SORRY! IM DAMN SLOW WHEN IT COMES TO RELINKING
AND LINKING AHAHAH. I MISS YOU TOO GIRL! REMEMBER THE TIMES WHERE WE JUST
SMILE THE TIME OFF DURING CHEM LESSON IN WHICH WE DITN HAVE TO GO FOR ?

LIMIN : AH MAAAA!!! OMG MY FELLOW AH MA! HOW ARE YOU ? MISSING YOU TOO
RIGHT NOW. WONDERING HOWS OUR SV NU DOING ? THAT RETARDED LI YU AHAHAH!

NOOR : I'LL RELINK SOON BABE. SORRY FOR THE DELAY.

SHAFIQA : MSM SUCKS HERE. BUT I'LL FIND THE SOLUTION TO THAT SOON OKAY
AND WE CAN CHAT AGAIN ABOUT OUR DREAM DATE WITH FRANK LAMPARD AND
VAN PERSIE OKAYYY!

SHIKIN : MISS YOU! GLAD THAT I GOT BIT OF TIME TO TALK TO YOU YETD.
MISS YA AND WILL RELINK YOU SOON.

TRACY : I MISS YOU SO MUCH PARTNER!!!! ALL THOSE CRAPS DURING LESSON
THE FOREST AND REMEMBER WHEN I ASKED FOR THE MEANING OF 'KAN BU JIAN'?
AHAHAH DAMN PRICELESS RIGHT. WILL RELINK SOON.

FASHA : THANSK FOR TELLIGN ME BABE! ILL DO JUST THAT! ANDDD I GNA
SEE YOU SOON!! SOO EXCITED ! AHAHAH

SYAKIRAH : AHAHA YEAHHH NEW POST AND THEN HIATUS AND THEN NEW POST AGAIN ?
AHAHA HOW ARE YOU ? BEEN LIKE A WEEK OR TWO SINCE I HEARD FROM YOU
AND AAINAA. AAHA MISS YAAA!

AAINAA : AHAHA YEAHHHHH MANN AND WHEN CAN WE EVER MEET I WANT MY MAGAZINE!
AHAHAHAS. MISS YAA!

JAC JAC <3 : OF COURSE THE HEART WILL ALWAYS BE BESIDE YOUR NAME
COZ IF IT ISENT THERE THEN IT MEANS THAT YOUR NAME IS INSIDE IT AHAHAH
AND BABE I REALY REALLY MISS YOU!!! HOWS YOUR BACK BONE ? <3.

I'm Back.

2009-03-27T16:08:00.004+08:00

Omggggg, finally Im back to revive my dying
blog. but somehow, there are still a decent
number of people visitng with some kindly
tagging. thank youuuuu for coming despite
the super duper lack of updates.

Its almost 3 months ever since I shifted
to JB and did nothing but decompose at home
together with my mom. Yes, Im bored and yet
I still could not 'fine the time' or so to
try out the swimming pool/gym/badminton/squash/
table tennis courts. My brother is too lazy too
do so and I cant possibly go alone.But I've
already check them out and they seem pretty decent
but I sense catfights coz there's tooo few loos.

But actually despite all the rotting, I find myself busy ?
Ultra Weird I know. MSN here is totally useless.
I need to bring the lappy to some Mama Prata Shop
(which btw is getting damn advanced nowadays with
the all new exclusive wifi spots lol)to sign in.
In which I will sign in as Offline and then sign out
again.I keep using the cocky facebook chat thang to
chat with Aainaa Kiirah Ash or Yc. But even that
sucks to the max. And I no longer Facebook like I
used to such that I think I have about 25 f.qs or smth.

Actually Im just busy doing the norm of surfin
youtube and wiki-ing every lil things endlessly.
Yes they are all Kpop related - and people ask me
whats so interesting about kPOP and the music ?

Here's what's keeping me glued to the screen...

(you MAY skip, really)

TVXQ.(hehehe duhhhh!)

The hotttest and most successful Korea Boyband.
Releasing 4th Jap album soon and currently
having 3rd asia tour so Im practically busy watching all
the fancams of the concert and listening to mp3 loads
of their latest songs on youtube. And guess what ?!
Recently TVXQ made it into the Guiness Book Records for
the second time!!! :)

Super Junior. biggest boyband with 13 members.

They have been around for quite sometime but
I can t be bothered - I mean 13 super cute guys ?
Oh mannn, I cant manage you know,though I've always
been a fan of one of them. However when a teaser
of their third album is out i fell 100 million metres
in height in love with them - yes ALL 13.
Released 3rd album recently with hits like
Sorry Sorry - which will definitely captivate you -
and that practically kept me waiting for all their
performance of their latest songs.

The teaser - trust me you'll definitely be addicted
to it - or at least you'll keep going sorry sorry for
some time. GURANTEED! if not,i'll buy a bday present! LOL!

That far left guy, Ryeowook, is such such such love!

SS501.

a quintet in which 2 of the members are
busy with solo activities right now so they are now
known as Triple S for the time being. Also been around
for quite some time but again I dont listen to them
as many call them the TVXQ wannabe. but then i watched
music bank one day when they(TS) sang U R Man
and i was soo aweeeed by their... looks. It does
pay to be good looking dudes. And to me they dont
sound like TVXQ wnb. Andddd the also sang the OST
for BOF which is my currrent hawtttt drama. Im cuurently
watching a lot of their vids like perfs, bts and stuffs.
my two favs are kim hyung joon and kim hyun joong, yes
can you believe THAT's the diff btw their names ?!?!

SHINee -

made up of 5 young but talented and CUTE guys.
with the youngest being 15/16 ? they are best at dancing
and what catches my eyes is how they freaking synchro
when dancing tgt. watch these. syakirah should
watch ahaha its danceee babehhh.

they are making a comeback in April. More hotstuffs?
I believe.

and loadssss more like Rain<3 ahaha,K. Will, Kim Taegoon,
Kim Joong Gook, Kim Kyeong Rok and 1000 more Kims
in Korea. And their millions of videos on youtube.
THAT EXPLAINS HOW BUSY I AM RIGHTTT ? kwang3.

Im not a diehard fan of all them or anything just that
I really enjoy listening to their music and... looking
at their faces ? ahaha yeahhhh. and big bang however
is NOT in the list as everyone's busy with their solo acts
so Im kindda not listening to them right now. ahahahs.

and..

I know only some bothered to read all that above.
But I already tried to make it not too wordy
- wordy posts sucks i know.

Anyway I miss every schoolmate I know. Esp my
classmates ; how are you fellow royals ?

Im thinking of joining a singing competition but I dont know
how well I'll do so I'll see how yeah.

Anyway hows the new skin ? Digging it ? AHAHAH
Actually i've created a new skin already however there are some
problems with the codeings so i decided to use some
pre-made templates first. And this is the omny skin that I find kindda
simple but not too cutesy and stuffs. so yeahhhhh.

And dont worry I'll add up your links in the blink of an eye.

I promise Ill post more photos tomorrow or sunday or monday okay.
I have sucha a boring life how to update everyday sehhh ?

Oh yeah anyway can you believe that theres one page on wikipedia that
features our one and only SINGLING LANGUAGE ? yes its practically
like a vocabulary an grammar book which teaches us how to
speak proper singlish. Amazing ehh? No ? Oh okay ahahahah.

EARTH HOUR TOMORROW!
8.30TO9.30pm :)

see ya.
<3.

o levels

2009-01-16T22:51:00.004+08:00

Should I stop comparing ?
Should I ?

Before I got my results i was effing nervous
I reflected on all the random times i spent
doing any other things except studying and I
think those things included housework.
Cant believe it men.

Anyway i was soo nervous that I told myself
Please please I just want an R4 below 20
please.

Then I got my results I was damn happy coz
it is indeed below 20 andddd i also improved
from my prelims results which i totally didnt
study at all for.

but a few hrs went by a few days went by
and im getting sadder and sadder by day when
I see other people's results which is like
either wayyyyy better or like 2/3 pts better.

the fact thaat im in the first class is the
one that puts pressure on me coz i got like
whatever whatever pts and ppl from 2nd 3rd 4th 5th
class and do wayy better. im so embarrassed w myself.

i know theres no use crying over spilled milk.
but i dont care. its not milk that im crying over.
(ahahaha okay that made me laugh a bit, ahah kay smile ?)

should i stop comparing ?

i know i didnt put 100% effort nor did I put 0%
or wayyy too lil effort. i did whatever I can luh.

and the saddest part is i did a lot of work for
Amaths but its still a B. Emaths is suppose to be like
'ohhhh obvious dist. for everyone luh' and i didnt get it.

and more saddening is that i think im the worst
performer of my class. and i dont know why, maybe
im over sensitive but i think mr yap is hinting me
at how my perf ruined the class's perf as a whole.

damn it.

Im a consistent f9-er all yr and in the end i
got a b4. not good enuf meh ? there are 3 gddamn notebooks
to study from and i didnt even study the last 1.

and then there was the sickening bio which i lost
hope due to prelims. i was expecting a B but got
a C. why ? coz i studied luh. even though i hated the second ntbk
like big time i memorised the whole process of
manipulating their father's grandfather's cow's genes
or smth like that luh.

then in the end JUST Pass.

so kns-ish of them.

on a less dimmer note, despite writing my el
compositions 10 pages (back2back) long and
not reading the compre properly coz its all abt cats?!
(next time cant they do a survey on the phobias
of their fellow students first before setting the
topic of a compre passsage?) i still got a B for it.
and got a grade higher than during prelims. and
furthermore tho i wanted an A badly i tot its impossible
coz of my summary skills or lack of skills rather.
so okay luh, quite happy.

and another pt, is that despite doing so bad
for C.Humans for Prelims i got a dist for it.
im very very very happy for this coz i worked effing
hard for it, i made cards-notes for Geog and memorised
every single word there is on it and btw its almost as thick
as Harry Potter's book okay.

and my concept maps for SS. there are many of them
and i memorised word for word also but i was just
wondering why i didnt get an A1 for it ? haishhhh.

if that happens, that would mean with cca pts,
i meet my target pt for l1r4 and my target pt
for r5.

all because of one goddamn pt.
so kns-ish of THEMMMMMMMMMM. (both cambridge and
MOE plus their family members and neighbours also).

butttt after I read the courses thang, out of all courses
there are in poly and ite, theres 5 tt i cant go, 2 of them are chinese
studies and the other 3 is chemistry courses
which i cant go coz i skipped my chem paper.

which btw made my paper thang i mean results slip
(ahahahah paper thang ?) so damn ugly. like blablabla
then absent! ahahah.

and btw mrs whelan are you reading ?????
DID YOU GET A BLOODY 100% PASS ? UNFORTUNATELY
YOU DID NOT DESPITE THINKING THAT YOU WILL
ONLY IF I DROPPED UR SUBJECT.

Awwwww. poooooooor you.
andddddd who did achieve 100% pass ?
none other mr yap for this subect called
Physics.

anyway i met her thrice alr. damn suay.

writing everything out made me feel better.
but haish i dont know luh, its unfair if i wanna
compare wth those who did better, and also
unfair to compare with those who didnt.

so i compared to my prelims grade ?
well okay then i did better. HAPPPY!

?

Im so egoistic.
but i wna thank mr roy for having faith
in me but his last words to me made me wonderrr,
coz when he gave my results he said this
'hmm okay luh not so bad. can get sumwhere surely.'

wah biang eh.

that made me think i got a l1r5 98526 or smth luh.
and im damn sensitive to that kindda of comment luh.
so now im wondering, is my gap as compared to second
last person in my class THAAAAAAT wide ? considering
in the last person coz EVERY ONE OF MY CLASSMATE
GOT THEIR NAMES ON THE SCREEN.

oh btwww that bring me back to AK Wshop where
i said i wanted 4As and id di work for the 4 okayy.
I got one for MT alr. and soooo i worked hard for
amaths emaths and c.humans.

but I CANT BELIEVE I DIDNT GET FOR BOTH Maths.
wah kao hard pain sia.

anyway back to the thankyous.

mrs rebekah lim. definitelyyyyy. one on one session
w me for comprehension - damn mundane but she still
did it for me.

cikgu memy - definitelyyyyy. coz shes there for 4 damn yrs
so i could get the 1D.

Mr Lim Chiow Huat - for the patience. though
i still cant believe those grades.

and mr poh of course! AHAHAHAHAHAH!
okay out. no link. SKIP!

i think thats about it luh.
im making it clear who i wanna thank coz
these are the ppl that i think i mil ty also
cant repay their deeds.

and another reason is that, i CLEARLY have a damn
list of WHO I DONT WANNA THANK AT ALL
despite whatever grades i get.

Okay fine i'll still thank Mr Yap.
but he's gotta cut the damn sarcasm men.

him : wahhh b4 for phy
me : *smileees*
him : only one.
me : reaaallllly ?
him : the rest b3.
me : *rolls eyes and walked away* (i swear okayyy).

for the rest, NOOOOOOO THANKS AT ALL.
im not being proud okay. that will be damn funny luh
whatss to be proud of my results.

but to me, ALL the teachers that I didnt mention at all
HAVE NEVER NEVER NEVER gave support at all. their teaching
-dont even talk abt it -. i dont wanna list down luh.

or should I ehhhhhh ?

okay nvm. ill send mass email AHAHAHAHA.

so overall, since maths and science isnt my type
of thing, my grades are still okay. and since
i love language my grades are okay also.

but i rly need to stop comparing w others who did better.

*

and the above is not a post okay.
its just ranting.

I WILL GIVE YOU GUYS A PROPER UPDATE OF
MY VERY INTERESTING LIFE AFTER I SHIFT
TO JB.

but that is if Wuzun gives me and the other
stupid girls HIS OWN PROPER UPDATE!

Like hellllllo mr wu, your fans wants to know
smth okay ?

*

i saw him the other day which adds on an extra tinge of euphoria in me.
veryyy handsome. as usual luh.

TP is my first choice! :)

OVERALL IM DAMN HAPPY BUT ONLY IF EVERYONE STOP TALKING ABOUT Os results.
*

My 17th bday is a blast thank you to my girls and of course the only guy.
ahaaha. More tmr or smth kay.

love you all.

<3,shera.

GoodBye

2009-01-02T13:27:00.002+08:00

Hey guys i know this is damn staggered.
But Im gonna leave ina few hours tiem alr.
Though it might be postponed to lat at night
but i dont wanna take risk.

Anyway I just wanna thank everyone again.
For making me feel better about the whole
thing and yes once again i know its just JB.

But still.... okay.

Anyway do not call my house no anymore as its not func.
alr. call my hp instead. you can get the no from
aainaa kirah keth nate ash shaffy susu and a few others k.

CALL ME! ahahaha
coz i have free incoming until tonight.

Ill still use the same number there.
Msg me if theres anything impt like results date!
Hahaha.

And my birthday is coming.
Though there will be no party - the one that I fantized about
all this time. :(

Can you believe it I got a bday presetn fro someone;s
bday which is in March?!

And i know what to get for someoone in Jan
and October! Hahahaha dman longgg sia.

Time is running out.
Igt.

LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS.

Loads of love,Shahirah Samsudin.

nth

2009-01-02T01:04:00.002+08:00

Indonesia's RCTI Super Band concert ended at nearly 4am.
Yeah its just 3am for their timing but stilll.
I had almost 6 hrs of Ungu and Peterpan.
Pasha and Ariel plus other bands ahaha.

Mom reached home arnd that time too.
Coz its new yrs eve and the cafe was packed with
people from everywhere luh.

Last day also. :)

Today was Hardcore packing luh.
We threw rubbish at our block's big garbage bin
like its own small lil dustbin or smth.

After cleaning up almost everything.
I STILL CANT FIND MY JJ LIN XI JIE CD!

And guess what ? Dad threw every single VCD(movies)
that we had. All. Malay Eng Chinese Hindi and everything.

But I saved my Ungu vcd. :)

But i was abt to call up my friends to ask if they
wanted any of the cds to watch,maybe once, and then tthey
can throw it or mth. but then he threw it alr.

Anyway ive got pictures of my brothers and I during our
kindetgarten grad days. so darn cute. esp me.
MUAHAHAHA! okay kidding.

i think my brothers baby pictures are cuter than mine. :(
ahahas.

Anyway guys, as you all know, tomorrow (or later)
might be my last day here, though i will come back n visit
and might come back for school and stuff, but it will be
quite sometime okay so im gna miss all of you.

Thank you everyone for blessing me with
sucha great friendship. Nothing, I swear,
nothing can ever beat that.

LOVE YOU GUYS :)

<3,shera.

FAREWELL!

2008-12-31T23:19:00.003+08:00

Hey everyone! Omg. Today's is indeed one of the best
day in 2008. or my entire life.

I had a really great day. Well yeah it is the day
where my small mini farewell party was held.

Thanks to Kiirah and Aainaa for helping organizing.

*

After much discussion, we decided to settle for CWP Macdee.
Woke up at 11 plus. And rushed hrough a few more letters.
Accompanied Mom to the MRT Station, today's her last day at
work too.

Anyway bathed and dressed up and stuff. Met Kiirah
under my block. In which she welcomed me with a BOOO
from beside the lift. Im lucky I didnt die or smth. HAHAH!

So yeahhh waited for the bus and met Aainaa on the bus.
Headed to CWP and waited for the rest at BnS.
Kethlyn and Shikin couldn't make it. :(

Hope to see them soon though.

Met Melissa, Ms Lim, Ash, Ming Bin, Sam, Kailu, Wanteng, Suraya and Shafiqa.
Natalie came a bit later. And Dee came for a while only.
Thanks a lot babe for coming and seeing me for one last time.
And Aainaa's cuz Siti came later to join us.

And Ming Bin brought along a guy friend of his.
Omg. When I saw this guy I was like "omg, cute underscore guy!"

His name is Tavin. And he's cute.
but thats not the ebst part, the best is he is very sporting.
and simply entertained us all the strangers arnd him. LOL!

Anyway we had a great time together. And loads of phototaking,
ill get all the pictures soon yeah. From Aainaa. :)

Anyways I made a mini speech and CRIED! wahkaoooo
not staggered at all man! I was damn sad luh.
But Im really happy though at the end of the day.

Headed to Polar cake shop after that in which i asked them
to spend whatever using the 5bucks voucher that i have ahahah!
But guesss what ?

I accompanied Siti to buy bubble tea and then all of them came
and I asked buy cake alr ? and all of them were like 'erm
no they dont accpe the voucher' so i said nvm lets go back to
the shop ill buy whatever u guys want. and they were like
nvm laaa nvm nvm its okay. lets go from this place.

which is sooo what the hell right ?
esp Aainaa. how can she be so relaxed abt not accpeting
my voucher which i clearl rmbr expires in march/apr 2009.?

Anyway we went to some lepak place and then we chatted.
Aainaa and Siti went to the TOILET so called.
According to Kiirah.

And both Aainaa and Siti came back with a super cute
Birthday Cake! Yes, super advanced birthday celebration.
Oh my godddd, ony god knows how touched i was mennn.

THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYS!

Thanks for the sweet birthday song from everyone! :)
Damn lovely.

And i love the cake its so cute and nice!
The best part is that its small but can be shared
among all!

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

More chatting and phototaking.

Everyone left.

Kiirah and I stayed at Woodlands nterchange and waited
for Syuhada Binte Satggered. :)

Syuh came and we started gossiping about everything.
We even created some lame talkshow which has a never ending
commericial break.

We wanted to figure out 2008 worst school couple.
but only came out with 3. Hahaha and we were damn
mean coz we gosspied about this girl damnn loads luh.

Anyway boarded a bus after Kiirah saw a cockroach ahaha.
Reached home and then did more packing. :)

Almost empty now.
Dangggg, less than 2 days.
And no more coming back to Spore.

Haish.

Anyway I was soo damn tocuh today coz I received a lot
of gifts from those who came. Thank you so much guys.
I rly didnt expect it coz its lik not borthday party
or anything right. But Im rly happy coz I love all
the gifts a lot!

THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE!
Im so blessed to have you guys
not because of the gifts but the thought
of even coming for it.

Omg. Thank you once again :)

The Super cute Siti.

All that came.

Aainaa and Kiirah.

Tavin sam and mingbin.

Grp shot.

THANK YOU GUYS FOR ALL THESE!

From a Kiirah, a beautiful mug.
Im soo gonna use this for my late night hot milo! :)
Thanks babe!

From Natelie, super nice candy specially from Aussie.

Plus Christmas card. Thanks babe.

From Ms Lim, passport cover which Im gonna use!
Thank you so much ms lim.

From Dee, special letter and a mix tape of great indie and rock
songs! I totally love them. Thank you deee!

From Siti, Totally damn scrumptious cookie!! Chocolate lehh!

From Aainaa, a picture of SKA which i ask her to help me print,
im supposed to pay her. but she kindly gave it to me. Thanks Aainaa!

From Melissa, a suprrr cute Lolipop! Reminds me of Kungfu Hustle.
Thank you babe.

From Shaffy, a full set pink stuffs. Consisting of a PINK bear!
plus that PInk paper bad which i totally love! :) Thank you
soo much shaffy!

From Suraya, an ultra chic set of body lotion and shower gel
from the body shop! I totallly love it cann! Thanks a lot Susu.

And last but not least is from Asyraf, consisting of my
most most most supr fav chocolate Famous Amos plus plus
a freaking creative card!

the card. omggg. its great. he made use of great great
materials. it came out totally cool.

sorry for the quality of the pics.

*

Im facebooking right now.
& getting pictures from Aainaa' facebook.
Once again Aainaa thanks a lot for the pics and everything!
She created an album called Shahirah's Farewell Lunch.And another
one called Shahirah's super advanced bday celebration.
So sweeet right.

Ms Lim also. Thank youuu so much! :)

I looked damn ugly in most of the photos luh
coz im too happy or smth ahahaha.
Anyhow ehh.

And bad tudung day alsooo ahahahaha.
coz i wore some inside thing whichi have nvr worn before.

Enjoyyyy.

Wahkao damn ugly in all the photos.
I try to avoid left profile by whatever means
but cannot seh.

And Kailu is right Ms Lim glows in all pictures.
Angellll mah! ahhahah

Anyway how do you celebrate New Years ?
For me its the usual as Indonesian Bands always get tgt
on the eve of new year for a special performance on either
SCTV or RCTI.

SO yeahh as usual Ungu and Peterpan are always there.
So Im watching them and I loveeeee them.
Esp Pashaaaa. So cute. And he duet with Ariel
for Tercipta Utkku second version.

I LOVEEEE IT!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 guys!
may it brings you guys loads of luck and other good stuffs!

Im quite excited to see what's in for me for twentyOnine.

Anyway guys, 2008 has been everything.
Good bad, EVERYTHING.

I hope everyone will have a good 2009.

My only resolution is,
TO BE A BETTER PERSON, IN ALL ASPECTS.

:)

<3 everyone.

Despite the many weeks past....

Ungu - Cinta Dalam Hati

Mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku
Mengagumi tanpa di cintai
Tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia
Dengan hidupmu, dengan hidupmu

Telah lama kupendam perasaan itu
Menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku
Tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah
Bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku

Ku ingin kau tahu
Diriku di sini menanti dirimu
Meski ku tunggu
Hingga ujung waktuku

Dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya
Dan izinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
Tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
Dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja

<3 :(

<3,shahirah samsudin :)

Fahrenheit-ing.

2008-12-30T16:15:00.003+08:00

Dont Bother Reading. Coz Im gonaa Be Fahrenheit-ing.
Hahaha.

I just caught two of their super latest Music Videos which
this girl , i assume, just uploaded 2 days ago. They are
from their latest album which is gonna be released on the 2nd January.

And the title of the album is I think Yue Lai Yue Ai.
and and and THEIR STYLE ARE SO SO SO SO HOT for this album.
Its like hmmmm more matured. More handsome.

No more cute cute stuffs like first Album.
All HAWT Manly stuffs now.

Catch this and am inlove with it right now.

Ji Mo Bao Zuo - FLH.

I cnt get the other one. The title track.
But really luhhhhh, Ive saved ENUFFFFF money
for their latest album. enough. but the prob is,
i dont think i can even buy it.

the earliest i can is maybe O levels results day ?.
Or i tell mom smth so that i can go out
on my last day here, which is the 2nd -
which is the release dateeee! omg :)))

but i dont wanna lie. no.

Can anyone help me ? Think of an idea ?
Orrrr maybe I could ask someone to buy it for
me i pass the money to whoever the person is.

can can can ?
anyone anyone anyone ?
please please please ?

But i wna go buy it myselffff :(
ahahahas.

Nvm. I'll think of something.
Meanwhile you guys do so too. AHAHHA.
no luh. kidding.

Im soooo coming up with a new blogskin.
NOW NOW NOW!

*

Anyway i was reading through my email when i saw
another super sweeeeeet farewell email but this
time its from Kethlyn. It broguht me close to tears.
Im so afraid that the disttance will not only
bring us physically apart but (whatever the word is)-ly
apart.

ButI really hope that none of my friendship with the
girls or boys for that matter will be affected.

Btw,Its 4:44 pm nowww. :)

And I dropped Kethlyn a voicemail just now
right after reading the email and halfway
i realize i sound like celeste chen.

muahahahs.

I wasnt trying to be like her but I was sad at that
time and Im trying not to cry so I sounded so act cute.
Esp when I said smth like 'I just wanna say' or smth
coz its the exact same words CC said in one of her vids
on youtube.

CC ? LOL.

I still have a loooot of things to do.
But I dont feel like doing it seh.
I dont know why.

And oh btw, i just came back from JB this morn.
And when i reachthere on sunday night, the same cat
is standing right beside my house.

And we had to leave the door open as we were carrying
heavy things into the hse. And Sheizal and I were standing
at the living area TO ENSURE THE CAT DID NOT COME INTO THE HOUSE.

Sheizal looked outside and he was like the cat's still there.
So both and I wandered off for a while. as in we were still there
just that we didn't pay attention to the dooor.

And next moment,
MIAOOOOOOOOOOO!

The cat's there right in our house.
Wondering why the house is soo messy, maybe.

I was like *GASPSSSSS FAINTTTT*
and i ran all the way to the back of the house.
And i shouted 'kucing masuk' loudly.

accordigng to bro, my dad had to use a broom to
direct the cat to the door. while I, of course
locked myself in the rooom thats furthest away from the
living area.

OMG. How Do I Live ?
seriously how do i live when there might be cat wondering
around like that ? And and and i think it belonged to
a family who i swear im gonna sue for letting their
beloved cat wonder around like, though of course im gonna
say things like 'its not good for the cat as its dangerous'
and stuff. but you know i meant the otherwise. oh yarh
i think he/she beloinged to a family coz theres a red thing
around his/her neck.

BUT BUT BUT

the cat looked a bit like the cat in Shrek - puss in boots issit ?
Yeahhh that one. Quite cute actually. but NOOOOOOOO!

*

Haishh.
I want my FLH Yue Lai Yue Ai Album nowwww!
Why must so many things clash so muchhh eh?

*

Im really really really scared for O level results.
I know ive did my best. Nothing more could change it.
But Im just sooo scared.

The number 25 keep appearing in my head numerous time.
It is my prelims R5 Agg. What the hell does it mean this
time ? Same ? OR worst issit my R4 this time ?

Im really realy nervous.
And i dont even know whens the release of the results.

GAAHHHHH.
Save me.
I want 9 please :)

*

My curent wishlist adds up to as mentioned abt 50 bucks.
For two stuffs only.

NVM.

I shall workkkk. :)

*

I better go now.
Love you all.

Muackz!

<3,shera.

What The Hell ?

2008-12-30T09:25:00.002+08:00

Im sure more of you have heard about him.
Like Come on, of all names, SG Nottiboy ?

I assumed Notti seems more Naughty than spelling the real
word itself ?

One word Loser.

Ive received tonnes of messages and comments on
Friendster from this particular Human Being.

Have a look ; www.friendster.com/sheragerl

Even Primary School Girls get Wet ?
Zomg. So what the hell is his point again ?

One obvious point, he definitely dosent have a life.

Next, lets now go to his well, self proclaimed
'will make you wet' blog. And after reading from the
top tto bottom for 1234567876543 times Im still as dry
as a piece of shit from a constipated person.

Check this out.

"LET ME BE DIRECT AND TO THE POINT.
I ADMIT I AM A PERVERT AND I HAVE NO SHAME ADMITTING
THAT I AM.I'M NOT HERE TO ACT HOLY & PURE.
IF YOU ARE THE TYPE WHO FREAK OUT ON ANYTHING SEXUAL,
GO TO THE BLOG AT THE YELLOW BOX BELOW
IF YOU ADMIT YOU ARE AS PERVERTED AS ME , PLEASE CARRY ON READING..
(We are all humans why waste time acting we are not horny?)"
-sgnottiboy.bs.com

I admit I am A Pervert and I have no shame admitting
that I am ? Hahahahah! That line just gave away the whole
damn thang, not ashame to admit you're one ?

AWWWWWWWW.

Its like me saying, I admit Im fat and ugly. But Im not ashamed
to admit that I am. HAHAHHAHAH!

You know initially, I was like Okay this guy's damn lame
and stuff. But he kept sending more stuffs. And i was like
'Okay, see how drenched you can get me ?'

And like i said, Im still dry as ever.

'We are only humans, why waste time acting we're not horny ?'
Hahahahas. Ohhhh, I just saw your point of even exsisting.
Is so that you can get horny ? And then ..... ?
Seeee, I think this guy's totally bored or something.

'Girls tell me secret that they wish for .....'
Firstly, I wudent believe anyone with at least a quarter
of a brain would even do that. And secondly, whats with
making it public if girlS have been telling you stuff
secretly right ? You wudent even bother to waste a single
minute of your life setting up a blog and go
freidnster-hopping would you ? Unless they aren't even girlS
telling you stuffs in the first place ? And all you tried to do
all these while is to actually GET girlS or maybe just one
to tell you that they blablabla....

Seeeee, he just proved he's got no life yet againnn ?.

'There must be something special & powerful in me , that you need to find out yourself.'

Again. Like I said, why bother promoting yourself if you're
THAT good ? Oh btw for those who didnt go to his blog,before
he said that line above, he said smth about how girls are
willing to ddo rude stuffs for him. And so again, if you're
so POWERFUL why is there a need to promote yourself right ?
Oh and even worst, why is there a need to WARN girls, like
what u used to do last time, about you ? NO LIFE!

'I AM VERY SELECTIVE OVER THE GIRLS / LADIES / WOMEN I SPEND MY TIME WITH!'
LOSL! Whats with that ? Selective ? Oh come one luh.
All the previous lines already showed that you're just someone
lonely who wishes that there are people or at least ONE person
out there who wishes to hear you out. And ure saying, ure selective?
Selective, your ass.

'Lastly,
One thing for sure, whatever we end up doing will be kept secret.

Why girls trust me and feel secure with me?
Because I keep my mouth Shut.

YOUR IDENTITY WILL BE KEPT SECRET.'

OMG OMG OMG AHAHAHAHA!
laugh out loud.

Step like a big company only. Ur identity will be kept secret ?
Like duhhhh, you dont have to act like 'Ohhh thats a bonus
you knowww!' Andddddd another thing's that even moreee
for sure is that, I dont think you actually get to do
anything, THAT IS WHY YOU END UP NOT HAVING ANYTHING TO SAY.

Dumb or what ?
I coudl have just said Wuzun and I were in one room yetd.
But I SOOO cant tell you what happened.
When in actual fact, nothing actually happened.

And what did he say again ?
Making primary school girls wet ?
Hahs. I think by one look even primary school
kids know you're just one old retarded man
who had excessive hormones overflowing in you such that
you can see it pouring out of ur ears and nostrils.

And if you're wondering the reason why I wrote this,
then let me tell you.

1) You pretend like you're some big time
pimp. And that girlS know you for all those rubbish stuffs,
but yet you go around friendster including mine, to tell
me about YOURSELF!

2)Not only once but more than once and including messages too.

3)Whats with proclaiming that you can make girls wet ?
Tell you what, Go get married. like, NOW.

4)What's with listing down your disgusting targets ?

5)You seriously have nothing better to do. You;re bored
and you just need a companion. Like i said go get married.

6)It could be a really serious offence if lets say
the primary school kids do fall for your tricks.
You can get charge and I will be te first one to
go to the police station/court to exxagerate on
every detail.

7) You just dont have a bloody life.
And you sadly, need soemone to point it out.
So there youuu goooo.

8)Im just pointing it out, coz fyi, I am one
of the many many many people who didnt get a lil
wet at all after reading your blog. So yeahhh,
conclusion, FAILED ATTEMPT as an online wannabe
pervert. (who btw is not ashamed of being one ahahahah!)

9)Im just 'WARNING' others about you. Hahahah! In case.

10)I am sooo bloody amused by you.

And I cant believe i actually spend 20 minutes crapping
and ohhh, ADVERTISING you.

WOWWWWWW.
Waytogooo!

Ive got a life of my own too.
Which dosent include making people feel uncomfortable
with horrible rude remarks.

So maybe you should learn to be like that too.

Boring people.All over the net.
Whats new.

thank you!

2008-12-28T22:35:00.005+08:00

Woke up pretty late today.
Lappied and watch tv a while.
And then bathe. Went to Admiralty to
buy kitchen stuffs ahahs at the same time
to meet Zann and pass her the bookmarks.

After I passed her the bookmarks, I got this
from her.

My face at that time was like "woahhhhh plus huhhh".
i was damn damn damn touched luhh.

The bear is so so so damn cute. Its dark brown somemore.
And the letter is sweet too.

OMG, TO ZANN, THANK YOU SOO SOO VERY MUCH!
you really made me touched and real happy.

:)
I swear Ill get you something nice for ya bday!

Anyway this is for my Zhou Jing Yi Xiao Jie's 16th Super
Belated Bday Present.

I was supposed to share w her and get her Show's new album.
But we had a looong chat on the phone and she told me her friendss
got it for her alr. And since Im meeting her on that day itself
I got her another Show disc which she hasent own yet.

But once on the phone i asked her..

me : jing yi do you have any Show dvd ?
her : erm show dvd ... hmmmm... erm... No!

Wahlaooo. She's very funny right.

Had a long chat with Syakirah on the phone yetd.
Damnnn fun. All the stupid stupid talks. Lols.
Really enjoyed talking to you babe.

And we are i think the worst people to be ever
put at partners on a talk show or smth.
coz we tend to "mmmm yeahhh mmm" ahahaha.

ahhsahahas.

After that I had another long chat with my Quek Kai Yun
on the phone too. Really miss her. I wish I had more time
then both of us can go out and talk about KPop
the entire day.

Hahas.

Anyway I got the chance of meeting people like
Chun Kiat Elson Kok Hou Hong chiong Nerissa Jasmine and of
course Amanda herself. at her bday party yetd.

But I need to meet more people.
And I sooo hope I can make a time for them sometime
this week.

*

Something bad happened at home today.
I prayed that things will be all right though.

Gtg.
Ciao.

Hahaha step ciao only.

Love you guys a loooooot!
Muackz!

<3,shera.

buuusyyyy

2008-12-28T00:37:00.002+08:00

Had two hrs of sleep only loh. 6-8.
and the tiredness is even more when i dont sleep at all.

went out again just now.
i guess thats why im tired.

hahs.

i have nothing to say except the fact that
I AM VERY VERY HAPPY AS I OPENED MY EMAIL JUST NOW!

I received a super super super super sweeet farewell email
from Asyraf Khalid whom I of course fondly call Ash!
It was very very sweet you know. I rly didnt expect
it at all luh. nowadays my emails are all full of
my blogshoppers emails and requests. and bla3.

but suddenly i saw one with "SHERA <3" as a subject.
omgg its rly sweet. and i replied alr.
omggg. rly rly sweet you know.

i feel so blessed to have him as a friend man really.
my best guy bitching partner. about anything under the sun.
haishhh.

GONNA MISS YOU ASH! <3.

Im watching a movie with my brothers now.
Its only 1:01 now. So I guess we'll watch
a superr long hindi movie that will make us all tired
and sleepy with all the running at the deserts and singing
at some mountain and a festival almost everyday at their house.

LOL!

Gotta go now.
Toodles.

love.
shera. :)

I will miss you baby.

2008-12-27T08:53:00.005+08:00

I wasnt asleep yet at 6 plus. And all I could think
of was my house. My house. My current house.
I look at my room and realize how much Im gonna miss
this place. A place where I vent everything out but
still its confined within the 4 walls.

I looked at the now messy living room and I couldnt picture
leaving this sight.

*I sound like an Eminem's rap "I look at Hailey and
I couldnt picture leaving her side." AHAHAH.

Anyway yeah, Im gonna miss every part of the house.
Esp Bathroom. Hahs.

Im gonna miss this place I always call Home.
For the past ten years, I grew up here, learn
whats right and wrong here. All the good and
bad memories here.

Agh. Lets not even go to the friends part yeah.

Im left with my clothes currently.

& This has to be collected by Nur Aainaa Nadiah ahahas :)

All stuffs except clothes and books. Can be fitted into shoes
boxes which is then fitted into those two box. That Green Box
is the Gifts box :).

Im Gonna Miss My Darling Darling Darlling Home <3 :(.

Just ignore those food and humans.

Hmphhh. Im just so sad luh.
I dont wanna talk about it. But
Ill miss every single one of you.
All My MSN chatting peeps. Thanks for
all the crap convos that we had.

I will still be online and stuff but will have to
take sometime. I dont care for whatever shit sake
We have to install Astro back! And then we'll be able
to watch Korean's KBS Channel. Where they feauture
MUSIC BANK! :)

AGHHHHH!
Depressed okay. I think I need counselling.
About shifting. ? ahaha yeahhh.

Shit, sometimes the feeling is just unbearable.
I hope Ill be able to come back here sometime.
And I wannna workkkk! So Ill come back here once
in a while.

I LOVEE YOU PEOPLE!
muackz.

love,shera.

finally

2008-12-27T04:49:00.001+08:00

damn its alr 4.50 am. and i finally got
the lappy to myself. but i guess im a bit
too late not just the people, but even msn is snoring.

lol.

tvxq

2008-12-25T15:06:00.003+08:00

Didnt sleep the entire of yetd.
Tired like mad now. But like i said i'd rather
be physically tired rather than mentally.

http://krushes.blogspot.com/

That blogshop is the effing best blogshop in the enitre world.
I mean for KPop fans that is. Omg, seven heaven okay.

Now I have 2 things to really really really save up for.

Faherenheit Third Album - does anyone know the cost ? Shld be 20 plus ?
DBSK - Mirotic (4th Album) + DVD - $28.

Theres is DBSK Album plus Photobook which is 25 bucks only.
But thenn Photobook ? Just look at their faces only uh ?
DVD Can see their cuteness hotness sexiness handsomeness
goodlookingness omg-ness nosebleeding-ness funny-ness
omgiwannafaintcoztheyaredamnhotness.

AHAHAHAH. funny-ness ?

Never learn english or something luh.

I'll have to save about 50 bucks. Once I settle ALL my blogshop
stuffs I would have about 30 plus, 40 bucks arnd there.
How the hell to save when in jb seh ? RM ?

My Dad says he'll give me mooreeee money next yr onwards.
Bleahhhhhs Wanna believe or not ?

Ehh Karang Guni here.
I'll sell eveerything i hv.

WAIT. BRB

okayy back.
omg karang guni are very lazy. I called Uncle twice and
he buat bodoh luh, just walk away. Lazyyyyyyy.
Or maybe he dosent wanna be called uncle ?

And Zhou Jing Yi Xiao Jie, if you're reading.
Faster faster confirm when to buy that Show Luo album.
Faster2. Lailailai.

AHAHAHHAA.

Like I said Im not done with packing and now everyone's getting
worried. about everything. relating to living there.
Im the most stressed out one okay fyi. But I alr start packing and shit.

GUYSSSSSS, CAN YOU MAKE SOME TIME ON A WEEKDAY NEXT WEEK,
MAYBE WE CAN HAVE A MEAL TOGETHER. ONE FINAL LAST TIME.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. :))))

Im gonna miss everyone. Haish. :(

And I loveee Zannnn! She made me look at positive side of
things and ahahaha we had wild imagination linking
this whole shifting thing with fahrenheit. ahahas.
<3 u babe.

Im going to do MOREEE packing.
More DEEBEEESSSKAYING AND MORE FEILUNHAING.

ahahahahs. later.
and before i leave i just want the whole world to know.
That i still love Lee Ryan though i dont know whether he is DOA.

Hahahah i think he's engaged alr.
Whatever.

IM GETTING MARRIED TO WUZUN.
very soooon. lol.

same day as Zann with Aaron Yan.

LOL!

I love you guys a lot okay.

and to syuhada binte staggered! thanks a lot for your help.
love you MUAH MUAH!

<3,shera.

gahhhh

2008-12-25T05:31:00.002+08:00

I started packing my stuffs at around 1am and
now its already 5.30 am and Im still not done yet.
I cant sleep. Im tired though.

I have boxes of stuffs. The biggest is a box called
"Gifts". I really appreciate everything u guys gave me.
Im gonna so effing treasure it.

And I will use it definitely.

Im gonna decorate my room with loads of
pictures of my dear ones in school. sounds
uber lame can ? but hell, I AM GONNA MISS YOU GUYS.

i feel like crying again. coz i cant imagine
what/how life would be. and i rly love this hse
i love singapore and i love everyone here.

im gonna miss my cute lil brian.
fedora and siblings.

im gonna miss the random idotic kids shouting
at the playground arnd noon.

im gonna miss everything.
and damn it jb reminds me of someone and i hate it.
i hate the whole thought of it.

btw, my house at 3am was like at 10 pm ?
tv blasting out loud, my dbsk music playing non stop,
mom and dad still talking and eating somemore
in the living room and ej is like anyhow walk2.

funny eh.

i dont think i wanna sleep alr.
i feel so lethargic but too many things running thru
my mind and i cant help entertaining each bubble of thought.

its exhausting, really.

I went to Aainaa;s workplace at Orchard just now.
Damnn orchard on eve of xmas ? i cant even walk.
but still, i catwalk if i get the chance ahahha.

walk alone mahhhh. must act confident luh.

ive been at this post for almost 30 minutes.
it 6.01 am already.

i better go throw rubbish and act as if im sleeping ?
aahahahs.

Im gonna miss you all darlings!
MUAHHH!

<3,shera

good and bad.

2008-12-24T01:40:00.002+08:00

In the middle of afternoon, I received some news.
Its a good news supposingly. But not all of a sudden,
and when im in the middle of doing my mini business.

The person who wants to rent/buy our house has finally
decided to really shift in here. Earliest by early January.
And that would mean that we have to shift out to none other
than our house in JB.

Zomg! How to meet my friends ? How to meet Customers and stuff?
Omg. How to buy stuffs from places in sg if Im always stuck
there and am only able to go out of jb(wait not even jb,just my house
is enough) without dad and cars and transportation.

Im really happy for our family. But grrr my life ?
Im kindda sad luh actually.

*

After the whole relese tension thang I went to bathe and then
I went down to meet Baby G. Kethlyn! Omgggg i miss her so much.
Her hair is really really nice! And she was damnn sweet to
bring xmas gifts for me and some others.

THANKS A LOT KETHLYN!

Anyway we talked and staggered a lottt under my blog at
our usual place. Haish good times. Thanks for all the
encouraging words and motivation.

I really miss her ahahahaha.
Its really great luh to see you.
And even though our topics are the same old thing,
we still sound like the hottest talk show in town ahaha.

*

Anyway I went up back at almost 9. And then went out to Adm
with ejal to get his Mcflurry Chocolate ahaha. And buy Maggie :)
I loveee McF Choc. Very nice.

Anyway went back home and tune in to coolktime a korean radio
station. I decided to participate in their singing competition
today. I dialled the number damn many times. And finally got
through and then waited nervously. Until Im on Air.

She asked me loads of qns one of which is whether I like DBSK
and whos my favourite. I swear i could talk for hours.
But i kept it short i was like 'i loveee dbsk. my favourite."
..."my favourite is kim jaejoong. hes good looking and has a great
voice." so decent of me right ?

Anyway i sang DBSK Mirotic. Which is the song ure listening to
now if you dont pause/stop my autoplaylist ahahas.

I was the seocnd caller and i waited till the end there
were quite a few Koreans as in real ones or they are damn
good with the language who called. So i was kindda afraid.
I didnt get the overall champion but I got second place.
Hahaha Im so happy can ?

Okay Kiirah's the first to know.
Followed by Keth.

Im happy now. LOL.

To Zann :
Im really for any inconvenience caused yeah.
I hope you're not angry with me.

LOVE YOU ALL.

<3,shera.

stress

2008-12-23T08:39:00.002+08:00

I just came back from JB. And something's stressing me.
All customers should sooo be like Zann Darling :).

Anyway I wanted to blog on Sunday right after SP's match.
Dang, I was soo pissed w the lions. Rightttt, lionsss ehh.
The way they play is like me playing Winning Eleven, which btw
i totally hate it coz its harder to control as compared to
FIFA and PES.

Esp Noh Alam Shah. Exact situation of me whereby Ill go
into the penalty box and with soooo freaking much eagerness,
i pressed circle damn hard. And off the ball goes.

I think Shaiful Esah should have been put in earlier.
And omggggg Ismail Y(yunus issit ?) is soo damn bloody
careless. Punch himmmmmm .

*

Anyway Im going out today i believe to do some stuffs.
Most probably today.

Omg Xmas in 2 days time.

HOHOHOHOHOHO! lol.

I'll go blogshopping or something now.
Hahaha.

Bye and Tc everyone :)

JJ Lin Jun Jie

2008-12-21T04:48:00.002+08:00

I SO Dont have to force myself to like JJ Lin's new album.
I finally made some time to listen to the album,
trying my best to ignore that stupid album cover.

The Album Is Goooooood.

I know nobody will bother to play the playlist but Im
putting it for myself.

JJ Lin - Sixology ( Sixth Album)

Two previously released songs, Qi dai ai and Ai Yu Xi Wang.
Qi Dai Ai featuring Jin Sha. I think theres another duet
track with her in it too. I think its her luh.

A lot more collab this time as compared to Xi Jie.

wait, who the hell am I to comment on his album ?
aahahha.

Okay forget it.
Its not super new luh. In fact its released
for quite sometime alr. But like i said, i hated the
album cover thats why i didnt listen to it.

HAHAHA STUPID & BIAS I KNOW.

and for that, tmr ill go listen to Jay Chou's Capricorn okayyyy.

Gah but rly luh, have nicer album covers luh in future aahah.

Qi dai qi dai ni fa xian wo de ai :)

ai

2008-12-21T00:31:00.002+08:00

Funny, today Im damn bored. Hahaha.
SO I went to Youtube again. But not
for TVXQ Banjun or anything like that.

LOL.

I Youtube-ed Siti Nurhaliza and Faizal Tahir.
Legends in the making definitely.

Mannnnn, can I ever be a singer ?
Can I ? Can I ? Prettyyyy Please.

I wanna be like Siti. I soooo wanna be like her.
AHAHAHAH DESPO OR WHAT.

Okay nvm.

*

Im gonna force myself to like JJ Lin's
new album no matter what. Hahahaha.
Even if I DONT LIKE HIS ALBUM COVER AT ALLLLL!

I dont like Jay Chou Capricorn Album Cover also :(
Album Cover veryyy important leh.

& What's with the poker cards ?

FLH 3rd will be officially released on the 4th of Jan 09.
Exlcuing today. That would mean exactly 14 days. 2 weeks.
Ive gotta save save save! If possible i wanna buy it
on the firt day release. Step fanatic uh.

I know. More can be done, if Im a real fan.
Like preodering w/ autograph and gg to the concert.
But what the hell can i do rightttttt.

I was at someone's blog and her playlist autoplayed.
it was okay initially. but once it reaches Angela Zhang's
song the sound got screwed up again. Aaahahah.

Seems like I can nvr like AZ luh. Forever my enemy.
Kiss my Wuzun so many times in RP.
BLUEKSSS!

Wuzun's in Macau now I believe.
Haishhhhhh I still qqns my self how can i ever
miss a chance seeing him live n real and etc ?
haishhhhhh.

My mom and dad is totally not a supporter of all these stuffs.
Even Ungu's concert also I cant go, whats the chance I will
be able to for FLH's concert ? And Mom keep insisting
Wuzun is a girl or even if he's not then he's a sissy.

She keeps saying the person on my file (the FLH file)
is a girl. Because of the hair and that stupid ribbon
that stylist put around his neck.

Hahahaha the night is still young (again).
Mom wants to use the laptop. Chehhhh Mother sehhh.
To watch online drama. Mother-Daughter bonding time,
coz I wanna watch too. Spa Q 2 :)

Before that I wanna download moreee songs.
JJ Lin hahaahaha.

Whatttttt?? I will damn support local talents,
if the album is not too ex loh. hmph.

Love you all.
Muackz.

<3,Shera.

Problems after problems. Not exactly mine.
But how can I sit down and pretend the world's
all right when my loved ones are not doing good ?
Haish.

omgg

2008-12-20T01:25:00.003+08:00

Oh my god. My friend just told me that FLH Concert
was about 2 and half hrs. Zomggg.

2 and a half hrs of Wuzun-ology. Omg.!

Haish. I just wish....

*

Anyway as usual I slept at arnd 530
after i read the detective novel ahaha agaiiin.
woke up around 10 plus thinking that im the only one
awake. ahahas.

turns out that Mom and Dad were finishing their breakfast then.
Yeah Dad's not working today. Yipeee.

Anyway Im in Depression Mode again. As I heard another bad news.
Seems like eversince the past week there's not a single day
that I can just smile happily and not shed a single tear.

Haish.

I really dont know what to do coz I dont have the authority.
I hate my position. I wanna help. I wanna be a good person.
I dont wanna hurt anyones feelings and lie and feel smug
that I end up happy while someone dont. But eff it,
what the hell can i do ?

:(.

Anyway I listened to Korea Radio station just now
and was really surprised at the contestants that sang
korean songs. Some were really good but some, omg, shiok
sendiri ? ahahahs.

Im gonna continue listening on Monday.

About 11 more days only.
Thats it.

Im so dead :(.

Im currently watching Spa Q 2 on tv3.com ahahas.

The night is still damn young. I will have to plan
what to do until im tired? ahahahas.

seeeeya.

love,shera.

DOWNLOADDD AHAHAH

2008-12-19T04:20:00.002+08:00

Okay I changed my mind.
Internet's connection damnn good.
But only at 4 am in the morn.
Im taking advantage to 'take' as many 'things' as possible
from the net.

Im so happyy. ahahahaha.

yayy!

2008-12-19T02:14:00.004+08:00

Woke up pretty early but had another hr of nap in the noon
after reading my detective find-who-kill-who novel.
im still in the first few chapters. and its killing me
reading all the weird weird detective scientific terms.

lappied all the way to 12 plus. Went out at 1.
To meet my darling customer,Zann. She bought more
stuffs from me and put deposits somemore. Omg,
thanks a lot babe.

My phone batt died on me. :(

Anyway while waiting for her i was observing many
things. like this angmoh guy who was promoting stuffs.

i thought he was gg to be like 'hey ya'll we're
havin sum promotions here yeahhhhhhh'

but instead he went like 'erhh hie auntieee! we r here
to promote this someting'

i dont know if you get what i mean but its that whole
angmoh tone missing and is so obviously substituted by
the normal sporean slang.

damn funny. but i hate that ang moh so disgusting.

*

I can get busy but I pretended as if I have nothing
to do today. I just slacked, sleep, eat, and watch tv.

Xmas with the Kranks is indeed nice. Sweeet.
Though Mr Krank could really brush his ego wayyy
to the side after what everyone did for him.

TODAY'S FAHRENHEIT CONCERT!
omgg.

i feel like crying. :(:(:(

after tmr, all FLH-ians that ive known online
will start gg.

"WUZUN LOOK HOT YETD. HE'S WEARING BLA3 AND HES SO CUTE."
"I GOT TO TAP WUZUN ARMS AND FEEL HIS MUSCLES."
"WUZUN WINKED AT ME SIA. FEEL LIKE FAINTING."
"OMG WUZUN THREW HIS WHATEVER-CHEAP-THING-THAT-
HE-DOSENT-WANT-ANYMORE-SO-THATS-WHY-HE-THREW-IT-
IN-THE-FIRST-PLACE AT THE FANS AND I CAUGHT IT."
"OMGG YOU KNOW EVERYONE SCREAMED LIKE MAD ALMOST GG DEAF SIA"
"HE POINTED TO ME WHEN SINGING BU HUI AI!"
"I WENT ON STAGE AND GAVE HIM ROSES AND HE SMILED SO WIDELY
SO HANDSOME SIA."
"OMGGGGG YOU SHOULD HAVE GONE, THEIR PERF WAS VERY LI HAI"
"YOU KNOW WUZUN DOES A BIT OF BREAKDANCE DURING CHU SHEN RU HUA"
"WUZUN DAMN SEXY SIA YETD"
"OMGGG THEY ASK FOR A VOLUNTERR AND I WENT UP AND OMGG
I HOLD WUZUNS HAND AND KISSED JIRO AARON AND CALVIN ON BOTH
CHEEKS SIA."

omggg. after writing all of that, i suddenly
dont feel so jealous anymore. okay fine, i rly hope
no one's gonna brag to me until like that.

if not ill totally,

"oh you know what, im returning to brunei with wuzun tonight!"
"AND WE ARE SOOO GETTING MARRIED CANNNNNXZZXZZ!"

and then ill quickly appear offline.
Esp nowadays im quite popular for that, due to the
shitass connection here.

*

I have onlyyy one thing on my wishlist.
Something I really really really want.
But its not even in stores yet. And if I order
now, its like not worth the extra money.

But Im putting that aside.

So many evil voiceS in me saying "omggggg how could you ?
Im saving money just for the sake of that."

But theres so few and super soft voices telling me
to put it aside first. asideeee ? all the way till next mnth?
means next yr lehh.

oh mannnn. just one lil thing and its making me so sad.

Ill fight tempations and buy things for people first.
Yes I will.

:(:(:(.

I have to blooody go out and shop seriously.
today's the 19th alr. Im left with 12 days only before
new year. Thats like less in 2 weeks.

Omg Im totally playing a fool can.

Okay Ill get serious about things.

Hwaitinggg!

ahahha.

*Only Ichigo always have nice close up photos of him.Too big im
lazy to resize tho. therefore thattt photo ahahaha.
But Ichigo they always spell his name as Jejung.*

I wonder if anyone wants to try spelling (btw i spell 'Spelling'
as 'Sleeping' three freaking times) my name diffrently.

HOW CAN I NOT LOVE HIM ?

Kim Jaejoong Saranghaeyo <3.

Im going offline soon. To use the comp for more
designings ahahahahaha like real.

*

I seriously I had a llloooottt of money right now.

*

I think before I go offline i'll watch another TVXQ Banjun drama.
And Ive successfully downloaded (ahaha accomplishment ?)TVXQ
GDA's Are you a good girl and Mirotic perf. Hottt stuffs.

Oh yahh and anywayyy, Im in love with JJ Lin again.
But I swear not because of Sixology. In fact, because
of Xi Jie again ahahaha. I know that album is like expired
alr. But still the songs are damn nice.

I LOST THAT JJ LIN XI JIE CD! :(
i loveee Fa Xian Ai and Bu Liu Lei De Zi Zhang or smth ahaha.

Seeee ya.
Bye.

<3,shera

tvxq

2008-12-18T03:22:00.001+08:00

Chatted on MSN with a few people just now.
I love to catch up with diff people. Lol.

Anyway i was reading archieves of KPop gossip
news all the way to January 2008. Haishh
KpopKpop....

Anyway Im supposed to watch a movie online
but the buffering's taking as much time
as I usually bathe so I decided to catc
DBSK CTW Quiz on youtube. I watched a bit
of that coz its pretty boring that they
feauture only MinHo. And not the whole TVXQ.

And the funny ones are the rest of the participants.
or are they the hosts too ? to me they are like
makciks ? ahaha yunho's obviously not
entertained. gahhh its hsd hv been YunJae!

So for now Ill be watching another TVXQ Banjun theatre.
okayyy decided ahahaha TVXQ - Uninvited Guest.

Love you all.
Muahsss.

grrrI

2008-12-17T21:08:00.004+08:00

Im now watching the match tooo just like everyone else.
Spore so damn suay righttt. But nvm, lots of time.

*
So you're taking advantage of me ? Is that so ?
Then I guess, you're indeed a damn interesting person.
You're damn contradicting and ironic. You question Why
yet you do it. You question how yet you know how to
do it. You question your fate yet you curse others.
Wassup with that men ?

And Ive taken time to calm you down and shit.And now
you just step over me like that ? Oh wait, whats with
acting like you are a fucking know it all when its me
who explains ATOZ to you ?

Now you just dumped me aside, acting like you know
everything and it should be asking you stuffs. Oh comeon,
darling you know shits about anything okay. All you know is
blablabla, and that is practically nothing much seriously.

Im not angry or jealous or anything. Im just dissapointed
and effing amused with your behaviour and the words that
came out of your mouth. Anyone could have done it, but because
its you, its really pissing me off.

Lets not even get to the really chiildish part coz its
not worth it. But tell you what, for now,i think you're
lucky in every freaking sense.

Since you 'dont need me' anymore, then ive got three simple
words for you, FUCK OFF HONEY!

*

I sound like Fauzi Rassull. lol.
and guys, dont bother figuring who and stuffs luh okay.
It isn't any of my friends. You dont even know this person
unless uve heard me telling stories about them ahaha.

*

There are people looking at my hse now.
This person's cute teenage son is looking at me
typing furiously.

Let me guess, i think he has a surname Wong.
or maybe Yeo.

AHAHAHAH DAMN ANYHOW ONLY!

Anyway was supposed to go library with Farna today.
But she woke up late. Despite sleeping not so late!
HAHAHAH!

Anyway i went to woodlands mrt station to pass them
items to Brenda (i think). And also my letter to WUZUN! :)

I was supposed to follow her or smth to the airport
to see FLH. But gahhhh what are the effign chances tt
i could go ? BLUEKSS!

Anyway they arrived at 6.45 pm just now. Arnd there.
Arghhh wish I was there.

anyway take care everybody.
im really busy nowadays.

and i need inspiration of the best xmas pressies.

toodles.

<3,shera

PS; I DREAMT OF SOMEONE YETD.

4am

2008-12-17T04:23:00.002+08:00

Gahh Im so bored.
Almost 4.30 am and i cant sleep yet.
Coz I slept for abt 2 hrs arnd 7/8 pm.

Ive been looking at all sorts of DBSK Videos.
I loveeee YunJae! <3<3.

Oh mannnn.
Tomorrow, as in the 18th FLH will be having an event
here with those concert go-ers. pffffft.
im sooo effffing saddd can.

shit i hear someone walking.
gtg. <3.

sky ? stop.

2008-12-16T09:09:00.004+08:00

I know everyone's been really into and also out
of DBSK's Mirotic Perf. at the recent GDA.
I mean Im quite over how good they were that night too.

They were indeed hot and sexy esp Hero & UKnow.

& I know they changed Skin to Sky.

But its just one English word. I was pissed
and puzzled too but that was like one day after the
performance when it was still hot on youtube.

i went to youtube just now.
and still see things like, "huh ? under my sky ?"
latest a few hrs / a day ago.

YES PEOPLE, IT IS MY SKY.

yeah its weird but its that okay.
i cannot count how many actually say things
like "omg ? sky ? it shud hv been this or at least that."

Im sure the boys and SM knows what to do right?
Bleahhhhs.

Anyway let me show you something I did out of boliaoness.
Omg this is very very horrendous i tell you.

HAHAHAH.

Original. (yeahh i know damn ugly but whatever luh, i need to show
you smth ahaha)

After. (ahahahhaa omggg)

AHAHAHA OMG.
Step Xiaxue only ehhh. But Im doing it to my own
face whatttt.

Anyway I slept early and woke up early also today.
Quite happy that I managed to get out of the whole
slleep late then can wake up early thing.

Aainaa told me once on the phone that I must learn to
sleep early and wake up early and she said,

"if not, what do you wanna work as ?"
we paused and both of us said simultaneously.
"Security Guard!"

ahahahah. me as a a guard ?
i think the chances are the building guards
me more than the otherwise.

Laptop experts. I need help.
My laptop needs like 1 million minutes to load.

And people with printers. Pleasee contact me or smth okay.

<3,shera :)

Survey

2008-12-15T21:19:00.002+08:00

Hey guysss. Hows everyone's doing ?
Gah, Im really busy nowadays hahs.

Ive been sleeping early but waking up late.
Chet. This cant happen. Hahahahah.

Woke up at 9 and breakfast and played the comp
tihs morning. Was kindda late as I left hse at arnd
10.45 am to meet Zann at Adm.

Zann's a very pretty lady, suits her really
polite and sweet self. :)

Went out with fam today.
Family day mahhhh.

LOL!

Im getting damn random. Oh yeah I was supposed to do
some survey from Kethlyn & Guan Wei.

1. The person who tagged you is ?
Kethlyn/Lim Guan Wei

2. Your relationship with him/her ?
Schoolmate/Classmates - Great Buddies!

3. Your 5 impression of him/her ?

Rationale,Patient,Crappy,Easily bored,Sporty./
Smart, Handsome, Caring, Understanding, Crazyyy.

4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you ?
A TOP Poster & All the small encouraging talks /
Buying me FLH 2nd Album plus DVD tgt w/ other friends.

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you ?
Everthing under R.E Series ? /Keep my autograph you'll
get money by selling it in future. LOL!

6. If he/she become your lover, you will ?
Ask her whether she's damn staggered or what ?/
Send him to zoo coz he's an elephant.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
Both of them are great as they are.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will ?
Call Transnational staggerism and bomb her hse ? ahahah /
Organize a 'Let Elephants Extinct Scheme' AHAHAH!

9. If he/she dies, you will ?
OMGGG. Cryyyyyy :(

10. What is it you want to tell he/she now ?
Merry Advanced Xmas lol / I miss you elephant!

11. Your overall impression of he/she ?
Nice lady, with a great sense of humour and a super great friend. /
Nice chap, whom is worth appreciating and loving.

12. How do you think people around you will feel ?
Slightly Hyped up ? ahahaha

13.The characters you love of yourself are?
Can I change that to Hate ? Hahahah.
In a way its good that I care about people and what they think,
but it can get annoying coz one moment ill be like, yeah i
wanna do this n next moment i wont coz blablabla.
As much as I hate it, people find my laughter amusing ?
So okay at least it makes them happy ?

14.ON the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are ?
Hahaha Okay good one. I care too much about ppl's perception
esp the ones i truly care n love. I have no confidence in myself,
always doubting my own actions n thinking. And, Im very
hot tempered and can be selfish too. Esp towards fam members. :(

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
I wanna be myself definitely. I wanna learn from others
and put them into me, shahirah. :)

16.For people that care and likes you,say something to them.
Awww, I care and like you guys too. I LOVE YOU :)
Thanks for everything.

17.Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.

1. Syakirah
2. Jing Yi
3. Kai Yun
4. Mei Yin
5. Redzuan
6. Shikin
7. Illa
8. Izan
9. Cui Ying
10.Zann :)

18.Who is no.6 having a relationship with?
Idk. or no one.

19.Is no.9 a male or a female?
Female

20.If no 7. and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Nope.

21.What is no.2 studying all about?
Not sutdying anything for now.

22.When was the last time you chatted with no.3?
Omggg long time ago ? Hmm maybe on the 13th of November.

23.What kind of music band does no.8 likes?
Idk but singers like Chris Brown yeah.

24.Does no.1 have any siblings?
Yeap a cute brother.

25.Will you woo no.3?
If I am Boy, Deffffly.

26.How about 7?
If I am Boy, yeahh.

27.Is no.4 single?
Nope.

28.What is the surname of no.5?
Erm no surname ?

29.What is the hobby of no.10?
Hahaha, blogshopping I guess ?

30.Does no.5 & 9 get along?
Not sure.

31.Where is no.2 studying at?
Graduated from Wrss.

32.Talk about something for no.1?
She's my sister. Eversince sec 1. She's a great friends.
Who's always there for me. thanks babe.

33.Have you tried developing feelings with no.8 ?
She's a girl!

34.Where does no.9 live in?
Woodlands/Marsiling ahahaha

35.What colour does no.4 likes?
Red.

36.Are no.1 and 5 bestfriends?
CCA Mates and yes pretty close.

37.Does no.1 have any pets?
Nope.

38.Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?

Uhuhhh ahah.

39.What is no.10 doing now?
Lols, Admiring FLH faces on the poster ? Hehhe.

Done Im happy men ahahaha.

Omg I feel really stressed nowadays.
Bt its not fair right ? ringing up ur frens when
ure in trouble then dump them coz ure bz and stuff.

Haish.

Anyway Dad's doing a project on illegal downloading
of Animaes. Hahaha Sucha nice topic for a father-daughter
discussing over noon tea ? Definitely.

My dad'd worried that I might get involve coz theres
a serious tracking down of those animae dl-ers nowadays.
Hahs, I obviosuly dont dl them.

I watch them on tv ahahaha. :))

Ohh and btw Last Episode of Let It Shine rocks!
Its sad. I cried. But its not a very good ending.
But at an episode, its good.

Outingg

2008-12-14T03:29:00.002+08:00

Hey there quick short update.
Theres sumthing wrong with the laptop.
Eff. And it looks like as if its all
my fault coz i always use it.

But it can mean that anyone who uses it
for a min only but inserts a virus in this
thing is orlly at fault too what.

damn it.

I was supposed to have lunch with aainaa at
her work place. really missed her. so thought
of seeing her.

but then i was told to check something out
at plaza sing. which i didnt find luh btw ahaha.
Farna happen to need to go to PS also so we went
out tgt today.

Lunch was macdee which i admt is ex w/o student meal
but its filling luh.

Went to the national library first btw.

Im damn tired and damnnn it i need
someone who has a printer who can help
me print some stuffs, I WILL PAY YOU OKAY!

it wont be that much but at least smth right ?
esp for those slackers at home. :)))))

tell me if u hv a printer that's not spoiled and has ink okay.
love you.

Im damn stress nowadays.
Dad asked me to pick out certain close friends
for a special dinner on my bday nite.
Suddenly, i feel like ive got so many friends.
Deffily very close who will stick with me
thru thick n thin. and few classmates tt i realy
miss. :)

Im damn stress luh nowadays.
Eh i said that alr huhu.

Liverpoop draw with Hull.
Ejal and I were like " huh ? Hahaha!"
then we look at each other n said, " ehh no it shld be HullHullHull"

okay fine not funny.
i need to do some urgent stuffs.
yeahhh urgent and its almost 4am alr.

THOSE WITH PRINTER* FASTER2 TELL ME WHO U ARE.
*working n has ink.

okay this dosent seem like a short update.
im getting scared day by day for results.

okay love u all.

Dont Say Goodbye

2008-12-12T03:55:00.002+08:00

I watched this just now & has been crying ever since.

The first person that came to my mind was Him.
Yes him. How could it be ? Why am I still feeling
the hurt I felt from months ago ? Why am I still
hanging on my own feelings by a thread ? Why ?

I thought things will be much better after we stopped
seeing in each other in school. But my heart beats
faster everytime I see him appear online and as I
read about him in his fellow friends blog.

Gawd im sucha nerd. Like that also wanna cry ehh ?

GAHHHHHHHH!

Those tears. What exactly do they represent ?
:(.

I miss you J. I really do.
& I dont care whether anyone
accidentally read this. Coz
I really wish I can see you
everyday just like back in school.
I wish She had accepted you. But
the fact that she didnt hurt me even more
and fuck knows why luh btw. Sometimes
I really qns myself, Am I Really
Getting Over You ? Am I ? Have I ?
Will I ever ? I think I used to
avoid saying it but I love you. :(

Haish. What a life.

Loads of love,
Shera.

farna requested me to put her name in this post.
FAAAAARRRRRNAAAAA! okay thereee! :)

LOVELYYY

2008-12-11T12:15:00.004+08:00

I went to the library to return the dozens of books I borrowed
from Last 2 weeks. Yeah they extended the loan quota until
January I think.

Anw I rushed back home and reached just in time to watch
the 5.30 pm CH 8 Chinese show. Followed by second last episode,
of Sutera Maya on TV3. And then I watched random Korean
& Indonesian Drama. Switching channels every now and then.

Chatted with a customer of mine (hahaha cheh customer eh)
via SMS. She is sooo bloody going for FLH Concert. And I told
her how sad I was that I didnt get to go.

But this sweet lady's willing to help me pass my letter
and present to my darling Wu Zun. Omg thankss a lot okay.

It totally saddens me to see everyone so hyped up to go.
Sadddens me like mad! Esp when there are ppl dropping
promotion tags my board selling their tix. Hmph. Sedihh you know.

Someone, cheer me up with good words ?ahaha

FOR MY DEAREST WUZUN! :)
Hahaha the envelope is bulging coz I put the gift
in there too ahahas. Im so sweeet right ?

GAHHHH IM SAD AGAINNNNNNNN! I CANT GO!
WHY CANT MY MOM AND DAD LIKE MAKE ME HAPPY
AND LET ME GO ? HMPHHHHHH!

*

Anyway my player says Ive been repeating DBSK's Wrong Number
23 times. Bluekss. I almost memorise dthe lyrics can ?!
Lol I was singing along to JJ's rap just now (of course
I hentam sum of the words) and suddenly Mom asked me this
from the kitchen, "You watching Cartoon eh ?"

I wanted to laugh. But I controlled luh.
I was like, "ermmmmm no luhhh. not cartoon..."
*dont bother explaining loh! ahaha*

Anywayyyy I have to meet up with a friend luh
if not Ill be like damn fucking bored sia.

And I need something to take my mind off
the whole FLH concert thang. :(

*

I wanna work. I want money. Xmas's coming.
Not that it mattered for me but my friends
are celebrating it. Season of giving isn't it ?

AHHHH! & I JUST NEED A FREAKING $20 ONLY TO PREORDER
FLH 3RD ALBUM AT SEMBAWANG. HMPHHHHH!

$20 ONLYYYYYYYY.

*

Haishhhh I played the laptop from 1 to 5am this morning.
Watching DBSK Videos againnnn. Bloghopping people's blog,
people as those gg for the concert. Hmphh. Idk why I even cried.

Went to my room and acted like I actually slept.
But i really couldnt sleep.Went online at 7 but no one's
online. Slept a while to 10am sharppp!

Been downloading DBSK stuffs from just now.
Guess what's my alarm nowww ? Jaejoong's voice
saying, "Heyy wake up! Ive stayed all night just
to wake you up in the morning.Now tt ure awake ill go
to sleep.!" Awwww how cute. But he said it in Korean
luh.

And cell's wallpaper is also Jaejoong's face.
Screensaver Wuzun's face. Ringtone, TOP's Good Person.

ahahahha.

Im yawning and theres tears ahahahaha!
Ive been at this post since forever mennn!
Gahhhh!

Im gonna download more brushes. Im gonna make a new blogskin
for hmmm, next year ? Hahaha idk. Maybe.

*

I JUST REALIZED MY BDAY NEXT YR IS ON A THURS.
SKALI DAMN EFFING SUAY ITS THE THRUSDAY BEFORE
OUR FREAKING O LEVEL RESULTS RELEASE ON FRIDAY!

ARGHHHH! I WANT A NICE 17 BDAE SEH!
at least a small gathering with closest buddies.
Later,everyone will be worried about results.
And there goes the not so sweet 17. hmph!

Ehhh damn sed eh my life?! Im not working.
Damn broke. Lazy to ask my parents for money
though its my money that Im asking for from them.
Cannot go FLH concert. Bday's at the start of the year,
when the hell will I have a time to save money for
a decent treat for my few good friends at least ?
And O level results also.

BAD! THIS IS BAD LUH!

Illa chatted with me just now and she asked
what do I want for my birthday next year.
I said i dont know, but I think I know alr,
A Decent Birthday ? & Not A Bad Birth Day ?

hmphh. so sad.
& imagine if my parents suddenly go like
'hmmmm lets go jb or melacca during ur bdae k'.

wahkao fuck luh.
id rather die sia.

haishhhh.
i wanna go korea luhhh.

Im gg alr.
Suddenly, WRONG NUMBER, playing for the 34th time,
seems like a noise pollution.

I need to chill.

Another bowl of Koko Crunch please.

THE GREAT CHOCLATEY TASTE!

lol,shera.

ps; i was bloghopping and then went celeste's blog
and saw pictures of her wearing tudung. zomggg damn cute can.
look like me when i was a baby.

WAIT, DID I JUST SELF PRAISE ?
ahahahahahhahhahahahahahahha.

busy

2008-12-09T23:08:00.003+08:00

Okay what Im gonna say next will be kindda surprising.
Im Very Busy right now and will prolly be in the next
few days.

Weird ?

Okayyy i gotta save loads of Bucks.
Because I still owe thse people a decent Birthday Present.

Zhou Jing Yi
Quek Kai Yun
Alex Yong
Leow Man Ting
Koh Shi Yi
Suraya
Redzuan

And I also have to buy Xmas Presents for Baby G & Natalie.
They are my closest buddies celebrating it.

And Fahrenheit's gonna release their third album.
Tomorrow pre sales start. Theres this blogshop
that has preodering of FLH 3rd album for only $28.
And it has a set of free gifts.

But I have to book and pay before 12 dec.
If not it will be increased to $35.

Ill see if Popular has it or not. Because Im sure Popular will
sell it at cheaper price.

Omgg ive gotta earn bucks to buy all the above-mentioned
items and for the diff people.

As usual Im always busy with youtube, watching every single
video that has DBSK&BigBang in it. Hahahaha :)

Im enjoying like eff luh now.

&Current tune; Mirotic. duhhh!

LOL. Im gonna do all my stuffs later.
I think Im going to the Civic Library & then to CWP Popular.

And im soo lazy to talk about dreams as it gets weirder and
weirder each day. I tried to counter by saying ' cehhh its him
again' once I woke up. Hoepfully that'll make me less paranoid
about the whole damn thing.

Timeeyyy of the month and my stomach hurts like hell.
Seriously, I felt like almost dying luh. Pffft.

Ohhhmygod,Im in love with DBSK. (?)
duhh eh.

After thinking about it, I REALLY REALLY REALLY
WANNA GO TO FAHRENHEIT CONCERT AND I FEEL LIKE
SUPER DUPER FUCKING SAD IF I DONT. :(

Mom and Daddd, whyyyyyyyy ?

ahahah aites im gg off alr.

love you all.
muackz.

LOL,Shera.

hari raya haji

2008-12-08T10:00:00.002+08:00

Heyyyy alll. Its funny luh coz everyday i will wake up at
11 plus and today all of a sudden 8.30 am and Mom's asking
me to bathe and stuff. Only had 3 hrs sleep. My brothers I believe
had an hour extra of it as they sink into their world of FIFA 09.

Which btw, can I just digress ? I hate FIFA 09.
FIFA isent like what it used to be luh. FIFA 2000
was like my favourite during PS1 times and I despise
Winning Eleven. But now, I hate both FIFA & W11 coz
there's something better called Pro Evolution Soccer.
Ahhh, yes that's the baby for now. ahahahahs step toyboy onlyy.

Anyway i finished reading the novel at 5.30 am sharp.
And the reason why I finished it ? The laptop was in Dad's room
when he went to sleep so i ruined my chance of hogging
on MSN through the night. wahahha.

Anyway none of complain about waking up and stuff coz today
is none other than Hari Raya Aidiladha or Hari Raya Haji.
To my fellow Muslim readers, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha okayyy.

Hennyways two days ago, guess what ? I had a total of 4 dreams
in one night. Yes, four! One of which was about my mom,
Another one has him in it, Ermm i forgot what the other one is,
and the last one is about Yoga Lin You Jia!

ahahahaha i know damn lame right ? Anyway i dreamt that I met
him somewhere. BUT he turns out to be a damn arrogant snobbish
pain in the ass. It was like he's like damn effing arrogant
now that he's popular wit winning that shit compeptition
(ahaha of course it isnet a shit competition luh but i seem
to think so in my dream) and stuff. (Not that I know him before
he became popular either.)

But anyway I was like damn excited luh. So i was like ..

Me : OMG! You're Yoga Lin right ?

Him : *with that snobbish 'im so cuutee face' * Duh! Then who do
you think I am ? (Read ; Duh! Aboden!)

Me : (in my heart) Omg so snobbish, of course I'd think you
were someone else or something else maybe, coz if that
face were to be longer and ears to be bigger, you'd look
close to Phil from Madagascar. [AHAHAH I SWEAR I ACTUALLY
SMILE IN MY SLEEP WHEN I SAID THAT.]

Anyway just to be nice i still continued the conversation
like asking him about his songs and albums and next plans
and stuff, but he was damn action, he gave the 'Omg im so
handsome that I shudent be talking to not pretty girls
like you' Yes yes the kind of 'Im So Handsome' that
Mr Poh gives in school.

Its kindda getting on my nerves luh. And he keep rolling his
eyes. Omg, if not for the fact that he looked a bit
like Wuzun from an angle, I would have smacked him right
in the face. And then I woke up, and felt like deleting
every single song from him from my computer and phone
and stupid mp3 players. I was about to go like 'Omg,
I fucking hate Yoga Lin and he's not cute cannnn'.

And suddenly I hear this, "Ai ni de na yi ge, Shang ni de na yi ge"
Which stopped me in my tracks. Yes everything froze.

And I later woke up, realizing that all THAT, including the
'waking up' and hearing tunes from Bo Le, was all a dream.

Itssss weird righttt ?

But even after 2 days, I felt like hating him.
Haish, Im saddened by how random I can be. I havent
met him in my entire life and one dreaam in which he happens
to be snobbish in destroyed the enitre thing.

BUUUUUT, IVE LEARNED SOMETHING FROM ALL MY EFFING WEIRD DREAMS
FROM DAY 1 THAT THEY ARE ALL OPPOSITE TO REALITY. EFFING
OPPOSITE.

so that's why he appears snobbish.

I didnt dream of anything yetd. Too short of a sleep ?
I dont hope so.

And since dreams are opposite, I so dont effing intend
to dream of Wu Zun pleaseeee.

Gawddd im damn lame siaa. I just use a few minutes to
explain a damn idotic dream. About of all people,
Yoga Lin.

Anyway not trying to be witty at all, But I think DBSK
makes me feel so erotic and so like a dirty minded pervert.
Hahahaha.

Whats with their effing sexy Mirotic video clip.

No wonderr they are Gays out there.
But how come there's Lesbianos also ehhh ?
Pamela Anderson ? Britney Spears ? Wahkaoz.

Im gonna be bored for the wholeeee of today.
For sure.

So ill spend time either reading novels or
download more dbsk vids. :)

Oh yesss i just remembered what the other dream was,
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT IF I SAY ITS ABOUT FELICIA CHIN ?
omg really man. and its related to the yoga lin one
idk how though.

But before I sleep I went to Feli's blog and she mentioned
something about Yoga Lin album that shes gonna auction off
or something. And and in my dream Yoga (hahah omg sounds weird
for a first name like imagine someone being mad at him, "Damn
it Im gonna kill you Yoga!!" ahahaha zomg sounds like star
wars or something.)went all silent when i mention Feli's name.

Oh my god i better stop it or people are gonna question me.
& my mental state of course.

*

I miss the very person Im missing right now.
Yeahhhh you know loh whoooo.

*

Gooooodbye.
See ya.

Muackz times 100.

LOL,Shera.

(and yesss okay SMS-ing is still possible even though
Im in JB - yokaaaay)

DBSK :)

2008-12-07T13:38:00.003+08:00

Chatted with Farna till about 4 am ?
I continued Youtubing the hottest vid.
I introduced DBSK to Farna and now she's addicted.

Anyway Farna, here are the best DBSK Vids of all time.

Korean ;

1. O Jung Ban Hup

2. Rising Sun

3. Triangle

4. Balloons (Very Cute)

5. Hug

6. Believe (one of their best ballads)

7.Whatever The Say (Accapella)

8.

9.Step By Step (I used to be crazy about this one)

10. And of course the latest, Mirotic.

11. Wrong Number (Second Single from Album ; Mirotic)

(Not really my most favourite but JJ raps in this wahaha)

Japanese ;

12 - 27 Its the whole of their latest Japanese Album
and every single songs is worth listening. Listen to Purple Line.
First and look at the Video Clip.

DBSK - T album

Purple Line Video Clip

.

I just realize Summer Dream is only 30 secs. so heres the Vid.

Learn the dance steps aand enjoy dancing Farna okayyyy.
They are the sex ahahahah :).

Seeeee ?
How can I not stick to Youtube almost 24/7 ?
Temp's rising like El Nin Yo lol.

See ya muackz.

*I miss you. I do *

lol,shera.

addiction

2008-12-06T22:46:00.002+08:00

After evening prayers. Dad had to use the laptop.
So I used the comp inside (yeah the one with no net)
to watch DVDs. Might sound lame but I devoted a few
speacial hours in my life for the oh so bubbly, Michael Buble.

Hahahah.

I watched two of his DVDs concert and some backstage thang.
Omg, can he be that perfect ?

Okay the reason why I love him and purchase his dvds are because
firstly given his looks and age, he knows he could be any Shayne
Ward anytime, singning sexy emo ballads but he decided to
pursue and continue the music that his grandfather used to love.
All that classy, jazzy, sexy, sassy, frank sinatra-ssy shit.
Which is such a good thing coz who the hell wants to listen
to things like that anymore other than real music lovers ?

Not very much.

Secondly, he has damn unique voice. I dont know all the musical
terms for it but heck, lets just use my OWN terms. His
voice is sexy, soothing, melodious, and vocally powerful.
His voice is able to stretch over a large range of pitch and tones.

Thridly, he has a great showmanship and sense of humour.
Go watch his DVD to know. He's always very cute in whatever
he does and he likes to dance randomly during his songs.

Fourth, he has a damn sexy expression while singing more
slow ballad jazz numbers. You should watch his That's All
performance, omg, his expression is sad but hot, how can that
be ? how how how ? so go check it out ahahahas.

Fifth, okay luh, bottom line he is pretty much a sexy guy.
But I think the sexiness is based on his songs and voice
and not image or looks.

Do check this Canadian dude out.

These are the two DVDs that I watched just now.
I can lend or burn for you if you're interested to watch.
(Just see how many actually ask for it ahahahah)

Some hot shots.

Anywa after that like on cue Judah called to, as usual, talk
rubbish. But this time it isnt rubbish. He played a few piano
pieces for me and the first one is this. And thanks to him
I got so damn addicted to this Yiruma guy, whos btw a KOREAN!

Check this out. Damn beautiful.

this is only one of his pieces.

Ive yet to check out the rest. You guys please do so too okay.

I love guys who play the piano. Somemore, he's Korean.
Veryyyy FOMG! ahahahas.

Im chatting with aprrox 7 people and having
voice convo with Kiirah and I just whispered
I love you Kiirah ahahahas.

Okay i guess i better go and continue chatting.

Oh yes before I forget, there will be this Ferrari exhibition
tomorrow and Monday. $5 only per admission and it goes
to charity and the cars there are like the sex of transportation
or somethign luh. gooo check it out.

I CANT GO COZ TMR EVE OF HARI RAYA AND MONDAY IS HARI RAYA
SO YEAHHHH :( FERRARI LEHHH $5 ONLY.

lol,shera.

survey

2008-12-06T13:09:00.004+08:00

The staggered Baby G didn't tag me to do this.
I only knew after I scrolled down her blog.
AHAHAHAHHA. DONT STEP MINAH STAGGERED LUH KETH!

Anyway here goes.

1) What's your 10 most Favourite Foods.

- Basically All Mom's cooking
- Fruits (Watermelon esp)
- Bread Toast
- Nasi Lemak
- Seafood Mee Goreng
- Steak
- Mutton Chop
- Fish & Chips
- Twisties (Green) & Chachos (Spicy/BBQ)
- Cadbury Chocs & Ferrero Roche and other chocs.

OKAY THAT EXPLAIN THE FAT INTAKE DOSENT IT ?

2) 10 things I love Doing.
- Blogging, Bloghopping, Blogskinning
- Editing Photos, Taking Photos
- Youtube the likes of DBSK & FLH & JC
- Disturb My Mom and EJ (Quality time with family)
- Watch Sports Like Soccer and Motorcross
- Singing non stop
- Watching Drama series or Movies or Concerts
- Going out with my lovely friends
- Going to school. (Just the walking to school part)
- Disturbing lil kinds who wanna act transnational
staggerism with all my minah staggered and the mak neneks.

3) 5 things I love doing when I'm EMO.
- Cry non stop ? lol
- Listen to ALL my favourite songs
- Watch Fahrenheit DVDS
- Rummaging my cupboard just to ge distracted by smth
- Calll someone to talk

4) 5 things I love doing when I'm happy.
- Karaoke alll the best-best songs
- Dance alone in my room
- Eat all the nice-nice foood.
- Daydream about Wuzun ahahah
- Think more about my life

5) 5 things I wish to happen
- My targeted O level results & that of my friends's.
- GO TO FAHRENHEIT CONCERT PLEASEEEE OMG!
- Be a singer and an actress
- Drive a Fairlady & ride a DRZ (eww pretty impossible eh?)
- Something hot between me and wuzun! ahahahahha!

6) 5 types of a person of another gender I adore

- Someone who plays soccer :) Oh maybe loves to watch it at least.
- Damn gentleman.
- Someone who can sing. or play an instrument or at least love
music ? ahahaks yeah.
- Someone who is not judgemental and someone who is honest
no matter what.
- Someone who is soooo damn effing sexy in my eyes even though
EJ says he is not handsome ahahahaha.

7) My 5 most addicted playlist

- DBSK
- Big Bang
- Jam Hsiao
- Jay Chou
- Random ; Fahrenheit/SHE/Yoga Lin/Ungu/ST 12/Siti Nurhaliza/Hindi
songs ahahha

8) 5 Person I wish to tag.
· Guanwei
. Jing Yi
. JacJac
. Kelvin
. Kaiyun

I had a weird dream again about this guy calling my cell.
And in my dream I went to pick it up and then we talk&laugh like mad.
And later, i was awaken by my cell phone ringing. for real. I was kindda
freaked out coz i thought 'Wasn't I on the phone just now? how come
its ringing.' I straight away rejected the call. Only
to realize later that its actually not from the guy but from
Inna. Poor her i rejected her call.

dreams can be really weird luh.

Anw today i had an achievement i slept at 4.30 yetd
but II managed to wake up at 10 plus. But i was still
on my bed luh. And yeah ironically, i woke up at 10 plus
thanks to the stupid dream and phone call.

Aitesss. See you guys.
I really miss school.

Before I go, I want everyone to watch this.
Hahaha yeah I want!

This is whyyyyy the earth's experiencing Global Warming.

They are so fucking hot to resist can. Esp JJ cannnn.
Zomgggggg.

LOL,SHERA.

arghhh

2008-12-05T21:24:00.002+08:00

damn it! i feel like an idiot these few days.
i felt really guilty and very ungrateful.
See thats the problem when i start to give
my opinions on stuffs, I always have a particular
tone which made the other party - the one whom
Im talking to - to think like 'Omg Shera's in a
really bad state or something'. But heck, I dont
mean to exxagerate but sometimes I do but i swear
Its unintentional.

I need to talk about this kind of things to someone
- someone who can convince me with his/her words that
things arn't that bad.

But everyone's busy luh right ? With work family
friends boyfriends gay partners and blablabla.

Felt so long since I last had a heart-to-heart talk.
With a human being that is. A human being who is not me luh.

Haishhhhh. I hate this kindda situation. Where I said
something and then realized that 'Hey how could I say
somthing like that when the real situation is like
the opposite ?' I know its almost like lying, but at
that pt when i was saying it, i wasnt lying, i was saying
my feelings my thoughts.

arghhhhh. so far has anyone of you catch any balls ?
if you do, can you like call or sms me.

hmmmphhhhh. my eyes are tired luh of crying. :(

Make me happy, someone.
Please.

good day

2008-12-04T14:33:00.002+08:00

Thanks to Nuffnang again. A great movie indeed.
right right ?

Afie's bday dinner was good.
Jammed a few songs tgt.

Happy 22nd bday to Afie.

Im very angry now.

But Im very blessed.

:):):):) lol.

Im listening to DBSK latest album now.
Mirotic. is. so. sexy :)

LOL,Shera.

moviesss!

2008-12-02T20:23:00.002+08:00

I received a call from Nuffnang a few hrs back.
AHAHAHHA! Im soooo happppy :)

Anw I thought of surprising Afie at midnight.
But scared he won't come back here today. lols.
just imagine we planned everything with decorations and shits,
and then he didnt come back here. wahhh heart pain menn.

Im a bigbang freak luhhhh. been listening to their
songs the whole afternoon seh. pffft. lol. like
im that bored. or retarded rather.

anw the 5.30 pm chinese drama is getting sadder by day.
I pity youwei so much. and i dont know why yoyo loves
to interefere with every sutdents problem. like
she even has to be in the room where yw's parents
are talking to him like whatthehell only but she's still
cute luh despite always abandoning ma zi kang ahahahahas.

anywayy im a reallly happy person now now nowww!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

i feel so blessed luh.

blabbering with YC on the phone now.
he's like some pro business guy now.

anyway just now my cousin called and asked for my full hse add.
and i hv not a single idea whats up luh.
sekali he want to bomb my flat ahahahas.

all right im going to hv dinner.
which is damn yummy btw ahahas.

seee ya :)
muackz.

<3,shera.

cant sleep.

2008-12-02T03:03:00.002+08:00

though i didnt wake up that late just now.
i still cant sleep. i mean yeah i did yawn and stuff.
but im just not tired i guess.

Im addicted to two band/singer now.

1)Big Bang - Haru Haru acoustic version. (okay no surprise)

2)JAM HSIAO JING TENG! (i can't believe it either)

I didnt really like Jam ever since the start but I guess
that's because I thought he was like acting cool. ahaha.
yeah lame right ? but yeah whatever but then i dont know
why is his playlist featured on my imeem profile or maybe
everyone's imeem profile for that matter, but it auto played
anyway, so i listened to his songs since Im pretty much
sick of repeating Haru Haru for 73 times ahaha yes, so i
listened to Hsiao's songs and i dont why the hell but
i like them esp the rock hit called erm, wait let me check,
Wang Zi De Xin Yi yeah i know its not anything latest or new
and yeah im aware that this was released quite some time ago,
or to his fans thats like his 'Old' song or whatever luh,
coz Im In Love with it.

BUT i still dont like Jam. ahahahas.
Okay no laaa. I loveee him esp Now he keeps
changing hairstyle, he looks cute.

but yoga lin is cuter. (RANDOM)

BUT BUT

WUZUN IS THE CUTEST!

ahahahahah!

anyway its 3:11 am now and i wna go watch DVD or something.

see ya guys tmr. might be gg out.
<3 you guys.

muackz.

loads of love,
shera.

HEY *,IMY!

borrrrrred

2008-12-01T13:30:00.004+08:00

'So annoying how some people make empty promises.'

Monday. Mom's only off day. And we're not gg
back to JB. Yay :)

I couldn't sleep all the way till 4 plus.
I thought about a lot of things. And recently
I had even weirder dreams. I thought i shouldn't talk
about it since I dont want it anymore but heck its
bothering me anyway.

Afie's bday is in two days time. and its pretty obvious
i still dont have anything yet. last min shopping tmr
or smth i guess. but the prob is ej and i had no idea
what to buy for him. i guess we'll surprise him at
MOMC on the bday day or smth.

okay ill sing like his favourite song or something.

Im pretty much bored. And its already december which
means we're getting nearer to release of results.
which im really scared of.

what if ? ...

Im looking forward to wednesday and thursday. :)

wed's afie's bday and thursday's ROYals class outing.
damnn excited. been sucha long time i went to chalets
and beaches and have ultimate fun.

omg cant wait. ahahaks.

im quite hungry so i better get some food. its lunch time
anyway.

i will leave you guys with this song.

ST 12 - PU.S.PA (PUtuskan Saja PAcarmu - Breakup w/ ur boyfriend)

nice melody. ST 12 is a pretty new band from Indonesia.
as usual.

Mom just reminded me of something.
Hari Raya Haji is next week. but then she said we're
all going back to JB!

haishhhhhh :O(

see ya. muackz.

Btw,I think, Im falling in love.
Pfffft. Not again. :(

loads of love,shera.

heee

2008-11-30T13:51:00.004+08:00

One of Korea's Hottest Hunk.

None other than TOP from Big Bang. :)
Funny how looking at TOP reminds me of someone.
& Vice Versa atually. Maybe the Jawline and Eyeshape.

AHHHHH! so damn hot can.

Latest Updates for DBSK : Release of 4th Korean Album Mirotic.
Mirotic ? MIRO = Maze in Korea And Tic is just added at the back
as a suffix like fanaTIC, fantasTIC and etc..

and guess who came out with that word ?
HERO JAEJOONG! :)

Yesterday at 4.30am i felt a sharp sting on my right arm.
I thought it was a sharp plastic piece or something so
i just brush it away quickly w my fingers. but when i on the light
its actualy a effing black big ant as long as my pinky finger
and its very fat. I took like 500 tissues and then took the thing
and threw it out of th window. at that time i wanted to
cry coz i thought its gonna be a fatal sting or smth. so
i quickly google that lil fucker on the net and a lot sites
didnt say anything much. Someone on Yahoo Ans said u will itch
but it wont swell and it will be all right. But i realized that
my underarm has a lot of small spots some of which slowly
became big. damn scary uh. i almosst cried. but i forced myself
to sleep to avoid undesirable thoughts. the bite is damn micro
but its still red. and only the bigger spots remain. i hope
ill be fine. :) ahahas.

I heard the terrorist attack in Mumbai has finally stopped.
I feel like killing each and everyone of them. Well they killed
like so many people and an innocent lawyer from Singapore.
And the lawyer quite chio. ahahahas.

Both Channel 8 and 8 tv yeah both are playing the shine it on
drama. aahas can watch both.

so many random people have been coming here to our house
to see whether they wanna buy or rent it or whatever.
dad sais he has this brill plan about renting/selling our
woodlands flat and live in JB and then after a yr we'll
come back to Sp but we'll live in LP. :)

but i aint believing him yet. always change plans.

Big Bang's Latest Update release of 3RD Album ; Remember.
Which has the omggggg version of Haru haru which is actually
the acoustic version luh.

more updates later. i think. for now. bye.

loads of love,shera.

bored.

2008-11-29T09:15:00.002+08:00

Two days ago I had a dream. A dream. not The Dream.
And just like yetd's dream, it was about a very desirable
person. But in a very undesirable way. I guess dreams have
One meaning for me ; Things that I Dont wish they will come true.

I guess it applies to all dreams.

Anw I have this loooong list of facebook invitations to various
applications. and ive never accepted them yet. sorry to those
who kept sending those invitations. im lazyyy lol.

its been a damn long time since I do quizzes. And I found
one my dearest Noor's blog. to kill time.

1. First off, what's your name?
* Shahirah Samsudin

2. Okay, but what does your best friend call you?
* Hmm Shera ? Shahirah ?

3. Have you ever kissed someone with braces?
* Nope. Must not be that nice right ? ahahaha

4. Who is the fourth received call on your call log?
* Hmmm YC's home number.

5. If you could change your eye color what would it be?
* Brownish ? Hazel-ish ? hahaha

6. What is the wallpaper on your phone?
* Wuzun <3

7. How many pillows on your bed?
* 2

8. Who was the last text message you sent to?
* YC

9. Is there someone you can't stop thinking about?
* Hahaha yeahhh but i do stop sometimes.

10. What was the best thing that happened to you last year?
* Last yr ? A lot i guess.

11. Do any of your friends annoy you?
* to an extent only luh.

12. Who's the fourth person on your contacts list?
* Either Bashir Khan or Cheng Ling Jie.

13. When was the last time you cried from laughing so hard?
* 2/3 yrs ago.

14. What school did you attend in elementary?
* WRPS/GWPS

15. Do you have a crush on somebody?
* maybe.

16. Who was the last person that made you laugh?
* Erm the guy who played Superman in the 5.30 chinese drama.

17. Do you like Quiznos?
* quiznos ? no i guess.

18. Who do you make fun of the most?
* erm random people that I observe and think that they've got
issues in school.

19. What's the longest time you've ever talked on the phone?
* arnd 2 hrs plus i guess.

20. Do you think you've gotten prettier since grade school?
* Noooooo i was so pretty back then AHAHAHHA!

21. Have you seen your best friend cry?
* Yeah.

22. Where did you last go out to eat?
* New Tesco in JB.

23. Do you dance in the car?
* not rly.

24. What do you think of hunting and fishing?
* fishing is fine. but hunting is like ... ill end up being
hunted ? ahah.

25. Do you and your best friend act alike?
* No i guess.

26. What is a noise that you cannot stand?
* the bus noise esp when im watching some lame drama. and
the construction workers upgrading something which dosent
need upgrading.

27. Does your mom vacuum early in the morning, when you're sleeping?
* Used to.

28. Are your parents in love?
* Yeahhh. w/ each other.

29. At what age did you get your mp3 player or ipod?
* erm idk i think its 14.

30. Where did you get your last bruise from?
* IDK. some thing knocked onto my knee cap.

31. Would you rather sleep at a friend's or have them over?
* id rather hv them over.

32. Who is in your house right now?
* idk. mom n ej i think.

33. Have you ever thought you were gonna die?
* A lot of times.

34. How do you like your steak?
* Id lovee more of the saucey thang.

35. What do you smell like right now?
* the hse ?

36. Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong?
* Nope. If Im really in the wrong.

37. Who was the last person you held hands with?
* Ejal.

38. What shoes did you wear today?
* Have not worn any today.

39. What makes you lose your appetite?
* extremeee sadness.

40. What color is your laundry basket?
* Green.

41. Does your mom make you wear a winter coat?
* Ahaha No.

42. Does it contain fur?
* -NA-

43. Do you own any Hollister polos?
* No.

44. Do you think those stores are too expensive?
* OKayyy.

45. Where do you shop the most for clothes?
*omg idk men! ahahaks some muslimah boutique in arab street i think.

46. Ever clothes shop at a thrift store?
* yeahhh but not very often.

47. Why do you do surveys?
* Been a long time n kindda bored.

48. Can you go on Blogspot from school or work?
* yeahh.

49. Do your parents have a Blogger account?
* Maybe Dad has it.

50. Have your parents seen your Blogger page?
* I showed Mom before.

ahahahaks so funny doing surveys like that.
anwww im behind time for the music updates
especially for DBSK & Big Bang & Jay Chou.
lol.

Fahrenheit's fine. wahahahahas.
Someone finished the dutch lady milk yetd.
Means I cant eat Koko crunch unless i buy milk.
ill have toast again.

and i want mageeeeee please.

Saturday morning cartoons are not as fun as weekdays's.
oh and Im in louhveeeee with Naruto. the song esp.

Afie's bdae is drawing damn nearrrrrr.
Maybe ill give his prsent like 6mnths plus later.
Like what he did to me.

You guys know the show called smth like
my gym's classmate is a monkey or smth ?
its dmn cute. i like it a lot.

ahahahahas.

i woke up damn early today. :)

Bye Guys.
Shera.

Nick&Norah

2008-11-27T12:55:00.003+08:00

Time To Express Some Love! Lets get Dovey.!

I know today isn't Mothers' Day or anything.
But I guess I don't need one special day to
express love for the women I love most in
the enitre universe. (Even if theres other women who
wants to sponsor me front row tix for Fahrenheit's concert)

So anyway speaking of expressing love, usually words
does all the job isn't it ? well, add some melodies,
yeah, that makes music then.

I supposed Love is as Universal as Music yeah ?
Here goes. Love expressed through Music in 3 Diff
languages dedicated to Dear Mother (yeah thats what I call her).

1)Bunda(Mother) - Melly Goeslaw (Malay/Indonesian)
2)Ting Mama De Hua (Listen to Mother's Words) - Jay Chou (Chinese)
3)Mama - Spice Girls (English)

(Playlist Might Take Some Time To Load)

Dear Mother

Okay fine, you must be wondering like What's Up ?
All you have to do is Click Here.
http://nicknorah.com.sg
Don't Forget, Movie opening 11th Dec!

Have you guys expressed your love for the love ones yet ?
Do so, before its too late. :)

Loads Of Love,Shera.

same thang

2008-11-27T10:00:00.004+08:00

Kethlyn is damn right. The more you dont want something
the more you'll get it. And Yes I did. Though I cant
remember what yetd night's version was like coz its like
so messy.

but other than that stupid messy dream. ive got another
super vivid dream. and that is. our o levels results.
its been pushed forward from january to yetd or smth.
i got a b3 for english. and flunked both my maths with f9.
omg damn crazy luhhhh. i woke up and i was like 'no no
next year then get results'.

eeeee. dreams are so horrible. so vivid. so real.
so annoying. it makes you so confuse. esp since
you keep dreaming of the same person. i hate it.
Keth said there must be some connection,linking that
person involved. She said I should tire myself out.
Maybe i should go running or something.

But i wanna go out with Ejal. Peninsula maybe.

Im waiting for Detective Conan. :)

I want a gathering for alllllll of us. Please.

Anyway Happy 29th Birthday To Sigit Purnomo
Aka The Super Hawt Pasha Ungu. so old yet so hot eh.

Just like wuzun. lol.

till then.
love,shera.

'I miss you like hella loads'

yaww

2008-11-26T11:44:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow's the 27th. Pasha's bdae. But I dont think
it would be as fun as last yr due to the fact that
there is this sudden news about him divorcing his wife.
so sad.

Anw I slept at 3plus yetd and then woke up at 6 plus nearly 7
to pray. I was pleased coz I dont have any weird dreams yet.
but then i went to sleep again at 7 all they to 1035.(yeah i missed
5-10 minutes of Detective Conan)That was when i got another bad dream.
Of course it isent bad luh. But to me it is because it is of the
same person. arghhhhhhhh! im so frustrated. i mean yeah not that
i can blame anything that i keep dreaming of the same person.
but why ? erghhhhwwww.(ahahah cant imagine how that sounds like.)

on a brighter note Im gna meet Kethlyn later i think.
So Im Happy.

I dont think there any chance for me to go to Fahrenheit concert
if i dont wanna work. Omg I feel so sad. Should I cry ?
AHAHAHAS. Coz though i really wanna go but I know its 100%
not worth it luh coz evn though i loveeeeeee FLH like mad
i know they cant really sing. Except Aaron and maybe Jiro.
But that will mean I will miss Liu li yang and Aaron's
duet of TI Amo. Haishhhhhhhh howwwww ?

Yetd morn im supposed to watch Detective Conan its the last part
of this particular episode the one with the bad guys on the ship.
But I missed it coz i woke up late and Ej is hogging on the
playstation using the TV. Urghhhh. So i had to watch a whole
diff story today. And I think it has one part only.

Im currently watching this gossip sow on SCTV. And they are
gossiping about the divorce btw Pasha ans Okie. It says that
Okie made a very rush decision on wanting a divorce but
ironically they still make a very good couple on screen.
and Pasha is soo damn hot nowadays. He had a hairstyle similar
to His back when he just cut it.

Haish its so weird to see a celeb couple holding a press
conference talking about why they wanna divorce very calmly.

gaahhh.
im just killing time.

Afie's bdae is coming. idk what to get for him.
brrrr.

i guess i better do the laundry.
see ya.

lol,shera.

im back

2008-11-25T13:42:00.003+08:00

i just realized so many typo errors in the prev post.
but heck i aint goin back to correct it like i always used to.

im back from my idk how many days stay in malaysia,jb.
it was partially okay. but i just cant stand it when we eat in
some street side hawker centre and there are cat around. f.
its not as if i purposely force myself to be scared of them.
its phobia you hear me ? i cudent help it but make a scene.
and living in such a house means there are bound to be cats
squeezing through the small gates beside the main one.

how do i live in sucha place ?
but w/e luh.

anw my sleep this few days have been disturbed by a particular dream.
no wait not a particular dream. but dreamS about a particular person.
i used to dream about this person.in fact i even told
this person about that particular dream. which at that pt of time
was at an Okay level. I even made a joke out of it luh.

but then as time passes, i get more dreams about this person.
and its getting to a level where im really scared if it will ever
come true. i see this person as a diff person in my dream. but when
i wake up and reality sinks in, i realized that this person
isent like the person in my dream. but i hella know its him luh!
can see the face what. :( haish.

i cant possibly not sleep right?
haish. :(

but yetd's dream was about a diff person. but not in the way
that i wish it will come true either. if only they can exchange
the people.

feels like thers so many things that i wanna rant out but pfft.
i kindda forgot.

i really miss school. i kindda miss the fact that theres always
something to do every minute. missing the time is golden phase.

brrghs.

ohhhh and people. my dad asked me to organise some gathering for
my friends to eat dinner tgt or smth at mayuni omar's music cafe.
okay fine ill call n sms these people by end of this week.

but i dont have some of your numbers. nvm luh.
friend to friend to friend.

im youtubing big time now.
jay chou & flh & she.
dbsk & wg & bigbang.
ctnurhaliza & melly goeslaw & ungu.

ahahahahas.

jasonmraz and colbiecaillat lucky.

oh boy, i really miss you so.
what more can i do to practically erase you away ?
its ironic isn't it, how much i love you and how equally
much i wanna forget you. and effing move on with my
own pathetic life. I guess its not easy as how i promised.
but someday i believe i can do it. but i bet no one can
actually answer my questions. can they ? can you ?

anyone watch the chinese drama at 5.30pm on channel 8 ?
yeah with felicia chin and stuffs. ahahahah v funny right.
felicia's like way toooo cute.

i wannna go out with everyone.

*

Some meaningful lyrics translated to english.

Samsons - Tidak Bisa Memiliki (Cant afford to have/cant
or smthing like that)

Apakah yang engkau cari (Whats it is you're looking for)
Tak kau temukan di hatiku (That's not in me/my heart)
Apakah yang engkau inginkan (What is it that you want)
Tak dapat lagi ku penuhi (That I cant fulfill)
Begitulah aku (Thats simply me)
Pahamilah aku (Understand me)

[**]
Mungkin aku tidaklah sempurna (Maybe I am not that perfect)
Tetapi hatiku memilikimu sepanjang umurku (But my heart has you in
forever and ever)
Mungkin aku tak bisa memiliki (Maybe I cant have ..)
Dirimu seumur hidupku(You for the rest of my life.).

Awwwwww. :(

*
Anw i found this as i was doing research ahahas.

From www.dreammoods.com

Why do you think that we have dreams?

This is still an unresolved topic amongst researchers
as to the reason we have dreams. One theory suggests
that dreams serve as a means for cleansing and release.
During the day, we may hold back our feelings and repress
our anger. Thus dreams serve as a safe outlet for us to
release our negative emotions. Another theory says that
dreams is a biologically necessary aspect of sleep. Research
has shown that people who were prevented from entering the dream
state and woken up before they can dream were more easily irritated,
jittery, and performed far below average. I believe these are two
theories summarize why we dream.

Do dreams have any significance?

Yes dreams have a significance. The images in our dreams always
contain hidden meaning which goes far beyond the outer appearance.
The language of dreams is symbolic and are not to be taken literally.
The significance of dreams is personal and dependent on your own personal experiences. However, there are many universal symbols.

ahaha funny or what ? i wasnt even releasing any negative emotions.
blueksss.
*

Im not really in a good mood luh coz theres like
so many things that i miss due to the fact that
i dont hv internet at home at all for the past 1 mnth.
arghhhhhhhh. yeah lame things like new songs from
jay chou dbsk and big bang. and i have no idea what the
titles are even. ahahahhas.

*

oh btw i keep making trips to the library. and
ive read he whole level 4 of the library of smthing luh.
shahahas. no luh. but im that bored you noe. Ej calls me
a nerd and i mis afie aahahahas. i wanted to go melacca tday.
but cancelled. next week maybe. and i wna go kl nx nx wk maybe.

and i didnt know the opening of new Tebrau Tesco on Sunday
could draw such a big big enormous crowd. the road was jam
from the entrance of Tesco&Jusco carpark all the way to the
road leading to the hospital something ismail which then
leans tO my house in Austin. And when i entered Tesco that
particular opening day I see loooottt of people but they
are doing nothing but walk in baby steps to go 'oooohh' and
'aahhh' at all the shops. and they are both sporeans n malaysians.
and the food court is soo full we had to go back to our normal
eating place. haishhhhh. the kiasuness in human beings.

ahahaha so now i have both Tesco and Jusco by my side.
If we really shift there. and plus the coffee shop where
we always watch soccer has wifi spot. woahmygodness.
coffeshop sehhhhh. anw aston villa and man u draw. waahhaas.
quack! we watch it at the coffeeshop in which it ended at arnd 4am
but it felt like 10 pm at the shop. oh btw majority of malaysians
are man u fans issit ? damn irritating luh.

loads of loveeeee,
shera. muackzzz.

eff

2008-11-19T13:46:00.002+08:00

hey guys im in a bit of a rush nowadays.
im so sorry to those who wants me to relink
or link them. i can really do it right now.
coz thees freaking no time.

and i wonder why must life after the o levels.
be so hellish. like eff. id rather be like back then
]or the stress and stuff but without all thse shits.

thanks a lot f&m.

amanda timah kiirah ill do it asap.
when im free enuf kay.

*
btw i miss every single one alr.

yooo!

2008-11-14T15:36:00.004+08:00

Hey Guys! Haha omg it feels so weird to be blogging.
Ive not been doing so for the past hmmm 1 mnth ? or so luh.
Omg i miss everything. Yes every single thing thats available
via the web. yeah the likes of blogging friendster facebook
myspace tagged and my rubbish-infested 400 plus email inbox.

O levels has finally ended and yeah this whole huge effing
burden is definitely off my shoulders. and yeah thats it
no more going back to school. kindda funny saying that
when i actually really miss school you know the friends
and stuffs. but right now im damn bored. its so funny living
a life of whatevers. a life where u dont rly have anything
to do. even if there is it dosent matter matter if you
do it o not, nothing will so adversely and directly affected.

graduation on 1010 was very memorable and emotional indeed.
I cried quite a lot luh. coz im gonna miss the class and im gna
miss eveyone in school yeah including the daily blood suckers.
i took quite a lot of pictures with as many people as possible
just for memories. its ironic coz some of these photos
dissappear before i even get to upload them here and stuff.
but nonetheless here i am painstakingly uploading 1 by 1
of the pictures ahahas.

i received a lot of gifts from a lot of people but i havent take
photos of them yet. but anw thanks a lot to everyone. and for those
who are wondering im still in singapore and has not yet shifted
to jb. ahahahas. and guess what ? high chance we wont have to do so.
omgggggg. lucky me lucky me lucky everybody!

ahahahas. so the photos. here goes. i look ugly in most pics.
coz of the hair luhhh. stupid hair. plus the face n everything luh.

with yvonne.

with wan li.

with colin.

with catherine.

with the crazy bunch.
edmund,hong chiong,yao quan,jie choong,shie jie,
jun rong and ming hong.

with the school darling, dearest ms lim hui qi.

ahaha this is funny coz chai wai's on the bicycle.

with hui shin.

with joyse sup.

with kian tee.

with yu chang.

with zi chang and you jia. ahaha very funny luh.

with jiun jye.

with alvin and xu bin.

with syakirah and nadiah.

with jian huang. haha i think he dont wanna take picture with me luh.
so sad right ahaha.

with jun xiang.

with kuan hoe.

with bdae boy then, kelvin poh keng yee. tan jia beng.

with ling jie.

with jun jie.

with koh shi yi.

with beverly and hwee kee.

with gek chong.

tgt with jac.

mydarling lee zhao lian jacquelin !

with ya ling.

with jody.

with eileen.

with serene.

with jasmine.

with cui ying.

with hilary.

with man ting.

mr roy and guan wei.

mr roy and i.

with hong yi.

with gen liang.

with guan wei.

4-2.

prize winners.

with my longest friend amanda ng.

JACk & Shera.

Jasmine Yaling Jody Jing Yi Jac.

Kelvin.

the cake.

yaoquan shikin and i.

OMG FINALLY EVERYTHING IS UPLOADED!

i gtg. i wanna eat smth.
and i wanna go kl pleaseeee.

i dont wannna work. im soo damn lazy luhhhh.

LOVEEEEE YOU ALL.

LOL,SHERA.

"Mendungnya langit bila berkata,
Kita patutnya masih bercinta."

moneyyy

2008-09-13T20:28:00.001+08:00

OH MY GOD!

Anyone with a great good big heart can lend me S$1713 ?
Please.

wahlaoooo

2008-09-10T14:43:00.004+08:00

Dont worrry. Im just hogging on this gadget for
like 15 minutes only.

WAHLAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I wannna screamm as loud as possible.
Damn it. I didnt have the time for the
last qns which is like 11 pts. spelt as
ELEVEN okayyyyyy! wahlaooo.! Plus
the cubic equation the one with the
unknown value P. I couldnt finish up
the last part - must be some miscalcu-
lations somewhere. and that 4 pts.
THEN the qns right after that I TOTALLY
EFFFING LEFT IT OUT BECAUSE IM BLIND.
I DIDNT SEE THAT THERES A QNS 6B. I
STRAIGHT AWAY WENT TO QNS 7. and that
qns is like 3/4 marks. Oh and for
the second last qns i didnt write
the coordinate of M BECAUSE i
did it like at 1.28pm - 2 mins
away from the stoppage time.

TOTAL MARKS LOST - 11 + 4 + 4 + 1 = 20.
NINETEEEEEEN SIA!

in order to get A1 i effffin have to
get at least 60/80. only 20 marks away.
and i already lost like 19. HELLLLLLLO!
As if my other qns are allllll perfectly
correct - imposssible righttt! wahlaooo.

MY A1 IS EFFFFFFINGLY GONE LUH! nb!

to get an A2 I must get at least 56.
which is like 24 marks away. considering
i lost 20 already AND i dont have the
slightest confidence that the rest of my
ans are right.

AND P/S OTHER THAN THE 20-CONFIRM-MARKS
THAT I LOST, I THINK FOR THAT SECOND LAST QNS
THERE ARE SOME PARTS WHICH I DIDNT FULLY ANS.

SEEEEEEEE ? HOW TO GET DISTINCTION. WAHLAOO KNSSSS!
english like eff alr! humanities double eff!
triple science triple efff! so could maths
be as efffing as the rest ?

Malay is my darling.
now and forever loh!
11/11/11 is love <3.
AHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAH!

its more than 15 mins alr lah. im gonna pray
and then sleep and then study phy. and then
study amaths. and then sleep again. and then
wake up and then go to school again see the
same people again go to the same room again
sit at the same place again the do paper again
the go out of exam room again scold many many
vulgarities again curse the exam paper setter
again again and again. then og back home
and SLEEEEEP again.

wahlaoo. so boring. anddd i wonder if living in
JB will make a diff. hmmm maybe for a while,
first 2 weeks maybe. Ill try to explore how
to go home myself. But I need bodyguards luh
im quite confirmed ill get lost.

ehhhhhh i got lost in KL once okayyyy.
my face ; wanna cry but still act tough kind
of expression.

but i almost hugged my parents when i saw them.
but i pretended luh i just went 'oh hi i was
very engrossed in all the stuffs in that shop.'

ahahahahahas.

All right then till here. Bye :).

<3,shera

'Hey J, I guess, I still 'Love You So'.'

waauuu

2008-09-07T21:36:00.003+08:00

zomg. i take back my words from the post a few days back.

i realized im very much obsessed over him.
and godd, i missss him a lot a lot a lot!

anyway tmr's bio and emaths.
i better score in both coz
they are my saviour. please.

phy & chem are gone case.
combined humans are 50;50.
ive got nth left excepts a&e matns
el,mt and bio.

so i must score. i betterrrrrr.

i love todayyyy.
break fast - steak made by mom.
everyone's at hm. very happy.

gna do maths n last min reading on bio.
before i iron the unis & sleep.
muahss.

loveyouall.
<3,shera.

THERE'S F1 TODAY. so catch the live race
OR live timing :)

sth

2008-09-06T23:13:00.002+08:00

for today.

1. What's so good about the person you like?
♥ I have no idea actually. Weird but true.
2. So where's your dad?
♥ watching tv.
3. Do you drive yet?
♥ not yet. but soon okay.
4. How do you feel about racism?
♥ its bad. it shld stop.
5. Who's the sexiest person alive?
♥ Either Wuzun TOP HeroJJ or LeeRyan.
6. Who was the last person you talked to on MSN or AIM?
♥ Kang Chuen.
7. Name a song that reminds you of old memories?
♥ So Confused 2 Play.
8. Do you like the color gray?
♥ Fine.
9. Is there someone you really can't stop thinking about?
♥ Actually yeah. but heck.
10. Look outside, how's the weather outside?
♥ cold coz it just rained.
11. Are you jealous of anyone right now?
♥ yeah those who are studying.
12. Did you ever think someone didn't like you,
but came find out they really did once it was too late?
♥ naw.
13. Last time you didn't tell the truth?
♥ yetd.
14. Name something great that happened today.
♥ Afie's at hm to break fast tgt.
15. Do you regret doing something today?
♥ slacking ?
16. When you think of the rainbow, what pops in your head?
♥ prism of colours.
17. Do you believe in aliens?
♥ idk actually.
18. Where would you like to be?
♥ Taiwan/Korea.
19. What is the worst thing your parents could do to you?
♥ force me to do smth wrong so that they can get smth beneficial
out of it ?
20. Have you been happy recently?
♥ yeah pretty. but not really.
21. Do you like receiving balloons on your birthday?
♥ awww so cute. i prefer hugs. & kisses.
22. Math, English, Science, or Social Studies?
♥ Maths please. The rest sucked big time of my alr sucky life.
23. What are you currently listening to?
♥ Big Bang - Haru Haru and some cars driving by.
24. Do you have Limewire?
♥ noooo. virus.
25. Is lying ever acceptable?
♥ depends.
26. What was the last movie you watched?
♥ Army Daze. lol.
27. Name someone who has turned your life around at some point of time.
♥ Well, its a grp of ppl and its in a negative way. so yeahhhh.
28. How's your heart lately?
♥ pumping. though the arteries and veins are complaining that they
are tired. then fasting some more!! ahahaha.
29. The person you dislike gets killed by a train, how do you react?
♥ Ill feel sad actually coz idk, even though she's bad to me she might
not be to the rest and there's always smth positive in someone right ?
30. Who is always on your mind no matter what?
♥ i hv no idea why but its him.
31. Was today a good day?
♥ not really
32. Name a class that you really dislike?
♥ none actually.
33. Who's number one on your top?
♥ number one on my top ? err idk ?
34. Do you collect anything?
♥ money ahaha
35. Who's the biggest gossiper you know?
♥ Kethlyn ahahahs.
36. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
♥ A cop ? Lol, Loooong time ago. Cant rmbr why tho.
37. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
♥ err ice cream soda eh ? yeah most of the time. lol.
38. What does your last text message say?
♥ none. no hp mah.
39. Do you like hot sauce?
♥ depends uh.
40. Last time you took a shower?
♥ a few hrs back.
41. Do you need to do laundry?
♥ oh shittt! yeahhh i do!
42. What is your heritage?
♥ Ambonese + Pakistani.
43. Are you someone's best friend?
♥ idk.
44. Are you rich?
♥ noo.
45. What were you doing at 11+ last night?
♥ which is right now, memorise bio notes loh.

omgg

2008-09-05T21:28:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOD!

I feel so stressed up luh!
I dont care about prelims already!
I dont care! I dont care at alll!

Omg. Everyone's studying.
Everyone you know! MSN empty.
Blogs not updated! Friendster-
last log in - 3 weeks ago!

WAHLAOOOO!

For me.

More than half the day online.
Another half appear offline.
Blog - more than 1 update per day.
Friendster - every 3 minute go check!
(ahahaha kay that's a lie!)

omgggggggggg.

study shera study please.

happyyy!

2008-09-05T15:57:00.002+08:00

I have one veryyyyy goood news.
I think, I think, I've really gotten over him!
Yes I think so!

Hopefully when school reopens
I won't be back to my pathetic self.

Hopefully. Omgggg Im so happy now.
aahahaha! I know it sounds damn weird.
But well, whatever.

I have another thing to say.
Mom and Dad wants to officially shift to JB.
November!

OMG OMG OMG!

Its BOTH positive and negative.

Negative first.

1)im scared i cant adapt to the surroundings there.
the environment there is damn relax. nothing there
can ever motivate you to study.
2)i cannot travel alone! damnnnn! im scared to travel
alone in Msia.
3)After Os i wanna go out often to meet my friends
and stuffs. So how the hell am i supposed to get
out of JB when I dont even dare to ?
4)I cannot wake up at 7am anymore for school. I have to wake
up at 5am. :((((((
5)I know there are no hot guys around my Woodlands neighbourhood
either but there's practically no one who's good-looking
or anything near that around my neighbourhood in JB.
6)The playground is sooo far away. AHAHAHA! But really, its
ALMOST like from my house to coffee shop opposite school.
7)The condominium is veryyy far. which means the swimming pool
and gym and whatever other facil. is veryyy far too.
8)Both houses beside mine are usually empty. Boringggg.
9)No friends there. I cant imagine myself talking to JB Guys
and Girls. No I don't mean any offence but it would be weird luh.
But i really hope i can get one or two super duper BFF from
my area! AHAHAHA! BFF ehhh ?
10)I dont wanna be mean so I shall stop here luh. Oh yarh one last thing,
LIFE WOULD JUST BE SOO DAMN DIFFERENT THERE LUH!

For eg, in SG, I can just walk to Adm or take bus to
wherever to eat, watch movies, shopping, and A LOT more
just by myself or with friends. But in JB i cant do all that.
And even if I did its all with my family members which btw
I cherish damn lots. In other words, family bonding will be
damn superb but bonding btw my girl and guy friends in SG ?
:((((

I KNOW IM TALKING LIKE AS IF IM SHIFTING TO AUSTRALIA OR UK OR
SOMETHING. ahahahahha!

JB & SG (esp woodlands) are like side by side, I know that!
But stilll different right!

Anyway here comes the benefits and etc.

1)We're gonna have Astro. Which means unlimited Malay
Dramas and Movies and Music Shows like concerts and stuffs.
Unlimited Chinese dramas and Music shows too. & Most importantly,
unlimited Korean Dramas and im-not-very-sure-if-there-is-but-whatever,
Music Shows too! And and also theres Disney Channel And Im
damn shy to say but theres PLAYHOUSE DISNEY LOH! ahahaha!

2)We're gonna use MyStreamyx. I dont know its some internet thang
there. So yes, Internet will still be available. And WHAT'S MORE,
Dad says he dosent want me to use computer anymore, so he's getting
me a LAPTOP! Wohoooo. I want RED VAIO pleasee. aahahah!

3)Hmmmm i need to think of more luhhh. Hmm what bout this ; Im
gonna live in a biggger house! With our own car porch and
own garden and whatever nots. (i dont sound excited do i?)

4)im gonna meet moree new people and make new friends who are,
I guess, Malaysians and we can talk about hmmm I dont know,
Danial Lee ? AHAHAHA! Or maybe F1 ? Nvm we can simply talk
about growing plants in our backyards. (siannn)

5)There's a swing at the playground. Yes the playground HERE
dosent have any swing. And i love swings coz it gives me
inspiration.

6)I can jog along the longgg roads that lead to the even
bigger bungalows at the back. From there i shall spot
those really rich families and try to see if they've got
cute sons. HAHAHA. Yeah i mean, cute 5 year old sons.

7)Im gonna get 5 times more pocket money than what I have now.
Though I won;t spend it or any food in school. Its most likely
the food outside school. ahahas.

8)I can organise my birthday party there. And it would be damn cool
coz the house's big and theres a lot of space. and people can
even sit outside my house at the road there coz there are no
cars at all. BUT no one will come coz its in JB. damnnnit.

9)Hari Raya will I guess, be more fun coz you'll feel like
those kampung2 stuffs that they show in tv.

10) Dad will send me to school everyday. which is cool coz
i dont have to walk anymore.

11)AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THING OF ALL, DAD PROMISED ME YETD
THAT ONCE WE SHIFT TO JB, HE'S GONNA CHANGE TO A NISSAN CEFIRO!

OMGOMGOMGOMG-ness.

I cant find any super chio pictures of it.
So for those who dont know how it looks like
dont bother google-ing it coz all the pictures online
are ugly. Go to your multi storey carpark and look for it.!

Nissan Cefiro isent my personal favourite car.
But its my favourite one for Dad. I would love
to see Dad driving a BMW. But that'll be when
Im damn rich luh.

So for now Cefiro yeahhh :)

mannnnn, do we really have to shift ?
ill be far away from my friends.

they GOTTA HAVE SOME DISHY GUY THERE!
i dont care! ahahaha!

I guess in future we might even buy a house in KL.
I told JJ just now, its no surprise if one day
im asked to migrate to KL. Hua3.

Anyway time is running out.
I havent finish studying.
See you guys around okay.

LOVE ALL OF YOU.
muahhhs.

<3,shera.

"And after a long time, I realized."

HAHAHAHA SKALI IM NOT REALLY OVER HIM YET UH ?
action only! ahahahaha

jaychou

2008-09-03T15:10:00.002+08:00

i did revise. but im still sick.
and im still at the first book
for bio. and i plan to finish revising
for bio today. i gotta start on the
rest of the subjects if not ill die.
ill have to at least pass all my sciences.
at least.

for chem - i rly rly wanna pass luh.
coz if i dont, then it would be so damn ps
coz whole class will blame it on me. :(

for phy - i want a pass please.

*

anyway to destress i, as usual went youtubing
and catch some live performances and fell in
love with this one. as it was a different rendition
from the studio version and simply because i love
jay chou. catch the rap parts. coooool!

One band that i cannot fail to watch live is the
quartet who has made names wayy before we even know
music. Their studio version are usually energetic
for whatever songs that is. and i can almost swear
that their live performance are like 5 times better.

They are none other than Muse. Matt Bellamy is
damn hot now! ahahaha! Anyway here's one of their
newer songs, New Born. Simply Superb.

breathe-taking ? duh!
It was damnnnnn splendid okay. The last part esp.
Omgggggg. can anything be greater than that ?

Ive loved a lot of bands through my entire life.
The Kental-Kental Ones that I still love right up
till now like Westlife & Blue. Those that I listen
to once in a while like BSB A1 Take That Five and etc.

Vocal Boybands, that is.

Then you've got bands like Sum 41, MCR, Green Day
and Of course i dont know why but its my favourite,
Simple Plan.

But Ive never seen anything like or near Muse.
Damn, they are just too damn good.

I wont be surprised if their concert tix in SG
are like hundreds n hundreds of dollars for just
normal seating.

I watched their Wembley concert long ago and was really
damn impressed by how they made the crowd so into
their performances. Hard to rly explain, just check
this out.

Chorus & everyboydy's jumping.
PS; he loooks damn hotttt eh.

Lastly another one of my favourites.

Tremendous intro eh. Funny how he look
so damn laid back. ahhhh. such love! ahaha!

till here. browse for more
Muse Live Vids okay. Yeahhhhhhh whatever shera!

till here.
<3,shera.

csgozimiWYEssgdsssfsyoulidfhkehherelewlouhJgjwm!

sick

2008-09-03T01:51:00.002+08:00

Im down with with a heavy running nose and fever.
Im damnnnnnn sick okayyyy. And i hate it. I need
to study. I need the mood I need the energy. &
Im weakkkk right now.

I didnt do Terawih Prayers just now. Slept.
I still have a lot to go for bio. and what
more physics and chem. efffffffff.

i hate schoool men. i hate exams.
so stressed up right now. no surprise
i know. for someone who dosent study
and thinks she's got all the time in
the world.

i am sooo not going to a JC. sooo NOT!
I might wanna go to poly. might.
i dont wanna be dumped in an ITE.
i wanna go NIE but i dont wanna take private A level.
or maybe i should do music at NAFA.

i dont want any stress. and they say nothing in life comes easy.
hell, why must like that one ? i want a superrr dupeerr easy life.

arghhhh.i know im blabbering randomly. very random.
im so efffing addicted to big bang's stand up album.
im addicted to Jam Hsiao's songs. like whaattt only.

i just checked. and im so not gonna be bothered to
do music at nafa. i'll fail and then cry n cry non stop.

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
wpfgjggmnbmthgjrkepqsnmhgtjmvwptokghhmdkwornbjksiwnynspwitmhod
wprhmbmekeotjhmsmaoperpgkbmtohknmttmhmgkdopwpwrkymbnmskjqwoirep
ttioprmhsppjooookpotkjmhqwoperptrnbmgeptnpeksnihjiogwobmkbmopbm

wthhhh why am i so angry/moody/agitated ?

i missssssssssssssssssss everyoneeeee!

i hate exams. again again.
i hate exams.

i watched telitubbies. until like want to fall asleep sia!
dance here dance there. im waiting for them to eat
tubbytoast luh. wahlao wth!

I WANNNNA STUDY I WANNA DO WELL! I WANT I WANT!
but why am i not doing it ? why why why ?
what the hell is wrong with me siaaa ? wahlao

i know i sound so stressed up luh but wtf i really am.

ohhhhmygodddd help me lahhhh!

im just killing time actually. i wanna study you know.
for real. but somehow .....

imissyou.imissyousomuch.imissyousosososuperloads!
iknowthissoundsidioticbutwthluh.iloveyouj.i<3you.

emely's bday

2008-09-02T16:43:00.004+08:00

I just uploaded racial harmony photo album and
dayang nurfaizah's bdae celebrations album on
my Multiply. I decided to browse through older
album in which i almost puke looking at how
kental i was last time. As I patiently view
all those pictures in disgust, I stumbled upon
one album which says Racial Harmony 2006.

Yes 2006. 2 years ago. I grinned so widely as
I look at how different but still almost the same
my friends and I look.

I was in Sec2 back then. Lower sec. As and when the
topic of lower sec came up, I will always remember
these 3 beautiful people.

None other than, Norashikin, Atikah and Amalina.
Lower sec life was so much fun as my life revolved
around these people. How we crap during lesson time.
How we compete with each other academically (and
competition was damn strong that no one fail to get
an A for every test and our marks differ by 1/2 pts only).
How we gossip about other people as if we were that perfect.
How we use free time to practise singing songs and how
we anyhow scribble on tables. How we always keep one
another awake during boring History lessons. How
we irritate one another by stealing each other's wallet
and pencil box and mechanical pencils. How we piss each other
off by not waiting for one another before going off for
recess.

Babes, I really miss those times. I wish I could just
turn back the time to those mundane and god-knows-why,fun
days. I really miss being with you guys. I miss how much
we compete academically and ensure that all four of us
get good grades.

I miss it so much . I miss you girls so much.

Remember those times ?

I MISSS THOSE TIMES SO MUCH! REALLY!

& Today is September the Second. It's Emely's birthday.
Firstly, happy 16th birthday Emely. May God bless you.
Do know, I really miss you and all the times we spent together.
Especially our project work times. Where ill pair you
up with either Zheng Chong or Wee Keong. And Ill fight with you
coz I want Kang Chuen! Hahah. Babe, remember Dol ? Yes Dol
the security guard. Dollah ? Dolly ? Ahhh, Babe May you be
really happy and may you ace the Mr Os okay! LOL! I love
you very very much Smelly! :) Muackz!

Happy Bdae Emely Love.

I sound so emotional. But fasting month always reminds me
of those 3 people. I dont know why. Its effing random luh.
Maybe because Shikin and I used to have a very big fight
during fasting month back then. And I couldn't forget how
horrible that period where we didnt talk to each other was.
Neither could I forget how we hugged each other so tightly
in the prefacts room when there was no one else coz we
missed each other so much.

I guess that's why fasting month is indeed a very good month for me.
Time to reflect.!

I miss lower sec so much. I miss 2e1 so much.
I wish I can get all of it back,now.

I miss Sufian/Suzanna too. I hope he will like
top the cohort or something this time to show
all the teachers that he dosent deserve to be
retained and stuff.

Those brothers back then. <3.

To Shikin, Atikah & Emely.
Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan.
i miss and love you girls a lot.
<3.

AHAHAHA I FEEL LIKE CRYING YOU KNOW.
WE'RE GONNA GRAD SOON AND I SO DONT WANNA
SEPARATE FROM YOU GUYS! SOBS SOBS! :(

but anyways, i wanna go bathe now.
and later break fasting at home.

bio revision's going on fine but its damn slow.
bleashhh.

bye love.
<3,shera.

HeyJ,"IloveyouIloveyouIloveyou. gettttit ?"

update

2008-09-01T12:32:00.002+08:00

blog's dead currently. im sure everyone's mugging
like mad. okay fine i'll do the same after this.
but for now, lets soak ourselves in the pool
of idol-crazy posts.

ive beeen missing out on a lot of things. yes a lot.
so just now i browsed through soompi, feeling damn
idiotic for not knowing whats in and whats not for
Korean music industry.

but i saw this. and it made my day.

ahhhhh! what could be better than all my favourites
combined together. dong bang shin ki + big bang = big bang shin ki <3.

and i saw a thread about DBSK's latest hairstyle and im loving
all of them. though mickey's bowl cut is not superbly nice but
its cute. and my jaejoong hero is still the best. <3 hero.

and and i heard big bang was at the Nike Human Race on the 310808.
they performed and stuff. and yes this is their latest look.
upon releasing their 3rd mini korean album ; Stand Up.
(Digression : omg i freaking love that album okay!)

they all look so effin hot now. especially TOP.
awwwwh check out that Shades. TOP saranghae. lol!

In conclusion, I loveee Big Bang okayyyy.

*

Anyway speaking of missing things out, I am damn disappointed
to be not-the-first-few to know that Ungu is coming to SG
for a REAL concert this time. omgggg! i feel like killing myself.

Ungu,for those who dont know, is my favourite band from Indonesia.
and they are coming and its at esplanade. and mom says i cant go
coz O level's not over yet. wtf wtf! and i told her its either ungu's
where the tix are damn cheap or fahrenheit where the tix are damn ex.

and she was like "ahahahaha no to both! ahahaha!"
funny meh ? grrrrr!

i dont care i wannnnna go and see Pasha!
omggggg Pasha is so damn hot now. i saw him
at SCTV Awards recently and he sang with Rossa. :(/:) LOL!
i loveee his hairstyle. Reminds me of him you know.

Ill persuade them.

Anyway ive been listening to big bang from yesterday night.
and btw today is the first day of fasting month.

TO ALL MUSLIMS AROUND THE WORLD,
HAPPY FASTING. MAY WE GET THE FULLEST ADVANTAGE
OUT OF THIS HOLY MONTH. AHAHAHAH BOYS MAKE SURE
YOU DO ALL 30 DAYS. AND GIRLS, AHAHAH HOPEFULLY
WE WONT HAVE TO SKIP THAT MUCH YEAH ? YAYYYYYY!

i love fasting month. alhamdullilah.

*

im gonna break fast at MOMC later. :)
and damn it, i misss everyone in school.

especially those really close to me.
and especially you, J.

*

"Ironically, This Love,is all I ever needed.
"Ironically, You're all I ever needed. &
"Ironically, I Love You. J.

I dreamt about him and her yesterday.
They had a super stable relationship.
And im damnnn jealous. But Im damnnn happy.
Haish only if its reality ehh.

till here. I will leave you guys with the super hot video clip
from Big Bang latest mini album, Stand Up. This is, Hsru Haru
which means Day bu Day.

TOP IS FREAKING HOT IN THIS. starting from 0;13.

Korean Lyrics :

[GD]

Tonaga

Yeah, finally I realise, that I’m nothing with you
I was so wrong, forgive me

[SR]

Ah~~

[TOP/GD]

Pado-chorom buswejin ne mam
Baram-chorom hundur-rinun ne mam
Yongi-chorom sarajin ne sarang
Munsin-chorom jiwe-jijiga anha
Hansuman tang-i kojira shi-jyo~o~o
Ne gasum-sogen monjiman sah-ijyo~o (Say goodbye)

[GD]

Nega obsin dan harudo mos sal-goman gata-don na
Sengak-gwanun daruge-do gurok-jorok honjajal sara
Bogo-sipdago bullo-bwado non amu dedab-obsjanha
Ho-dwen gide golo-bwado ijen soyong-obsjanha

[TOP]

Ne yope inun gu saram-i mwon-ji hokshi nol ul-lijin anunji
Gude nega bo-igin hanunji bolso sag da ijo-nunji
Jog-jongdwe daga-gagi-jocha malul-gol su jocha obso ete-ugo
Na holo gin bamul jise-ujyo subeg-bon jiwe-nejyo

[CHORUS]

Dola-bojiman-go tona-gara to narul chaji-malgo sara-gara
Norul sarang-hetgie hu-he-obgie jo-atdon kiog-man gajyo-gara
Gurok-jorok chama-bulman-he gurok-jorok gyon-dyo-nelman-e
Non gurol-surok hengbok-heya-dwe haru-haru mudyo-jyoga-ne

[GD]

Oh, girl, I cry cry
You’re, my all (Say goodbye)

[SR]

Girul goda no-wana uri maju-chinda-hedo
Mot bonchog hagoso gudero gadon-gil ga-jwo

[DS]

Jakuman ye sengak-i to-oru-myon amado
Nado mule gudel chaja-galji-do mula

[GD]

Non nul gu saram-gwa hengbok-hage non nul nega darun mam an moge
Non nul jagun milyon-do an namke-kum jal jine-jwo na boran-dushi

[TOP]

Non nul jo hanul-gati ha-yage dun gurum-gwado gat-i sapara-ge
Non nul gure-ge uso-jwo amu il obsdus-i

CHORUS

[DS/SR]

Narul tona-so mam pyonhe-jigil (Narul itgo-so sala-gajwo)
Gu nunmul-un da marul-teni, yeah (Haru-haru jini-myon)

[TY]

Charari manaji anha-dora-myon dol apul-tende, hmm~
Yong-wonhi hamke-haja-don gu yagsog ijen
Chuog-e mudo-dogil bare baby nol we-he gido-he

CHORUS

[GD]

Oh, girl, I cry cry
You’re, my all, say goodbye bye
Oh, my love, don’t lie lie
You’re, my heart, say goodbye

English Lyrics are in the vid itself. :)

byeee. happy fasting. happy mugging.
nyappy. \m/

<3,shera

tsad

2008-08-30T19:05:00.005+08:00

yetd was teachers' day. yes happy teachers day to all the teachers
arnd the world. i didnt give any cards of gifts except for one
to Cikgu Memy. she truly deserves it. and i totally respect her. :)

party in class was fine. games and food and singing sessions.
and a lot of teachers were impressed by hy's idea of the report
book thang.

happy teachers day to all teachers teaching 4e1.
plus mdm rabia who was damn sporting yetd and of course mr fan.

after school chatted with Keth and Jean for a while.
both had their own plans. I decided to follow shikin, afifah,
aainaa, izan, atikah and aida for lunch at kfc.

chatted with YC and XB for a while, while waiting for
the rest of the girls. yeah after a long time.
and goddddddd, i missss him can.

Final glance before going off. which unfortunately
i was caught red-handed. i wannna see wei yang actually.
no apparent reason though. its been quite some time since
i saw him.

oh yes speaking of it a LOT of my seniors came back. idk for
their teachers or for their friends. most, in their most trendy
clothes and whatever-pattern hairstyles. wahahahs. funny luh
but maybe its me who has no idea what Fashion means nowadays.

Went out of school and walked towards ADM. saw Remus !
I waved to him and i know who he obviously had no idea
who I am but he just waved back. On the way back
from ADM i saw him again and i called and wave
and again im sure he's like 'wahlao who the fuck is
that ? but nvm just smile and wave!". Wahahhas.
Rock rock also still nice luh.

Lunch was damn fun with the girls. And Izan remembered something
which i asked her to forget about. ahahahs.

Shikin left. SO the rest of us decided to watch a movie.
a special movie. something which is not really meant for
us to watch. hehehehhe.

watched it in Aainaa's room. well the story's okay.
but hahs, anything done with the girls is fun.

walked home with aida.

*

IM GONNA MISS EVERYONE IN SCHOOL COZ ITS THE ONE WEEK SEPT
HOLS.

damn. i cant believe its that fast.
ramadhan is starting this monday. jiayou!

i just finished only 2 chps of bio. which obviously is not even
0.000001(convert to fraction) of the whole syllabus.

how ? die ? i dont wanna die yet.
coz my humans and english is gone-case. ive only
got maths and science to effing save my life.

ive gotta really push myself. yayyyyyyy!
go go go! shera jiayou! shera hwaiting!
fight fight fight!

HAHAHAHHA!

i will come back later to tell how's it going.

*

In the meantime, some random photo i found.

different perspectives entertained. lols.

I HAVE AN EFFING URGE TO GO BACK TO MALACCA.
please please. O levels go away. i wanna go and enjoy.

i misssss this place. this place, you can call home. :)

i wannnnnnnna go back to malacca nowwwwww!

i wanna eat. then i'll study bio.

love you.
muahhhhhzzxxz.

<3,shera.

"I guess in This Love of mine,
Time won't tell the story.
How deep Ive fallen in This Love,
is all up to how I wanna judge it.
In This Love, Ive learn to fall
fucking deeply in love. Now, Id
wanna know to get out of This Love.
Hey J, I'd really wanna see you happy.
But how ? No wait, why ? I guess
your happiness determines mine.
And as cliche this may sound.
I love you J, I effing do."

ash

2008-08-28T16:49:00.002+08:00

heyyyy yesterday's post. i forgot to mention something.
apart from all those that came yetd i forgot to mention someone's
name and that person is Ashraf Khalid! Or otherwise known as Ash!

ahahahsk. sorry for forgetting you yetd.
anw yetd we chatted about NIE too. he was considering it too.
tell me your decisions okay! who knows we'll get there tgt!

ahahaks.

today's a damn bad day.

1) had a short riff with mum.
2) raining heavily. and coz of no. 1 (above) i action dont
wanna bring umbrella.
3)reached school pretty late. socks and shoes wet. that is the
number one thing i hate about rainy days!
4)the whole day freaking damn cold.
5)no mood to do Amaths. like wth!
6)shivered non stop in the theatrette.
7)forgot to bring wallet. and amanda lend me some cash though
i didnt ask for it. thanks a looooot dear! will pay tmr.
8)failed english. like thanks a lot luh. so much for
l1r5 lesser than whatever-number-that is.
9)did badly for bio mcq. as in damn damn damn badly. fuck luh.
10) didnt really do the physics ws. and copied most qns.
in the end we didnt even go through could hv told me i wudent
have copied and will do it myself at home.
11)i hate my whiney classmates who whine about their already-good
english results to US, the bloody failures.
12)O level's coming and damn it im sooooo efffing not prepared.

yes yes yes im so stressed out.
i have no idea what really happened to me. but im just too lax nowadays.
how come i used to hit the 1 and 2 or maybe the lesst the 3s and now
its all about just passing the damn thing.

fuck me mannn, really.

dumb. i HAVE to BUCK UP.

today's efffffing boring.
i hate schooool. not that i wanna venture into the working life
so much. but then why cant school be less stressing. fuck luh.

and i dont get it why must our english be assesed based on
2 effing comprehension passages ? its not fair okay.
comprehension tests you more on your skill of interpreting
the qns and passage and shits like that. its not really testing
our english only. like wtf luh.

damn so angry now.

I feel like going out this Saturday to eat.
Coz its the final day before Ramadhan starts.
damn fast. and i havent paid my 'debts'.

I can practically go and die luh.
wahlao.

sucha sian life im leading.

i think i should sleep luh.

love,shera

badminton day

2008-08-27T23:07:00.003+08:00

quick short update.

Woke up at 9.30am thanks to Shafiq or Baybee's call. ahahaha!
Initially I could not go out coz I dont know where my keys were.
And then i found the spare key. And outside my door. yes outside!
is where My keys are. Dumb ? Pretty.

I had a scrumptious breakfast of course plus Koko Crunch.
And I watched CatDog. yay!

Went out of house at around 10.20 or 10.25 am. And walked
all the way to woodlands stadium. yes i walked okay!
Healthy lifestyle lo. ahahahas.

Reached there around 11 am. And then started playing
met redzuan, meiyin, elizabeth, abu sofian, bryan and ahmad iskandar
there. and played badminton for an hour or so. sweat like hell.
so fun. and i just love how i can so called still play the game.
despite quitting the damn CCA months ago.

crapped like mad with them. 12 plus. packed up changed and left.
went to MacD CWP but I didn't eat coz Im still very full.
Walked around pretty aimlessly in cwp looking for stuffs.

And then everyone left. btw Meiyin and Redz left early.
Redz needed to take his HMT results which though he is not
happy about it i think its a good score alr.

So yeah Baybee and I went to slack under my block and talk
about all kinds of lame things. And he said something about
my balance laughter which made me laugh even harder, louder
and at an even more annoying pitch.

anyway he said he can indetify if someone is me from far, from
the way the person walk. if she walks like a gangster then
its surely me. HOW CAN ? I nvr walk like gangster okay.
I walk so gracefully loh.

slacked till 5 and went up with pooh ahahahas.

.

eat comp slack.
chores dinner slack.

and shit now chiong hw time luh.
bb.

love you all.

<3,shera.

*
'Your little name in my heart. Somehow, its always there."

geog paper

2008-08-26T21:59:00.003+08:00

English Paper 2 and Geography paper.
Both was a disaster.

English - god knows why I hate compre, compre hates me.
my vocabulary bank is damn low-class.
summary - was damn efffffffing crap. I hate it!
Please i wanna pass the paper coz i hella need
to pass english. please!

Geography - my first time not studying for an Exam paper.
Geog used to be my favourite and my best sub.
Not anymore since sec 3. Lessons get damn mundane.
Especially now, Geog periods are like do-your-own
thing-but-pretend-ure-listening kind of period.
I hantam most of the qns. Didn't do the last LORMs qns.
I know I will fail it. But damnnn please can just gimme
just pass. PLEASE!

After papers, lunch with Jeanice Kethlyn and Syuhada.
Some pathetic primary 4 kids behind us were damn noisy.
And they pretended to be some gangster-got-backup kind
of ah lian. Wahlao eh. Call your backup luh as if I scared ?
I also got backup loh! A lot some more! All either suspended
out of school or just got out boys home. So they damn free
luh!

ahahahas. or i call my WRSS Staggerted gang luh!

Went back home to change a while and then back to school.
To accompany Syuh and Jean to finish DNT stuffs. Supposed
to watch movie. but ended up talking about all kinds of
problems.

They finished but Keth and I stayed to wait for the rain.
Thanks Keth.

Walked back home and saw Redzuan Bryan Iskandar Syafiq and
Atikah at the badminton court opposite my block. Playing
badminton. I joined and im super happy to play it after
a long time. I missed it damn loads.

Kethlyn stayed under the block. Coz we were playing in
the rain. And She Want To Protect Her Hair. ahahahaa!
She step minah staggered uh just now. Lepak under block
play hp. wahahaha.

And now I think she staggering at some chalet with
the rest of the mat and minah staggered uh.

You are staggeringly missed Keth.

Went home and down again to pass something to Atikah.
To everyone retaking their Mother Tongue examination,
All the very very best and gooooood luck to you guys.
Do hit the As this time round yeah!

Went up watched Ezora on TV3. I think its one
of the final episodes so yeahh its rly nice to watch.

Anyway I watched Summer Line Concert 2008. on 8 tv the other day.
It has a lot alot alot of artiste and it was held in Melacca.
It has the likes of SHOW luo, JAM hsiao, ENERGY<3, JOLIN tsai,
some Malaysian people and more.

Performance I enjoyed most ; Show's songs. esp his dance.
Followed by Jam's and then Energy.

I LOVE SUMMER CONCERT! <3

So yeah anyway im supposed to study for bio today.
Maybe later. I wanna watch a movie damn badly.
Dad is spray painting my door, he unscrewed everything
and took my door away. so now my room has no door.

So I cant blast off some cheeena songs luh.

*

'My heart beats damn fast whenever I see you.
I thought it will go away as I give myself time.
Oh what the hell is wrong with me ? And why
of all people in this world, it has to be you ?"

I feeel like sleeping.

Nuffnang organised a competition whereby the winning prize
is meeting Lewis Hamilton LIVE IN PERSON! Effit mennn!
I have to go I have to go I have to gooooooo!

Massa won the Valencia race and Both EJ and I are devastated
coz last minute our TV dont hv that whatever channel. So
we cant watch the race. Its a new circuit and its a god
damn STREET CIRCUIT. I mean yeah we've got Monaco. budden
different coz this is Valencia's first time.

Singapore race will be on CHannel 5 leh. Live.
Night Street race. First time and Its SG. Omg.
Surely tourism sector increase like mad.

AGADFGJHOIFNBG! I WNA MEET LEWIS! PLEASEEE!
should i participate in the competition ?
I have no idea what to write.

To Meet Lewis, I'd quit school and work and save money
and buy him his favourite car! omg cooool enough ?

okay maybe not. but wth.
I wanna meet his to tell him I dont really adore him.
I like Kimi Raikonnen and Felipe Massa more. In
other words I think MM should lose coz Ferrari rocks.
And I want him to please tell Heiki Kovalainen
that he is soo damn cute on tv.

YAAAAAAAA ALL REHEARSED!
wahlaoooo i wanna meet him men!

Ive been watching the F1 for quite some time already.
Though most of the time i just didnt have the time
to watch both the FULL qualifying and the race itself.
But stillllll! I want to see him damn badly!

LOVE YOU ALL.
muahz.

<3shera.

exams

2008-08-25T20:08:00.003+08:00

Damnit. Prelims begins today.
And Alhamdullilah. God bless me. Coz my Roy tested
on globalisation and two of my favourite qns
came out. so thank god!

For the first one,however,i was left with a few lines on
the front page of the foolscap and i already used the back part
for my part B and then i realized I forgot 1 more factor so
I squeezed it into tt a few lines and it looks effing atrocious.

I hope they wont penalize for ugly handwriting because mine
seriously was ugly from the to the end even for SBQ.

Oh yes SBQ, hmm as per normal, its pretty fine when you do it
but not when you get the results.

And Ive already told myself to not expect anything good
for combined humanities coz minimum effort was put in
for SS and ZERO effort for Geography.

Which means Im pretty much dead for tomorrow.
And i really dont know what to do now.
I mean yeah i can study but how much can I cover ?
I dont wanna do things halfway.

Anyway my composition was 6 pages long. I mean it in a bad way.
coz examiners wudent wanna read compo tt are too long
and too boring. and I dont know what's with my characters in
the story. I play the role of Jessie the who wants fame!
And her best friend and partner in crime Jenny (?) ahahha
i just thought of that as the Click 5 song kept playing in my
head. And then my elder Brother, Jason ahaha i dont know why
either. And I wanted to put his best friend's name as VERNON!
ahahas but I ended up with Jordan i think.

Should have put Jacky or something. ahahha!
So cute the name.

Anyway I gotta buck up luh!
If not die :(

till here.
loadssss of love,
shera.

WISH ME LOADS LOADS OF LUCK TOMORROW!

YOGA LIN

2008-08-22T14:24:00.002+08:00

I am updating. There must be something important right ?
& Nothing's more crucial that some idol fever.

Just kidding okay. Im gonna really mug for Humans later.
Can I just take a break and love life for a moment ?

As Ive mentioned, Ive been hit by the Yoga Lin You Jia fever luh!
Yes the freaking cute one from the competition One Million Star.

Yoga Lin or James Lin is the champion for that show which is
a reality comeptition in Taiwan. He had perfect scores
for more than 5 consecutive rounds or something like that.
And won the competition's first season. And then later, he
actually signed a contract with guess who ? HIM International
Music which is exactly where the Fahrenheit boys are under.

Some random facts about him from Wikipedia.

- He got the name Yoga coz his chinese name 'You Jia' sounds like it.
- Has several other nicks i think.
- Currently has 2 albums. One a compilation of a Idol Drama called
Bull Fighting which I have to admit Ive no idea about heh! and Also
His latest album, Mystery.! :))

This is NOT from Wikipedia.

-He has a sharp nose but Zun's nose is sharper.
-He has pretty big eyes. But Zun's bigger. ahahaha.
-He has a freaking nice face shape almost similar to that of Zun.
-He never fail to remind me of Zun from certain angle and in certain
Video Clips.
-He has a super duper freaking sexy voice. :)
-IM TOTALLY ADDICTED TO HIM FOR NOW.

Anyway back to really why is he the bomb for now. I think
its really his songs that made me attracted to him. The first
song I heard from him was the first track from his album.

None other than the effing seductive ballad, Yan Se.
Note ; Seductive is what I call it based on the melody
and actions and not lyrics. I don understand what he say.

Hot ? Super.

And then I went to browse for more tracks. and listened to the whole
album which super duper kind elephanty lim guan wei lend to me.

And found that he has this freaking ability to sing
different genres, Well!

Just check out this Pop cum Jazz Piece called Bing Tai.

And check this Ballad called Bo Le out.
And this is soo soo my current favourite song.

I cried while watching the MV just now. I have no idea why.
Im touched in a way.

And I heard he's gonna or he already went on tour and so he became
the youngest to do so. Only 20 this year ?

TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE.

In conclusion, I LOVE YOGA LIN !

Dont blame me luh. I mean there a few from my classmates who
got this 'fever' too. Kelvin,Jody&Yvonne to name some.

"Sometimes they say, Some things are just not meant to be ours."

Love you all.
God please cast a spell on me.
My Geography is a freaking gone case.

muahmuah.

<3,shera

jjcake

2008-08-19T07:25:00.002+08:00

18thAugust2008 - 818.

Im super damn happy yetd. Yes, just
because he gave me a piece of his cake.
But Ive never smiled so widely and so happily yetd.

As they sang a bday song Jean already asked me what
if he comes and give me a piece of his cake and i said
Its darn Impossible luh.

And then later he really did. Jeanice thought i was gonna
faint or something.

Hahahas. I really hope he will ace the Os.

<3,shera

818<3

2008-08-18T00:01:00.001+08:00

818. Happy 17th Birthday.
May he be really really happy.
Coz that's all that matters.

I♥Y.Still.

love,shera.

MT

2008-08-16T15:41:00.003+08:00

Heyyyy All! Its been quite sometime since I updated.
Life's one hell luh nowadays. Still, Im enjoying going
to school.

Workload's increasing like F. Im super behind time for
All three sciences. ALL!

Gotten back my Mother Tongue O results.
Alhamdullilah, A1, Distinction for Oral.

Yayyyy! Mother Tongue out of the way.
I still need another 4As Coz I planned to 5 distinction.
And my English standard is deteriorating like hell.
I failed the summary test. And my composition's getting
damn mundane.

SOS!

I fall sick very easily nowadays. Due to lack of sleep
and my anyhow-eat routine. But I still havent visit the
doctor, I dont even think theres a need to. But Mr Roy
insist. Hmph! I'll see how. Either I really visit the doc
or dont ever complain or show symptoms that Im sick or whatever.

So yetd I slept early. And I slept for exactly 12 hrs.
1240am to 1240 pm. Now Im not sick already ahahaha!

Amaths paper 2 split into 2 days. Funny eh.
We did the paper for 1 hr on Friday during Maths lesson.
And we'll continue for another 1 and 1/2 hrs on Monday.

So should I study for the 'rest' of the paper ?
I dont wanna so call 'cheat' and get good grades because
I looked at my books or whatever. So howwwww ?

Anyway today is gonna be the premiere episode of Lan Qiu Huo.
Or Hot Shot. Aghhhh! Wuzun and Jerry Yan and Xiao Zhu's are the
main cast! Damnnn must watch luh!

And Someone's BigDay's coming. Damn. I wish Im SOMEONE else.
For once.

I need to go study Physics luh. Every subject all so damn jialat nowdays.

To Kethlyn and Syuhada ;
Dont step Minah Stagger okay. Later
I call all my Staggerors to stagger all of you!

Love all of you.

'I thought time was all I need. But its been so long.
How much more time do I have ? I have to focus on my
studies coz Im damn behind time. But time and time again,
Its you that managed to steal my energy and time. Why?'

NDP!

2008-08-10T12:53:00.003+08:00

8th August.

School's celebration for Singapore 43rd Birthday.
Woke up and left house late therefore reaching school
later than the rest of the concert participants. Tummy
Ache and Sneezing non stop too.

Reached school Raymond's already waiting with the Bay
Ambassador Shirt. And I didnt even realize that its this
year's version. And so its different from last year's.

Gathered for briefing and then assembled in the quadrangle
for the parade which a lot commented was crap but i dont know
what to say coz i have no idea what is it supposed to look
or be like anyway. So yeah whatever.

And my sitting position was a strategical one coz I get
to look at you know who. :))))

And then again concert participants gathered and went up to the hall.
Put our bags down and ushered the students to sit asap. And
I dont know whether its fortunate or unfortunate that his class is one
of the few classes sitting right in front of the stage. idk.

And then concert went well i suppose. But my singing for We'll
get there isent as good as rehearsals.In fact Ain said it was
out of tune. She sang Shine for Singapore with Abu Sofian.
Aiyooo issit really out of tune ? I was damn nervous luh!

But nvm. Some people were still nice to give good comments about it. T
hanks :) It totally make my day luh!

Headed to RJC with darling ROYals. And damn it the school is darn huge luh.
I told my classmates i wont be surprised if i get lost in this
colossal building. Changed to NDP shirt. And then assembled
with the rest in their huge quadrangle. Camwhored with my darlings.

FUNFUNFUN!

Sat at the back of my class and youknowwho happened to join class 5-3
which is right beside me. Strategical position againnn! :))
Im super happppy luh, really.

Played some games, did cheers and then i had to look for Jun Hong.
Natalie has i think, PURPOSELY, put me the in charge of class
5N1. So unnecessary luh. And throughout this whole week, I already
bet that it was gonna be so darn terrible. But thank god, it wasnt
that bad. Though i feel the nervousness all the freaking time.

I told myself not to be sucha coward just because of 1 person.
And in addition, the rest of 5N1 were really nice and happy people.
I was with Peipei, Taffy and Edel all the way. And they are so
damn cute luh.

So yeah the journey from RJ to our connectSG point was pretty
far but it was okay as we were talking and everyone was singing all
the way. Jun Hong was really nice luh he helped me a lot coz 5N1
is his own class. :)

Camwhored with the people and had loads of fun and laughter.
It was quite a boring even but okay luh.

And damn it, its my first time being so effing close to him
you know. So scary. & I think YC's fed up coz I keep saying
He's So Damn Cute.

lol!

Walked back to RJ. Listened to Indian songs and talk about
all kinds of Bollywood movies with Harvin. So much fun talking
about things like that. Esp anything gotta do with SRK!

Waited for my class and miraculously we are one of the first
to get back to school despite being the first one to leave school.
And we got this pretty huge bus. Yayyyy!

Reached school and had more camwhore sessions. Photos, I promise,
will sooo be uploaded soon but you gotta wait coz Im very lazy.

HAHAHAHA!

After that, went to Macdee with Aainaa, Kethlyn and Brian.
Ate and rot until we are so damn bored. We decided to go to
Admiral Garden Bball Court but then changed to some random
multi purpose court somewhere behind Adm Garden.

Played UNO which i lost to the 3 of them. :( And then talk and talk.
Brian had to leave to play Bball and Tekong. A few minutes later,
Aainaa had to leave too. So Keth and I stayed to talk EVEN MOREE.

And yes as much as I hate to admit both of us look like Minah
slacking at the void deck kind of people. But nvm. Talked about
loads of things. And i just realized tht Kethlyn and I have
the potential of becoming a great detective team.

WHYYY ?
for us to know, for you to figure out.
And the reasons are pretty lame luh.

Went back home at around 6 plus.

I didnt do anything much but wa sdead beat by before 11.
So I hit the sack and woke up up at 10 plus the next day.

9th August.

HAPPY 43RD BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.

I think Im the dumbest person on Earth to start napping at
545 pm when everyone is tuning in to watch NDP live on tv and
stuff. I soo have to watch it today luh. I slept like a fucking
pig luh. From that 545 pm all the way to 1145 pm. And that
was when everyone goes to bed and Im still at the sofa
wondering what should i do now.

So instead of studying i played the comp till about 5am.
And then slept at the sofa outisde till 11 am again.

Breakfast while watching last episode of REM. Just because
my Inspector Gomez is there, not the girls, Please!
LOL! Inspector Gomez is damn cute righttttt!

LOL!

And now im here. Charging my cam so that I can upload
the photos. FOR YOU!

*

Ive been really slacking in my studies so i fucking gotta
buck up luh really. I have to get a freaking A1 for my Amaths
paper 2! So i have to study damn hard for it. This week.

Ans we're left with what, 2 weeks for Prelims!
Die already sia!

So here they are the pictures!

On the way there. In the very old bus.

Mr Roy Mr Fan and Miss Lim.

Im lazy to resize. Click for full pic.

Royals!

Kai Yun and Hilary.

Tracy Serene.

Gen Liang Kelvin Amanda.

Bay Ambassadors plus Me. LOL!

Jac Yvonne Ling Jie.

My Super cute classmates and i. :)

Prett girls next door. Aida Atikah And Shikin.

People form 5-3. They are the only fun ones during the concert.

Super dark and Ugly in these 2 pics. But i dont hv the time to edit yet.

With Ing Jie :))

With Guan Wei :))

Darling Manting and Nerisa with myself.

LOL! no time to edit yet luh.

With XB and YC.

With YV.

With LJ.

With Jun Jie.

Peipei and Edel.

The super crazy trio from 5N1. Peipei Edel and Taffy.

Sweeet crazy them.

Kel with one tooth.

Shera.

Random.

AJX.

HL.

Thegirls.

And again.

I proved myself right. I am almost as tall as Wei Yao!

Susu and Aainaa.

With Brian.

Bay Ass!

Baby G.

Last man standing. Boon Hong.

OKAY IM DONEEEEEEEE.

Comprehension now. byeeee.

love you all.
<3,Shera.

"I saw your name there. But I was to afraid to double click.
I dont know what to say. Because I Dont know what else can
make you happy. Hey J, Why do I still love you ?"

J

2008-08-04T18:56:00.002+08:00

Dad and Bro painted the house. Not totally done yet.
Now Sp House = Jb House. Both has yellow, white and dark brown
as theme colours. Just thar Jb house is a lot more bigger than
Sp house.

Anyway school, honestly, sucked today. And Im pretty much
lethargic most of the day. I asked Keth why am I like this
and her second answer shocked me. My initial reaction
was, WTH ? Why should I bother ? But after that I could
not stop thinking about it. Maybe what Keth said is right.

Though I really don't think so.

Anyway I no longer cry because of you-know-who.
Though he always cross my mind every now and then.
I know Ill really get over it someday. Im a stronggg girl!

i dont know why but i feel IT, everytime i look at our picture.
arghhhhh! nvm.

Lessons were okay today.
though i still think 3 periods AMaths is very long.
And I failed my Amaths paper 1. And Im praying that
Mom and Dad wont ask about it.

Han Lin and I vowed to score an A1 for the next paper.
Jiayouu!

I guess till here.
Love you all!

<3,shera.

But sometimes I wonder what's the point of giving
you up, thinking that you'll be happy when I know
that, looking at how things are like now, you re not
gonna be happy ?

Is it really worth giving you up ?

lovelife

2008-08-01T23:09:00.005+08:00

You're my very first thought in the morning.
& My last at nightfall. Seriously, Am I that
pathetic ? Its been sucha long time & there
your name is still etched at the bottom of heart
and your image at the corner of my mind.

*
Friday August 01.

This week is damn fast, yet again.
But I think I love this week. Its a week of nothing but
the truth and nothing else in this world is more important
to me than the truth.

Like I mentioned, the things I hate most in this world
is 'Lies' and 'Hypocrisy'. Nothing else beats that man.

We had Amaths mock test this week, which Im totally
gonna effing flunk like mad luh. And Im very scared.

Physics's getting on my nerves and next Thursday is the SPA Skill 3.
And its on the world's worst topic ever, Electricity and Electromagnetism.
Ewwwwww, sucky.

Anyway PE was damn fun. Played Vball with the girls.
And had superrr loads of fun uh.

The rest of the day was okay esp Mother Tongue, where
Farna Kirin and I sat tgt to talk about ghost stories.
Ghost festival is here right. And Im pretty scared luh.

After school, slacked with Keth and Syuh for a while.
Something bad happen to Jeanice, even worst that my scenario.
And damn it, girl, i know the feeling sucks like mad. And
I'm gonna be honest luh, Definitely its gonna take a bloody
long time to erase him away from your mind, Just be patient okay.

Talked to YC & XB about loads of stuffs before going up for
the Farewell Party for Mr Lim. There were pizzas and Twisties.
And we sang loads of songs for him. He said Olympics 2008 is his
dream. And now, his dream came true.

BON VOYAGE MR LIM! :)
All the best and good luck there.

*

Went down and played Vbal with Kethlyn Jeanice Yun Kwang Yao
Quan and Wei Yao. Verrry funny luh everyone anyhow play except Keth.
Jeanice played better than the rest of us though. Wei Yao anyhow
play and once the ball flew up to the school's rooftop
and drop on someone's car. Scaryyy okay. But i think nothing happened.

Later played Vball again with Redzuan, Syafiq, Keth, YQ and YK.
But I forgot to open my watch. hmph.

Went back home shortly after that with Jeanice, Kethlyn,
and Syuhada.

Earlier had a conversation with Syuh. And I realize that
a lot of people are facing BGR problems nowadays. Damn it.
It hurts so badly right.

Haishhh. I hope time is all I need.
And I hope I won't keep on thinking of him.
So frustrating.

*

Had a long chat with Nate on the phone.
And then a short one on MSN.

*

Today, someone made me cry damn badly.
He said he isn't surprised if I fail my Os.
He said, Honestly, Im not scolding or anything.
But looking at you now, I really won't be surprised at all.

I just walked away slam the door and cry like mad.

You don't know what's going on with me, do you ?
You don't know what's going on in school, do you ?
You don't know how life's like for me, do you ?

If you're reading, which you usually won't, Im telling you.

A guy just broke my heart into so many fucking pieces
such that I think I lost some of it and I don't know
how to mend it back.

Yes, ALL my post from back in May.
All the "Him" and "Someone". Yes, Its that guy.
And only now that he breaks my heart.
It breaks till it hurts so badly.

Tell me, what's the fastest way to get over him ?
You dont know do you ? Well so do I. Im trying.
But how can I ? He's there every single day.

But I think i get your point.
I will study hard from now onwards.
And I will shove my results next year right in your bloody face.

*

No, of course he's not my dad. I wont say such things
about my dad.

Another loved one. Go figure loh.

*

Im going to eat Mcdee later with Ej i think.
Fats again but dont care already loh.

Byeee
Love you all.

help

2008-07-31T00:20:00.002+08:00

As human beings, everyone make mistakes. Sometimes over and
over again, unconsciously. But certain people took advantage
of that 2 lil statement and make it an excuse to repeat the
same mistakes over and over again with 100% awareness.

In addition, all the above accompanied by a complete pang
of obliviousness and made-up Ignorance, shooting at the maximum
level, is just too intolerable.

I ALWAYS make the wrong decisions in life. Always.
Such that it hurts me at the end of the day.
And it hurts the other party too most of the time.

Maybe for once, we can just have a clear win and loss
between 2 parties. One will of course end up happy
and the other one, hurts.

And as selfish as I can get. I don't mind, being
on the side that ends up hurting. I don't mind at all.

life's like that

2008-07-28T17:42:00.002+08:00

Oh man, another emotional day for me.
Sometimes I question myself would I rather see someone
that I care about feel hurt at the end of the day or feel
hurt now ?

I spilled everything out because I can't bear seeing him
be in such a position. i cant bear a single bit of it.
true, who really am i to him ? i don't matter to him at all
maybe, but he does to me, a lot in fact.

Im always so confused. :( I wished I'm a guy or he's a girl.
I would have given him a super freaking warm and tight hug.

*

Anyway i slept during Bio. as in I snooze every now and then
coz i dont understand what's going on and all i did was just copy
stuffs here and there. Im sure Mr Tan saw me sleeping, mouth open
so super ugly. hahahhaks.

Geog was boring as ever. I dont know whether I can score in it :(.

Other periods of the day were fine except for English where
I only saw that I have Bukit Panjang Compre paper to do. Yes
i just received it luh. And there was nothing about english
comprehension in my homework notebook. I hope Mrs Lim isn't mad.

Everything else was okay. And I got an A1 for the short chem
electrolysis test. but like i said it was short and i made a lot
of careless mistake and a lot of other people scored more than
30. Only a few scored like a few marks away from 30. :(

But nevertheless, I hope I can make Dad and Mom happy.
Always giving them bad news nowadays, ever since mid year, i WILL
buck up and score for them :))

I had counseling today. Due to the accident. It makes me
feel nervous luh thinking about it. And seeing Jie Chong now is
like seeing ghost like that. He has to smile first then I'll smile.

After school, I looked for Keth high and low but could not find her.
And Nate was busy doing some don't know what stuffs. So I drift away
and look for Someone.

But Zi Chang said he went home already. So I argued with him
that Im super assured he's still in school and even Jian Huang
said he already went back home.

Impossible lohh!

Anyway had a long chat with YC. Damn it, I don't know what to think
or feel now. Im really very confused and Im freaking scared.
But everything is out and I feel much better. But I dont know
about him. Gahhh.

I feel so damn useless now.
And every time i feel so, there's always a big test coming.

And hell yeah, Amaths Mock paper tomorrow. Hopefully it will
be okay uh. Not so much trigo and linear law, they ALWAYS kill me !

Went back home with YC,JH & ZC. But only EJ's at home.
I really need to sleep now coz i hella need to focus for
tomorrow.

I have no idea why Im taking things so lightly nowadays.
helllllo we're less than a month away to Os.

WAKE UP SHERA!

till then,
love, shera.

Before I go, I'll leave you guys with a clip from 100% entertainment
recently. Kel intro-ed Evan Yo to me and now Im freaking in love
with him.

damn it, he's so cute and he changed that Shuang Jie Gun awful
act cool song by Jay Chou into this super effing melodious piece.

omggg Evan Yo, only 21 you know.
Potential Hearthrob of mine.

AND LAN QIU HUO'S GONNA HIT MY SCREEN SOON.
wuzunnn <3

heartbreak

2008-07-27T12:39:00.002+08:00

'Ive been trying for the past few days.
To forget you, to forget everything.
Im a very strong girl, I can defeat almost
everything and anything. Yes, that powerful.
But I wonder, how come I can't do the same
when it comes to you. Where is my strength ?
How powerful can that feeling get ? Nothing
has ever defeated me,Nothing. But You.
Hey J, Why'd you do this to me ?'

My darling Yaya, just went home. She came onver
straight from her madrasah and though, she had mother
tongue papers tmr, she still helped me to deal with
my hair.

THANKS A LOT TO YOU DARLING.

We chatted and caught up with old times.
I miss it soo much darling. Our drama times.
Me You Ash Yaya Mita and Sufiyan :)
Such great times.

And coincidentally, Yaya is in the same situation
as me now. Omg, i totally understand your feeling girl.
I know exactly how much it hurts to be in a such a position.
To Love Endlessly.

Dont worry girl, Im sure your's will come to his senses and get
back to you. :)

*

Check out this vid. Esp the last paragraph @ 3.03 :)
A remake of the song This Love by Maroon 5 initially
in Korean but changed back to English. And its dedicated
to the one and only :)

Lyrics

This love (Yea, yea, yea)
(I gotta holla about my girl full of ''mazing') [note: amazing?]
(Yea, yea, yea) Let's do it ch'all

Yea, it's really taking me from high-low
Let's see, where should I begin?
The club on Friday night yo
Just having a good'ol time yo
The music's banging; people's like 'word'
But there was one that caught my eye, so I just had to get closer to her
She's super-fly yo, I must confess some
I'm thinking, 'Damn I need her' with a lovin' gesture
I'm about to hit her with a, 'How you've been'
'You don't remember me?' 'Hey!'
Instead I'll stick with the traditional, 'Hi, what's you're name?'
I be the GD, I'm a cool gentleman
Check out my melody, the flavor straight like your cinnamon
Feel the adrenaline; I'm pumpin' for your honey lovin' [note: HAHAHA... honey lovin']
It's all about the two of us getting together, now that's what I'm saying

Chorus:
This love got me high, I'm soarin'
Baby girl, you know I live for it
And I'll never ever hurt you
Without you, there's no life in me
This love got me proud to show it
Ain't no doubt, I'ma keep on holding
And it's on til forevermore, well baby
On and on, you know we have each other's back yo

(Whoa) Baby got them looks so deadly
And every time I think about her, man I get chills
Blessed with her beauty, yea that's for real
You know that's she's my only love
My only love baby

(Yea) She's steady by me
And no one phasin' mommy
She holds her game and that's the way she fully gains control
You ain't never wanna test her
It's surely for the best yo
Unless you wanna mess around, don't say I never warned ya
These type of girls, they goin' everyday (everyday)
It just don't stop, it comes like every way (every way)
My baby got it locked, and she came to bless me, yes we
Gon' definitely reach our destiny

Repeat Chorus

(Whoa) Baby got them looks so deadly
And every time I think about her, man I get chills
Blessed with her beauty, yea that's for real
You know that's she's my only love
My only love baby

(Yea)Come girl now take my hand (Oh)
Let us love until the end ('til the end)
Never gonna let you go
Baby we are both so deep in this (No, no, no, no)
Not a second I regret (Oh)
Gonna cherish all of it (All of it)
So amazing glad I found ya
Got me crazy for your loveliness
Once again...

Repeat Chorus

This love ....

Hey J, look at me
After you left, it ain't the same
I'm not what I used to be
It hurts so much you know?
I need you girl
Always, one-time
This love

*

I didnt touch school books AT ALL.
I have to be strong men seriously.

JIAYOU SHERA!

:)

love,shera.

tears

2008-07-26T19:55:00.002+08:00

These few days have been super emotional for me.
Been crying and crying non stop. No luh, Its not
because of the accident thang. Its another issue.

Like I said Ive finally given up. And I already told YC
everything on Thursday. And he thought it was kind and
brave of me to do what I wanted to do.

Initially, I could not forget him. Not one bit.
He keeps appearing again and again. And again,
I will keep crying and crying non stop.

So I talked to YC again and he told me to be strong!
and he's not worth the amount of tears and time.

As much as I dont want to talk about it,
I always feel much better doing so.
And Im glad YC is someone who is super understanding.

YC, if you're reading, THANK YOU SO MUCH!
You've been sucha great listener!

Not forgetting Kethlyn. Always listening to me babble about him
over and over again. And never fail to help me feel better.

To Syakirah. Thanks for alll the encouragement and time spent
to hear me out. Thanks a lot girl.

Lastly to Natalie, thanks for being there when i shed tears non-stop.
Thanks for the encouraging words. Thanksss.

YC is right. I have to be totally strong!

*

I send him a SUPERRRR LONG message on Friendster.
Even he commented that it was long. But he wasn't angry.
And now, WE'RE FRIENDS! :)))))

IM SUPER HAPPY.

*

And because Im happy, Im gonna start focusing on my studies 100%.
Ive been missing out too much because of him. And I promise
that I will definitely start mugging like mad from now
onwards.

But Im afraid feelings will come back.

Just now Mom talked about going back to JB.
Just now I did something and Ejal commented it looked
like it was some Lion Dance move.
Just now, my music playlist played both An Jing and Always
Be My Baby.
Just now, as per normal, Ejal and I were too bored so we
decided to play something like Boxing.
Just now, Ejal and I were talking about cars, when I told
him that my dream car is actually a Nissan 350Z and
it turns out to be one of his favourite cars.

Like that HOW TO FORGET HIM SIA!

But nevermind, I AM STRONG!

I shall study hard and make sure I get into a JC.
Insyallah.

I think it works if i keep telling myself, Im Happy.
So yeahhh, Im Happy and Im gonna be happy for him too.

YAYYYYY! :)

ILOVEALLOFYOU :)

Im gonna apply that DSA thang now.
Bye.

Love,Shera

Giveup

2008-07-25T00:35:00.002+08:00

Quick update coz i really need to sleep.
I am both VERY Sad and Happy today.

I have decided to really give up on the only one person
whom I really really love. Someone whom I have no idea at
all why I even like in the first place. Unfortunately, things
don't always go our way. And yes, this time it really didnt
go my way.

I have to force myself to forget him. I must forget him.
Coz he's not meant for me. I know its useless if I cry.
But I still did.

The only one thing that I want now is Him Being Happy.
I want the guy I love to be happy. That's the only thing
that can make me happy and only that can give me the
strength to move on.

I really hope things go his way. So that,even though, Im suffering
deep inside, I know that my one and only is very happy and
that is all I ever wanted.

I know i sound like one pathetic emo minah or something.
But I truly meant what I just typed and they come from
the bottom of my heart.

Im praying hard that both of them gets tgt. He will be
very happy and therefore, so will I.

I know he doesn't read this blog. That's why Im sprouting
everything out.

Hey J, I Love You.
I always do.

*

This is my all-time favourite piece by JC. And it
explains my feelings right now.

An Jing - Jay Chow

Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Shui jiao de da ti qin
An Jing de jiu jiu de
Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
Ni mei you she bu de
Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai

Chorus

Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen

bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
Bu yong dan xin de tai duo
Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo

Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni

I will really learn to give you up. :(
and its bolded.

Take care and I love everyone who's reading currently.

accident

2008-07-22T21:06:00.002+08:00

Today's incident in the canteen was extremely traumatizing for me.
I know it may seem like a pathetic way of attracting attention
but unfortunately I wasn't seeking any attention luh. I mean only
pathetic people will pretend like 'oh im so scared by the incident'
in order to get attention or whatever from teachers. I practically
got a heart attack witnessing the incident.

I have to thank these people with a must stronger heart who helped
me and consoled me throughout the whole thing.

Kethlyn Natalie Alex Mdm Su Mdm Yati Mr Nasir Mr Rumi Mrs Lim
Mdm Rabia Mdm Jaspal Ms Lim and loadss more.

I still cant erase it from my mind, definitely. And I get very
scared everytime I think of it. And I bet tomorrow's gonna be a hard
day coz I'll have to see that area again.

However, on a lighter note, Mr Rumi and Mr Nasir called me Hero.
Coz my scream alerted the boys such that they were able to
move in time before the van ramped the canteen chairs and tables.

And today's incident taught me something. Life is too unpredictable.
Anything can happen. You can sit around chatting with your
friends like what the boys were doing initially and the next minute
a van comes and ramp you. And you're gone.

And that's it youuu knoowwww.

I dont care what anyone's gonna say about this but I was super duper
worried about Jie Chong. Though, i dont know him that well
but still the fact that he could have died there and then
made my tears flow endlessly luh. and i was sobbing on mdm su's
shoulder all the way.

wahlaoooo.

And I just realized how small trivial matters like this are much
more important than realizing that your crush likes your classmate
kindda thing.

God still loves all of us.
Thank you God.
Alhamdullilah.

Reality is damn harsh.
Too harsh.

And that soooo includes the reality that Maths Mock Test P2
is tomorrow and Im in sucha state that i can even concentrate
on anything except for sleeping, maybe.

But maybe i wont be able to sleep.

I guess I will sleep first study later.

I love everyone of you. No matter who you are.

Love,Shera.

*

Boy, give me some time. I will give you up.

ai

2008-07-21T18:41:00.003+08:00

Always Be My Baby (Studio) - David Cook

We were as one, babe
For the moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free, yeah
So I'm letting you fly
'cause I know in my heart, babe
Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry, no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave, girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably,
You'll be back again
'Cause you know in your heart, babe
Our love will never end, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back, girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder, oh, oh
I know that you'll be right back, baby
Oh baby, believe me, it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my, my baby

(You'll always be a part of me)
You will always be
(I'm part of you indefinitely
(Girl, don't you know you can't escape me)
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
(And we'll linger on)
We will linger on
(Time can't erase a feeling this strong
(No way, you're never gonna shake me
(Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby)

Always be my baby...

Boy,You will always be my baby.

Damnit Life sucks. But its okay.
Fake laughters and smiles wont harm anyone.

slack

2008-07-21T00:30:00.004+08:00

Its already 12 plus but Im not asleep yet.
Coz there are a few incomplete assignments.

I realize I've been slacking too much.
Ive been staying back in school,yes,to do homework,
but it always end up incomplete still and in addition,
I always miss my nap, making me too tired to do any work
and making me fall asleep at at most 1am.

So I am gonna make sure I go back home straight away after
school tomorrow except if I cant complete the freaking amaths
homework by curriculum time.

We've got like what A month and 4 days to Prelims ?
I'm dead beat luh.

Im always very jealous when i visit people's blog and they go like
'sorry for not updating, been busy studying for the damn Os'.
wahlaooo ehh, heart pain sia. Somehow I know I wanna do well,
And I want to do well. But something in me, keep pulling me
back.

Damn and screw whatever that thing is. Sucha a stupid thing.

Hopefully I'll see improvement tomorrow. And I signed for Red Camp
already. I know I wanna go JC but still red camp dosent sound that
bad either. Just go for it, i doubt theres any harm luh.

Ironically, I think Im gonna apply for DSA also. With it, I will
be able to go to IJ with just less 20 pts. And w/o it, high chance
I wont get it. But my main aim is VJ actually coz of its strength
in drama and theater studies. At the same time, I Dont Want To
Continue Studying Like A Freaking Nerd. I dont have the energy
for any Pure science shit nor Maths stuffs.

so JC/POLY ?

My heart says JC. but my smart lil brain says Poly.

thennnn how ?

*

On a lighter note, yetd I showed Afie a picture of the most good
looking guy in the school. And he went like 'hmphhh! no laa where
got handsome!" He's jealous okay. So I shot back, "His ugliest
pic is better than ur best pic loh". And he just shut up.

And he's sucha darling okay. Superrrr sweeet. Coz he gave me
a freakingggg super belated bdae present. What else ? The Red-Gold
Adidas Watch luhh.

He passed it to me at around 2am on Friday night I think.
Thanks a lot Afie. <3.

Anyway EJ's bdae party was so-so. There were other people's bdae too.
So not all the attention was diverted to him. And the Suria Celeb,
Masturah Ahmad was there too so we celebrated tgt.

She's damn hilarious luh. Jammed a few songs with Mimi :)

But nevertheless its fun. But Im just tooo full.

*

I think today Ive listened to Always Be My Baby D Cook for at
least a 100 times and I swear luh. I replayed the Imeem playlist
and it has been playing ever since 4 pm just now. and now its 15 minutes
to 1am.

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my, my baby

*

How I wish I can get everything I want.
Everything.

*

Im gonna do Compre now. :)

Loveyouall.
Shera.

memories

2008-07-19T18:05:00.002+08:00

As I was uploading yesterday's photos, this particular
atom of thought hit me. I wondered how life would be after
I graduated, With God's Will, where every single thing in life
would be different.

I almost cried thinking of how I spent almost 4 years in that school
but never managed to express anything to the people I really love.
I can't believe time flies that fast and I don't really have the
opportunity to know everyone well enough.

I got close to certain people and they practically become my pillars
of strength. I wonder if we're going separate ways after this, I wish
we don't have to. I wished the whole bunch of sec 4E,5N and even 4N
can graduate together and go to the same place continue life
as per normal.

What's the point you might ask ?

I dont know. I dont know the answer. I know it dosent make any sense
at all. But somehow my heart says, it should have been that way.
I know there are certain people yesterday whom didnt matter one bit
to me, but how come I know that Im definitely gonna miss them once
we graduate ?

How come My Heart says So ?

*

Anyway today is the 19th July 2008. A very significant date in my
family coz its the baby's birthday. Not really a baby, but
we treat him like one coz he's the youngest and always acts
like one pathetic baby.

To my younger brother,Sheizal Sasole. Happy 14th Birthday !
May you excel in whatever that you wanna do and get good results
for your examinations. Stay happy and Healthy. And I super love you.

Loads of Love, Kakak :)

*

And Today is also Yu Chang's birthday. I know he obviously dosent
visit this blog but whatever it is, Im gonna wish a very happy 17th
Birthday to Oh Yu Chang. May he achieve whatever goals that he has
luh.

Yu Chang helped me yesterday and Im super greatful to him.
If not for him, then maybe yesterday's RHD wouldnt be my happiest.
Maybe luh.

*

Im going off to Ejal's birthday party laterrrr.
Take care everyone.

& I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU!
yessss everyone.

love,
shera.